Last Sunday of 2012 was spent with ei8ht having steamboat and our post-Christmas exchange at yl's semb house. I got nat a tumbler with eiffel tower and I didn't know that she loves it in the first place so it's all a coincidence, glad that she loves it. She didn't expect to receive that gift from me though cause all of her friends didn't give it to her before when she loves it so much, I think cause nobody knows? I'm so lucky haha. I really think I'm very smart in guessing jy's santee and with the exact reason somemore :p I sort of cheated when guessing my Santa cause I know that yl, Sheena and jy were not my Santa so after guessing mag and it's wrong, Carrie was also out of the picture already so my next guess lays is correct! Hehe. Stayover at yl's house and played dance battle and mahjong. Managed to surprise lays and mag by misleading them into thinking we're only celebrating one of their birthdays. Mag opened the fridge and thought the cake was for lays and lays thought it's for mag haha. The other cake was placed in the freezer :) There's a lot of laughter and noise when we gathered together. Evil twin's boyfriend could hear us singing birthday song for lays and mag and calling his name from downstairs cause it's very quiet during midnight. So nice of her boyfriend to send her, mag and Carrie back :) The 4 of us insisted on accompanying nat to hail a cab home cause we are worried about her safety with the recent crimes going on. Went home at 7 while the rest continue sleeping.
I want to vent out my frustration. Every week when she comes to my house, she will ask me to find a boyfriend. I know it's for my own good but please stop nagging. Do you really have to say this every week?! Even when I'm going out with my friends, she will say it's good to go out and make more friends, don't always stay at home. What's wrong with staying at home? She even continue to ask my sister to tell qh to introduce his guy friends to me even when I keep rejecting this idea. Unfortunately for me I've always been one who will always show my attitude and black face if I'm unhappy. The more people ask me to do something which I don't want to, I'll just ignore and don't reply, pretend I never even hear you. Yes I admit I'm ill-mannered but I'm really frustrated. Seriously damn pekcek! I want to have my own pace of living, please don't attempt to control me unless I let you, if not I'll feel restricted/suffocated.
Sister is sick, stomach isn't feeling well, went to many clinics and still doesn't help. Mum brought her to ktph, seeing her like this makes me think that she's very 可怜，心疼她。A small incident happened just now. Kept receiving weird messages that will flash across my phone's screen and there's a dismiss button at the bottom. Messages like "I'm watching you, 666, you're not alone and I'm beside your brother now" is enough for me to freak out. I'm a very timid person, 缺乏睡眠又受到惊吓，精疲力尽。I broke down in tears when I saw that last message and I don't even dare to tell my brother that cause I'm afraid he will be scared if he knew about it. Immediately went to my cousin's place and they found out that it's some technical prank done by people. Please, this is not even funny! Stupid iPhone, I want to change phone! Just ignore those messages, still a little scared :( No mood to post pictures, on a happier note, King of Mandopop is back!
我必须承认我没办法把喜欢的人当朋友来看待，如果对谁造成困扰我很抱歉。心没被扰乱，当然没感觉。心被扰乱了就会感觉很乱。
Monday, December 31, 2012
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Christmas exchange with family
Spent Christmas with siblings, cousins, silas & qh at Jovan's house, played saboteur while waiting for stefan to have our favourite zi char as dinner :) Saboteur is very fun, one of the most well-played turn was when my sister and qh were the saboteurs, they are really scheming and clever. I was fooled, but I'm easily fooled cause I'm always the blur one. I don't know who's my accomplices and who's not. They always gave me the 'Do you know how to play this game?' face. It makes me doubt myself but yes, I do know how to play, only some people knew what I'm doing if they are clear about who's who. After dinner was charades, it's fun and I like to guess and also be the first one to act it out, my brother's actions were the funniest, always ended up laughing cause he always changed the actions haha. My sister changed her gift for me, gave me 2 small rilakkumas and a tumbler, I love the tumbler a lot. I think the most challenging part is to give presents to qh & silas, luckily mine was Jovan. I don't want to buy gifts for guys, buying a shirt for them is so difficult, I don't know what size are they, not to forget the belts for November babies' also.
Played polar bear using poker cards, similar to police and thief, but we need to close our eyes and thief is given chances to look up and kill people while police choose who he thinks is the murderer and the narrator will tell the police if it's right/wrong and announced the person's death afterwards. Everyone is given the chance to explain their innocence and it's up to the majority to choose who they think is the murderer and that person will be dead if he/she's innocent. Watched Office有鬼, I've actually watched this multiple times but cause I think it's a nice show so I recommended them to watch it. Slept at around 3, qh went home, he lives just nearby. The fan was super powerful, I woke up a few times cause it's too cold, never sleep well. My bed is always the most comfortable :D After breakfast, we played a few rounds of saboteur and home sweet home!
Going to hy's house to play a few more rounds later, going to have McDonald's as supper :)
Played polar bear using poker cards, similar to police and thief, but we need to close our eyes and thief is given chances to look up and kill people while police choose who he thinks is the murderer and the narrator will tell the police if it's right/wrong and announced the person's death afterwards. Everyone is given the chance to explain their innocence and it's up to the majority to choose who they think is the murderer and that person will be dead if he/she's innocent. Watched Office有鬼, I've actually watched this multiple times but cause I think it's a nice show so I recommended them to watch it. Slept at around 3, qh went home, he lives just nearby. The fan was super powerful, I woke up a few times cause it's too cold, never sleep well. My bed is always the most comfortable :D After breakfast, we played a few rounds of saboteur and home sweet home!
Going to hy's house to play a few more rounds later, going to have McDonald's as supper :)
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Christmas exchange with min & bel
Super long entry today, will post the pictures after I've received it or if I'm not lazy!
At vivo today with min & bel, shopped around and dinner was at the merry men, somewhere between chinatown and clarke quay. Vivo was so crowded and there's even a long queue for the toilet. We were lost while trying to walk to our dinner place, ended up taking bus there. We were still lost, trying to figure out where is that place even after we reached. Turned out that we went one big round when it was right in front. Tried truffle fries for the first time and I think it tasted like normal fries, not much difference but I don't know why some people don't like it. Since we had already guessed one another's gifts before we even left vivo, we let min close her eyes and choose which one she wants. The order in which we received the gifts was same as last year, my secret santa was still min and my santee was bel. 3 of us bought our gifts from books/stationery store! Took lots of pictures with different kinds of camera, I had one but since it was dark, it was quite blur then we used polaroid, iphone, ipad mini & lumix camera. Thinking of changing my camera to panasonic lumix, but I don't think I've the money :( I don't mind if people are willing to sponsor or buy it for me, that's all wishful thinking, it's too expensive as a gift haha. Felt like eating my favourite chocolate, cadbury milk chocolate, almost suggested it to be a Christmas gift for myself. Anyway, ended the night sending min home as usual, she lives just next block to me. Having my 2 weeks break starting from tomorrow onwards, yay!!!
Need to confess that I've already known who's my secret santa for my family side. I really think I'm destined to spoil surprises, either that or I'm really good in guessing. Told my sister that I think it's her, we went shopping the next day and there's just too many loopholes. She helped me pay for my shirt and even went back to get another gift which is the same as the one I was getting for my friend cause she knew I like it. So being paranoid again, this is the part where I think it's suspicious cause she didn't ask me to pay her back.
When she came back, I thought she didn't buy it and was quite disappointed, thinking maybe there isn't any nice ones left. After that, she started asking me to pay her back and that's when all my suspicions on her dropped. Even when she started asking weird questions, my suspicion radar was completely off so I totally didn't suspect anything. I was thinking maybe I was wrong all along. Everything was perfect with me completely fooled. It was after we went home, I came out of my room and saw the gift on the table. Thinking it was the one I bought for my friend and somehow my mum managed to get hold of it and bring it out, I stupidly went to take it wanting to put it in my room. That's when I saw my gift still inside the bag where I left it and realised the one I'm holding onto was what my sister bought. My sister was so angry with my mum for taking it out! I didn't mean to know, it just happened! If my mum didn't take it out of my sister's bag or if I didn't go out before my sister did or if I didn't try to put it back, I wouldn't have known. All surprises are gone. I was determined not to think too much this year, but things like this always happens haha.
People should stop talking to me or leaving clues for me to pick up. My brain will automatically start analyzing, so if you are my secret santa, don't talk to me, just stay quiet ok? haha. I shouldn't think too much next time, don't ask me to guess! haha. Now I know why jy doesn't want to leave any hints for me to guess :D
感觉不到有谁对我特别好或是特别不一样。曾经以为有，现在却不这么认为了。需要一个会对我超好，关心我、疼我、宠我、迁就我、让我、尽量不骂我或对我凶等等，任由我欺负他并且懂得珍惜我的人。「We accept the love we think we deserve」
Next entry will be Christmas exchange with my cousins, siblings, silas & qh! :) Merry Christmas everyone!
At vivo today with min & bel, shopped around and dinner was at the merry men, somewhere between chinatown and clarke quay. Vivo was so crowded and there's even a long queue for the toilet. We were lost while trying to walk to our dinner place, ended up taking bus there. We were still lost, trying to figure out where is that place even after we reached. Turned out that we went one big round when it was right in front. Tried truffle fries for the first time and I think it tasted like normal fries, not much difference but I don't know why some people don't like it. Since we had already guessed one another's gifts before we even left vivo, we let min close her eyes and choose which one she wants. The order in which we received the gifts was same as last year, my secret santa was still min and my santee was bel. 3 of us bought our gifts from books/stationery store! Took lots of pictures with different kinds of camera, I had one but since it was dark, it was quite blur then we used polaroid, iphone, ipad mini & lumix camera. Thinking of changing my camera to panasonic lumix, but I don't think I've the money :( I don't mind if people are willing to sponsor or buy it for me, that's all wishful thinking, it's too expensive as a gift haha. Felt like eating my favourite chocolate, cadbury milk chocolate, almost suggested it to be a Christmas gift for myself. Anyway, ended the night sending min home as usual, she lives just next block to me. Having my 2 weeks break starting from tomorrow onwards, yay!!!
Need to confess that I've already known who's my secret santa for my family side. I really think I'm destined to spoil surprises, either that or I'm really good in guessing. Told my sister that I think it's her, we went shopping the next day and there's just too many loopholes. She helped me pay for my shirt and even went back to get another gift which is the same as the one I was getting for my friend cause she knew I like it. So being paranoid again, this is the part where I think it's suspicious cause she didn't ask me to pay her back.
When she came back, I thought she didn't buy it and was quite disappointed, thinking maybe there isn't any nice ones left. After that, she started asking me to pay her back and that's when all my suspicions on her dropped. Even when she started asking weird questions, my suspicion radar was completely off so I totally didn't suspect anything. I was thinking maybe I was wrong all along. Everything was perfect with me completely fooled. It was after we went home, I came out of my room and saw the gift on the table. Thinking it was the one I bought for my friend and somehow my mum managed to get hold of it and bring it out, I stupidly went to take it wanting to put it in my room. That's when I saw my gift still inside the bag where I left it and realised the one I'm holding onto was what my sister bought. My sister was so angry with my mum for taking it out! I didn't mean to know, it just happened! If my mum didn't take it out of my sister's bag or if I didn't go out before my sister did or if I didn't try to put it back, I wouldn't have known. All surprises are gone. I was determined not to think too much this year, but things like this always happens haha.
People should stop talking to me or leaving clues for me to pick up. My brain will automatically start analyzing, so if you are my secret santa, don't talk to me, just stay quiet ok? haha. I shouldn't think too much next time, don't ask me to guess! haha. Now I know why jy doesn't want to leave any hints for me to guess :D
感觉不到有谁对我特别好或是特别不一样。曾经以为有，现在却不这么认为了。需要一个会对我超好，关心我、疼我、宠我、迁就我、让我、尽量不骂我或对我凶等等，任由我欺负他并且懂得珍惜我的人。「We accept the love we think we deserve」
Next entry will be Christmas exchange with my cousins, siblings, silas & qh! :) Merry Christmas everyone!
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
12新作
12/12/12，难得特别的日子，这篇文章就献给我的最爱吧！J式情歌回来了！很喜欢「明明就」这首歌。「明明就他比较温柔，也许他能给你更多，不用抉择我会自动变朋友」，心酸。不管再忙都一定要履行一年发一张专辑的承诺。会履行三年之约吗？明年就是了，可是如果明年推出新电影，还会有时间吗？「不能说的秘密」是一部佳作，期待新电影，我一定会去支持的！
他的歌对我有很大的魔力，会被吸引住。因为身边的人都不太听他的歌也不爱唱也不喜欢他，所以我都尽量不点他的歌来唱。说他不好我也不反驳，没办法因为不想听到更多不好的东西。不喜欢别人说他的坏话 :(
没办法应付MM，不明白不会做，惨了 :((( 碰到特别的日子总希望能跟特别的人一起过，尤其是生日。希望我的生日会有特别的人陪我一起过。
Last minute decision to meet jy and yl for dinner at ssc astons. I already had dinner at granny's house so just went there to accompany them without bringing anything. Luckily there's shuttle bus to ssc and jy treated me to iced lemon tea! Haha. 好久没去那里吃了。Going to see them again on the 30th. Meeting min and bel on 23rd and my cousins on 25th! Haven't buy any presents yet! Still not sure of what to buy，真是的。
他的歌对我有很大的魔力，会被吸引住。因为身边的人都不太听他的歌也不爱唱也不喜欢他，所以我都尽量不点他的歌来唱。说他不好我也不反驳，没办法因为不想听到更多不好的东西。不喜欢别人说他的坏话 :(
没办法应付MM，不明白不会做，惨了 :((( 碰到特别的日子总希望能跟特别的人一起过，尤其是生日。希望我的生日会有特别的人陪我一起过。
Last minute decision to meet jy and yl for dinner at ssc astons. I already had dinner at granny's house so just went there to accompany them without bringing anything. Luckily there's shuttle bus to ssc and jy treated me to iced lemon tea! Haha. 好久没去那里吃了。Going to see them again on the 30th. Meeting min and bel on 23rd and my cousins on 25th! Haven't buy any presents yet! Still not sure of what to buy，真是的。
Saturday, December 1, 2012
kbox with yx
At kbox with yx today, helped her vent out some of her unhappiness. Sang lots of jay chou's songs and those songs which I normally won't get to sing, most of his songs are rap hehe, that's my favourite genre. Singing does help to improve one's mood. Dinner at soup spoon, I realised sometimes I do eat a lot for a person of my size. We chatted for about 3-4 hours! Unbelievable, I couldn't believe it myself. Min saw me at somerset station and we went home together :)
Honestly, yx is one of those few who has seen the noisy side of me. I don't know what is it about her that makes me feel so comfortable. She makes me want to talk, which is an amazing feat considering the fact that I'm an extremely quiet person. Maybe it's our age, or similar personalities or similar interests, whatever, I don't even know the reason why. I just know that I feel comfortable enough to be able to talk so much. 有一点一见如故的感觉。From the moment she knew me, I've already given her the impression of a talkative person, anything but quiet. This is strange, even to me. I'm a selective person, I select certain people to talk to. I just hit it off with her, which is a good thing :) That's why I always ended up talking to her whenever we meet.
Haven't thought of what to buy for Christmas exchange, haven't buy birthday presents also. Oh ya, people always have the misconception that I just cut my hair recently. I didn't, it's because I cut it to be of the same length and it's not layered, plus my thick volume of hair makes it seem like I just cut it. Truth is, I cut it since 3 months ago haha. Didn't sleep well these days, could be due to throat irritation :( Jay Chou is releasing his new album on 28 Dec 12! I can start to pre-order on 12 Dec 12, what a special date :) Excited! 期待！
Honestly, yx is one of those few who has seen the noisy side of me. I don't know what is it about her that makes me feel so comfortable. She makes me want to talk, which is an amazing feat considering the fact that I'm an extremely quiet person. Maybe it's our age, or similar personalities or similar interests, whatever, I don't even know the reason why. I just know that I feel comfortable enough to be able to talk so much. 有一点一见如故的感觉。From the moment she knew me, I've already given her the impression of a talkative person, anything but quiet. This is strange, even to me. I'm a selective person, I select certain people to talk to. I just hit it off with her, which is a good thing :) That's why I always ended up talking to her whenever we meet.
Haven't thought of what to buy for Christmas exchange, haven't buy birthday presents also. Oh ya, people always have the misconception that I just cut my hair recently. I didn't, it's because I cut it to be of the same length and it's not layered, plus my thick volume of hair makes it seem like I just cut it. Truth is, I cut it since 3 months ago haha. Didn't sleep well these days, could be due to throat irritation :( Jay Chou is releasing his new album on 28 Dec 12! I can start to pre-order on 12 Dec 12, what a special date :) Excited! 期待！
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Ah Boys To Men
Watched Ah boys to men just now, it was all right, my feelings are neutral, some parts are funny, no major dislike but couldn't say I love it too. While watching the movie, somehow it reminds me of weixian, I don't know why. Maybe cause weixian gives me the commando feel haha. Before watching this, Silas has already shown me a video of their training and explained to me about the difficulties so I roughly have an idea on how tough it is. The movie theatre was very cold, I was already covered from head to toe but I was still shivering. 超怕冷的！Even though sometimes I didn't talk, I will always be listening. Just that sometimes it's a bit hard for me to intercept cause I don't know what to say. Just carry on talking and I'll just listen, it's fine, I'm more used to listening I guess? I realised whenever I do a self-shot, all the fats will start to show, 气死人了！
Christmas is coming as well as stefan's and my brother's birthday, which means more money being spent :( Broke, poor, going to eat grass next year :(
其实这几天我在生你的气，尽量避免跟你说话，能不回答就不回答。后来想想，没这个必要。其实我很喜欢见到你，因为见到你会让我觉得很开心。虽然有时候会害怕聊的话题会让我难过，可是还是会想见到你 :) 我大概永远都不会有机会坐你的车，所以你也不用担心我住得多远，送我回家有多么不方便。
Christmas is coming as well as stefan's and my brother's birthday, which means more money being spent :( Broke, poor, going to eat grass next year :(
其实这几天我在生你的气，尽量避免跟你说话，能不回答就不回答。后来想想，没这个必要。其实我很喜欢见到你，因为见到你会让我觉得很开心。虽然有时候会害怕聊的话题会让我难过，可是还是会想见到你 :) 我大概永远都不会有机会坐你的车，所以你也不用担心我住得多远，送我回家有多么不方便。
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Min's graduation
It was min's convocation on Friday, me, bel, coli and sifan were there taking pictures with her. When will it be my turn? I still need 2 more years to graduate and 1 more year before the graduation ceremony :( Dinner was at ichiban sushi, I was very full after dinner. Believe it or not, I'm tired just like that!
Met up with min in town yesterday, kept changing our minds about what movie to watch, eventually we decided on "Pitch Perfect". It's a musical comedy, if you like musicals you should watch this. I think it's nice and I like it :) It was shopping time as usual and we went to kinokuniya. I just suddenly had this idea, why not ask my friends and cousins to buy me novels as gifts for Christmas and my birthday? I think this is a good idea, just buy any book which you think is nice, I'll read every book that you bought. It's totally worth it, at least for me. That will be the most useful present. 1 novel only cost about $15? Adopt this idea please, I'll love it. I should go see some books which I'm interested in and just ask my cousins to buy that for my birthday haha. I still remember that my uncle will buy gifts for us whenever he won lottery when we were still kids. Others bought $30 worth of toys but me? I bought $30 worth of books and they can't understand why will I forsake toys for books? I can only say I love reading :) Now that I thought of it, why am I so weird?
刚才看了优频道重播的全球华语歌曲排行榜。因为受了某人的影响，让原本就喜欢林俊杰歌曲的我更加注意他。我不排斥任何歌手，但喜欢的只有那几个：陈奕迅、容祖儿、方大同、林俊杰、周杰伦、林宥嘉。虽然周杰伦是我的挚爱，但我不是只喜欢他而已 :D 开始觉得其实蔡健雅的歌曲也很好听！
Met up with min in town yesterday, kept changing our minds about what movie to watch, eventually we decided on "Pitch Perfect". It's a musical comedy, if you like musicals you should watch this. I think it's nice and I like it :) It was shopping time as usual and we went to kinokuniya. I just suddenly had this idea, why not ask my friends and cousins to buy me novels as gifts for Christmas and my birthday? I think this is a good idea, just buy any book which you think is nice, I'll read every book that you bought. It's totally worth it, at least for me. That will be the most useful present. 1 novel only cost about $15? Adopt this idea please, I'll love it. I should go see some books which I'm interested in and just ask my cousins to buy that for my birthday haha. I still remember that my uncle will buy gifts for us whenever he won lottery when we were still kids. Others bought $30 worth of toys but me? I bought $30 worth of books and they can't understand why will I forsake toys for books? I can only say I love reading :) Now that I thought of it, why am I so weird?
刚才看了优频道重播的全球华语歌曲排行榜。因为受了某人的影响，让原本就喜欢林俊杰歌曲的我更加注意他。我不排斥任何歌手，但喜欢的只有那几个：陈奕迅、容祖儿、方大同、林俊杰、周杰伦、林宥嘉。虽然周杰伦是我的挚爱，但我不是只喜欢他而已 :D 开始觉得其实蔡健雅的歌曲也很好听！
Thursday, November 8, 2012
无助
不开心也只能用文字发泄了。我以为你会对我好，是我想太多了。帮人也要讲求利益，没有人想吃亏，这点我懂，不想帮就算了。这本来就是个人不为己，天诛地灭的世界。我是很过分，要你牺牲这么多，我不会再强人所难了。为了帮别人宁愿让我吃亏，这算什么？无助，谁可以帮我 :( 又有谁会无条件为我付出？真心想帮我的人不会跟我计较这些，就算我没要求他帮我，他也会主动帮我。不会就问别人，问题是那个人肯不肯帮你。心甘情愿帮别人并不代表别人也会这样对你！
是会让你吃多少亏？帮我有这么难吗？就这么不愿意帮我吗？ 失落 :(
是会让你吃多少亏？帮我有这么难吗？就这么不愿意帮我吗？ 失落 :(
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Chalet/awfully chocolate
Sorry, haven't been blogging much nowadays cause there's nothing interesting going on in my life right now. Rest assured this is going to be a long entry, happy reading! At the airport this Monday to send jh off to Australia, managed to see him but his sister didn't. Couldn't rush there in time, waiting for his return during December. Have a safe trip!
Only a few people turned up for DBA01 chalet yesterday. Reached at around evening, played taboo, it's still my favourite game. I totally suck at explaining, better in guessing :) It's fun, I was busy laughing because of the stupid stuff we said and the answers we gave, that's the fun part about taboo haha! Had dinner and after much persuading, I still decided to head home cause I've made up my mind even before I went there. I think I'm quite firm sometimes. Sorry I couldn't stay over cause I need sufficient rest to have enough energy to go out the next day. Next time then, provided there's another one.
3 hours of Teoheng at katong shopping centre with ei8ht today! ~Put your hands up, put your hands up~~Fantastic Baby~ I feel like going kbox again. Walked to awfully chocolate nearby and had late lunch. I didn't eat cause I ate McDonald's breakfast, wasn't too hungry. Sang belated birthday song for yl, managed to prank jy, stole her wallet and put it in mag's bag while they were away. It's payback time haha. Took cab to jy's house, played wii Band Hero and the dancing battle for Xbox. I totally love it, your whole body have to dance, there's no room for laziness. It's fun and I'm the top scorer! It was easy mode, that's why haha. Even for the dancing characters, I will always choose those with blue-coloured top, I'm a blue freak! Played until don't want to go home, keep delaying the time to go home hehe.
Sometimes I look at myself and can't stand how skinny I am! It's quite scary and disgusting, I admit :( I'll stop myself from eating after I've brushed my teeth and put on the elastic bands. I used to eat supper but I no longer do that. There's still that thing with my round face with lots of baby fats, giving up hope on trying to make it look slimmer! Why must all the fats go to my face :(
Never spend much time with my sister this weekend and she's back in her hostel now :( Feel like going for yoga's concert, but I need to save up, can't afford to spend it on a concert. What a sad life! A pity I couldn't hear him sing live, I'm sure it will be awesome! Having night class this Tuesday, 7.5 hours of break from 11.30am to 7pm. Can spend some time and do some revision for MM. Need some serious help for MM, I want to take and not give anything in return. Can I? 想跟你一起去听演唱会，其实想做的事情很多例如看电影、吃饭等，但这些都不太可能会发生。
Only a few people turned up for DBA01 chalet yesterday. Reached at around evening, played taboo, it's still my favourite game. I totally suck at explaining, better in guessing :) It's fun, I was busy laughing because of the stupid stuff we said and the answers we gave, that's the fun part about taboo haha! Had dinner and after much persuading, I still decided to head home cause I've made up my mind even before I went there. I think I'm quite firm sometimes. Sorry I couldn't stay over cause I need sufficient rest to have enough energy to go out the next day. Next time then, provided there's another one.
3 hours of Teoheng at katong shopping centre with ei8ht today! ~Put your hands up, put your hands up~~Fantastic Baby~ I feel like going kbox again. Walked to awfully chocolate nearby and had late lunch. I didn't eat cause I ate McDonald's breakfast, wasn't too hungry. Sang belated birthday song for yl, managed to prank jy, stole her wallet and put it in mag's bag while they were away. It's payback time haha. Took cab to jy's house, played wii Band Hero and the dancing battle for Xbox. I totally love it, your whole body have to dance, there's no room for laziness. It's fun and I'm the top scorer! It was easy mode, that's why haha. Even for the dancing characters, I will always choose those with blue-coloured top, I'm a blue freak! Played until don't want to go home, keep delaying the time to go home hehe.
Sometimes I look at myself and can't stand how skinny I am! It's quite scary and disgusting, I admit :( I'll stop myself from eating after I've brushed my teeth and put on the elastic bands. I used to eat supper but I no longer do that. There's still that thing with my round face with lots of baby fats, giving up hope on trying to make it look slimmer! Why must all the fats go to my face :(
Never spend much time with my sister this weekend and she's back in her hostel now :( Feel like going for yoga's concert, but I need to save up, can't afford to spend it on a concert. What a sad life! A pity I couldn't hear him sing live, I'm sure it will be awesome! Having night class this Tuesday, 7.5 hours of break from 11.30am to 7pm. Can spend some time and do some revision for MM. Need some serious help for MM, I want to take and not give anything in return. Can I? 想跟你一起去听演唱会，其实想做的事情很多例如看电影、吃饭等，但这些都不太可能会发生。
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Bel's birthday celebration
Shopping in town with min and bel, the main aim is to celebrate bel's birthday. I need to be thrifty so I didn't buy anything, can't afford to spend too much. Thank my granny for cultivating this good habit of saving money in me since young. But I still bought an iPhone casing for $2, which is blue of course! haha. I'm just a simple girl leading a simple lifestyle, I don't always buy branded expensive stuff, as long as it's something which I like, I don't care about the brand. Most important thing is that it must be cheap. It's very easy to make me happy, just get me something blue haha, but there are some exceptions.
Dinner at crystal jade korean ginseng chicken & BBQ, although the ginseng chicken soup was a bit salty, I still think it's nice :) Satisfied my craving for korean food! They did their manicure and the colours turned out well. Cakes for dessert at medzs (orchard central), their style was similar to marche but I haven't try their main course yet, going to try it someday. Got bel a bottle of perfume, hope she likes it. 7 years of friendship and still going strong, planning to go on an overseas trip together for our 10th year!
DBA01 class chalet is scheduled to be on 3 Nov, going to see all my friends! TVD is back!!!!
你对我好，我难免会得寸进尺。让我、对我好，才能让我感受到被疼的滋味 :) 我在乎的是你肯为我付出多少，必须要有实际行动。好久没一起打桌球了。。。
Dinner at crystal jade korean ginseng chicken & BBQ, although the ginseng chicken soup was a bit salty, I still think it's nice :) Satisfied my craving for korean food! They did their manicure and the colours turned out well. Cakes for dessert at medzs (orchard central), their style was similar to marche but I haven't try their main course yet, going to try it someday. Got bel a bottle of perfume, hope she likes it. 7 years of friendship and still going strong, planning to go on an overseas trip together for our 10th year!
DBA01 class chalet is scheduled to be on 3 Nov, going to see all my friends! TVD is back!!!!
你对我好，我难免会得寸进尺。让我、对我好，才能让我感受到被疼的滋味 :) 我在乎的是你肯为我付出多少，必须要有实际行动。好久没一起打桌球了。。。
Friday, October 5, 2012
Resident evil: Retribution
Watched "Resident Evil: Retribution" with free movie tickets! Hehe. The movie was nice, I like it :) Starting to put elastic band on my braces, hurts like hell, my teeth are aching real bad and I can't open my mouth wide. Putting the band on hurts the sides of my mouth too much cause I need to pull the sides till I can connect the 2 ends of it. I think my mouth is too small haha. It's very inconvenient for me during meals cause I always have to take it out. It won't hurt so much after a period of time, I guess? Just got to endure it now.
Failed attempt at organising an outing, I had my reasons for doing this. Before I even knew about it, I was finding excuses to avoid going. I'm actually quite relieved that it's cancelled cause, sad to say, I don't feel like attending either. 不开心也只是因为见不到你，仅此而已。好久都没见到你了 :( 你知不知道我会因为你避开我而觉得难过？
我是不是让某人不开心而自己却没察觉？让他不开心到不想跟我说话？还是纯粹只是没想过要跟我聊天？没话题聊哦？你对我的近况又知道多少？没兴趣关心一下吗？如果我想说，你想听吗？如果我想知道你的，你会说吗？如果某人没想过要跟你聊，那你唯一能做的就是不去打扰他，不去烦他。想聊早就聊了，人家都不曾想过你，你又为何这么想他呢？你不再像以前那么关心我了 :( 讨厌渐行渐远的感觉。
喜欢在夜深人静的时候听抒情的音乐 :)
Failed attempt at organising an outing, I had my reasons for doing this. Before I even knew about it, I was finding excuses to avoid going. I'm actually quite relieved that it's cancelled cause, sad to say, I don't feel like attending either. 不开心也只是因为见不到你，仅此而已。好久都没见到你了 :( 你知不知道我会因为你避开我而觉得难过？
我是不是让某人不开心而自己却没察觉？让他不开心到不想跟我说话？还是纯粹只是没想过要跟我聊天？没话题聊哦？你对我的近况又知道多少？没兴趣关心一下吗？如果我想说，你想听吗？如果我想知道你的，你会说吗？如果某人没想过要跟你聊，那你唯一能做的就是不去打扰他，不去烦他。想聊早就聊了，人家都不曾想过你，你又为何这么想他呢？你不再像以前那么关心我了 :( 讨厌渐行渐远的感觉。
喜欢在夜深人静的时候听抒情的音乐 :)
Sunday, September 30, 2012
shopping
Shopping with min and bel today, had dimsum for lunch at taste paradise. Walked around orchard area all the way to plaza sing. I'll never have the money to afford a prada handbag, it's too expensive. Some people can just try out EVERY bags there without a single concern for money issues. Like what ei8ht used to say: charge it to my card. I'd rather spend the money on food. I think that heels are damn nice, but people always tell me that I'm tall so I don't need them. Heels can make you look slimmer and I'm already very thin. But I still like them except that it's a bit uncomfortable sometimes. Maybe I'll get some when I need it but definitely not now. I still have 2-3 pairs of them in good condition, as good as new, seldom wear them. Wasted. I don't even have the chance to wear them. If heels can be more comfortable, I'm sure I'll have many pairs.
Caught the movie 《幸福男•不难》, I seldom cry while watching a movie but one particular scene was quite touching and I cried. Other parts were just hilarious especially the scene when 小虾 appeared haha, I feel that it wasn't that good as compared to the drama. Dinner at itacho sushi, being a rice bucket again I ordered teriyaki chicken with rice, didn't order sushi though. I want to eat steamboat, kimchi and seoul garden buffet~~~ I think all the fats went to my face instead of my arms or anywhere else.
One more thing, I'm glad that Gary is not leaving Running Man, I've grown so accustomed to all of them. It won't be the same if there's a substitute or replacement. It just doesn't feel right if any of them wasn't there, no one can replace them, not a single one. Daebak!
幸福难不难？我觉得不难，关键在于你对幸福的定义。幸福可以很简单。~如果说这是爱~《五天几年》
Caught the movie 《幸福男•不难》, I seldom cry while watching a movie but one particular scene was quite touching and I cried. Other parts were just hilarious especially the scene when 小虾 appeared haha, I feel that it wasn't that good as compared to the drama. Dinner at itacho sushi, being a rice bucket again I ordered teriyaki chicken with rice, didn't order sushi though. I want to eat steamboat, kimchi and seoul garden buffet~~~ I think all the fats went to my face instead of my arms or anywhere else.
One more thing, I'm glad that Gary is not leaving Running Man, I've grown so accustomed to all of them. It won't be the same if there's a substitute or replacement. It just doesn't feel right if any of them wasn't there, no one can replace them, not a single one. Daebak!
幸福难不难？我觉得不难，关键在于你对幸福的定义。幸福可以很简单。~如果说这是爱~《五天几年》
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Grandma's
Dinner with ei8ht at Grandma's at Raffles City, the portion of the food was quite small. We had a hard time deciding on what to eat, turned out to be a disappointment. Maybe it would have been better if we ordered individual main course for ourselves rather than sharing. Dessert at ben & jerry's, learnt some new and interesting stuff today haha. Chilled at starbucks, reached home at 12 plus, quite exhausted.
I'm hungry again :( Going to be broke soon :( Seriously, why is my face so chubby? Can my face become slimmer?
不是不想念，只是没说出来罢了。想对你说，我好想你。你是不是很忙？我们之间的对话变少了，已经没什么话题聊了。渐渐的疏远了 :(
不是能给我幸福的人就是我爱的人，而是我爱的人才是我要的幸福。~我不过是一个很想幸福的人~ 《想幸福的人》
I'm hungry again :( Going to be broke soon :( Seriously, why is my face so chubby? Can my face become slimmer?
不是不想念，只是没说出来罢了。想对你说，我好想你。你是不是很忙？我们之间的对话变少了，已经没什么话题聊了。渐渐的疏远了 :(
不是能给我幸福的人就是我爱的人，而是我爱的人才是我要的幸福。~我不过是一个很想幸福的人~ 《想幸福的人》
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Mid-autumn festival
The Teo's were at chinatown yesterday to celebrate mid-autumn festival in advance. Dinner along the food street before buying lanterns and carried it all the way to clarke quay. My first lantern was burnt cause I didn't stick the candle properly and it tilted to one side after a while. Luckily we had extra if not I'll feel sad that I can't play. Saw elvin ng but I was quite emotionless, not really excited to see him, maybe if it's Jay then it'll be a different story haha. Stephen treated us to starbucks, not a coffee lover so it will always be chocolate chip cream for me.
Partyworld with min today, finally got to sing Jay's songs, I was so deprived of it! Movie time again and fast food for dinner. I love to sing. I love watching movies, want to watch "Resident Evil 5", caught the previous ones online already. I always say I want to watch this watch that but I always ended up not watching it.
被人疼爱着、呵护着，有人关心你、宠你、对你好、甚至担心你，这种感觉很棒。想念快乐的时光。不需要问别人是否想你，因为他会主动告诉你。默默的想念着。。。
Partyworld with min today, finally got to sing Jay's songs, I was so deprived of it! Movie time again and fast food for dinner. I love to sing. I love watching movies, want to watch "Resident Evil 5", caught the previous ones online already. I always say I want to watch this watch that but I always ended up not watching it.
被人疼爱着、呵护着，有人关心你、宠你、对你好、甚至担心你，这种感觉很棒。想念快乐的时光。不需要问别人是否想你，因为他会主动告诉你。默默的想念着。。。
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
赌气
总觉得你对别人比对我还要好。如果早上传简讯给你，你的心情就不怎么好。换作是别人，你就会很有精神很开心。不想又被嫌烦，公平一点，我不逼你回答我的问题，你也别指望我会回答。你没必要告诉我所有的事，同样的我也没这个必要。又不是要你把所有的事都告诉我。这样下去我们可能永远都不会再跟彼此说话了。反正我每次只会让你不开心，你还是去跟别人说话好了，最好永远都不要理我 :( 没办法，我就是很烦很小气，以后不会有人烦你了！不知道会赌气到什么时候，虽然这对我一点好处也没有。
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
The Teo's at Seoul Garden
The Teo's gathering at seoul garden today, love the meat there! Eat till very full~ I go there just to eat the meat as usual haha. Finally able to fully enjoy my holidays, no more working, just slack at home :) Went to look for the baby my granny is babysitting, she's extremely cute! Supervisors bought me a top for my last day, so sweet of them. Managed to get the lecturers I wanted, I'm just plain lucky, I assume there will be full attendance? Shall see if I can wake up, they are all morning lessons. One thing good about that is I can have more time to study after class. Hope I can do well this time and don't let people look down on me. I wouldn't want to disappoint myself again.
Watched "Step Up Revolution", it wasn't too bad, some of the dance moves are creative. I've watched the previous ones as well, each has their own merits, don't ask me to compare, I like all of them. Reminds me of the time when I was in poly, seated inside a half full movie theatre watching a movie at this timing when the working adults are slogging their guts out. Dinner and dessert after movie, went to chill at some place and home sweet home! I just love the bond between us, I'm glad we are that close to one another. I wouldn't trade them for any other, not ever. Part of the reason why we are so close could be we used to live together when we are kids and some of us went to the same school and live in the same neighbourhood. Glad to be part of the Teo's! :)
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Watched "Step Up Revolution", it wasn't too bad, some of the dance moves are creative. I've watched the previous ones as well, each has their own merits, don't ask me to compare, I like all of them. Reminds me of the time when I was in poly, seated inside a half full movie theatre watching a movie at this timing when the working adults are slogging their guts out. Dinner and dessert after movie, went to chill at some place and home sweet home! I just love the bond between us, I'm glad we are that close to one another. I wouldn't trade them for any other, not ever. Part of the reason why we are so close could be we used to live together when we are kids and some of us went to the same school and live in the same neighbourhood. Glad to be part of the Teo's! :)
Friday, August 31, 2012
烦
可不可以不要对我这么严苛？我也是人，也会难过。我很清楚自己没什么本事，可是能不能不要贬低我？我也希望有人可以偶尔称赞我一下而不是一直念我一直骂我。我又不是没有努力！好像做什么事都不对一样 :( 快受不了了。关于这类的话题我再也不想讲。以后有没有努力我也不会说，就当做没有。我不会再奢望任何的称赞或鼓励，你就继续骂好了。我知道那是关心，可是我就是吃软不吃硬啊！也因为我知道那是关心，所以才没有顶嘴，乖乖的接受你对我的所有指责与批评。念我没什么不好，可是总该有一些称赞或鼓励吧？不要这么没人性好不好？
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Unhappiness
Parents are always quarrelling due to money issues. They don't know I'll feel sad. One of the main reason why I want to get a degree, I want a better life, I want it for myself and for them. I don't want them to keep quarrelling, regardless of the reason. Sometimes I feel stressed yet I can't tell them anything. Sometimes, I felt guilty and sad for failing. Sometimes I questioned my abilities. I'm beginning to doubt myself. Sometimes their arguments add more stress for me and my mood will be affected. Everything is about money, but money caused me to be more unhappy. 突然之间，压力变好大，因为要开学了。Being the eldest child means more pressure and higher expectations! Sigh~
Farewell lunch with my boss, a very nice and capable lady, very generous also. Treated me Japanese food and asked me to order whatever I like, of course I didn't. She treats her subordinates as her friends. I like this type of boss and she's very patient, will guide you along until you understand. Got praised by her saying that I completed my work very fast and have high level of understanding. I've her contact number now, can give her a call anytime if I want to go back during school vacation. 3 more days before I officially end my work, going to choose modules on Sat, hopefully I won't make any wrong decisions this time round. I'm very fickle-minded, always changing my mind at the last second. I just want to pass and get my degree. Please!!!
为什么喜欢跟你商量事情？因为你给的建议都是对我有利的，都是为我好的。你会帮我考量很多东西再提出你的看法。如果你有空教我的话，我会更有信心。你去忙你的，就算有事我也不会找你！我真的很依赖你，这对你来说不是件好事。
Farewell lunch with my boss, a very nice and capable lady, very generous also. Treated me Japanese food and asked me to order whatever I like, of course I didn't. She treats her subordinates as her friends. I like this type of boss and she's very patient, will guide you along until you understand. Got praised by her saying that I completed my work very fast and have high level of understanding. I've her contact number now, can give her a call anytime if I want to go back during school vacation. 3 more days before I officially end my work, going to choose modules on Sat, hopefully I won't make any wrong decisions this time round. I'm very fickle-minded, always changing my mind at the last second. I just want to pass and get my degree. Please!!!
为什么喜欢跟你商量事情？因为你给的建议都是对我有利的，都是为我好的。你会帮我考量很多东西再提出你的看法。如果你有空教我的话，我会更有信心。你去忙你的，就算有事我也不会找你！我真的很依赖你，这对你来说不是件好事。
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
气话
气话：我再也不需要你的关心，不需要你对我好，以后都不理你不烦你了。你以后离我远一点，我讨厌你！好累，好难过。没办法控制脸部表情，烂透了！心情不好，不想讲话，好像蛮明显的。如果每次都是这样，那以后的聚会我可以不要去吗？很辛苦。不想去就找借口推掉！我现在的心情就是你不希望从某人身上体会到的一样。我希望你永远都不会遭遇到会让你难过的事。我难过与否，你也不会知道也与你无关，可是如果是你难过我会不开心，会担心。
希望你真的没再想了，总觉得你还是蛮在乎某些事。我为什么要这么在乎你啊？无聊！我这么聪明，怎么可能会不懂你的意思？要我放下吗？你不可能不明白我现在的心情／处境。如果我离你远一点会让你开心的话，那就这样吧。没有重要的事就不用找你了，不用告诉你我的事了反正你也没兴趣。
希望你真的没再想了，总觉得你还是蛮在乎某些事。我为什么要这么在乎你啊？无聊！我这么聪明，怎么可能会不懂你的意思？要我放下吗？你不可能不明白我现在的心情／处境。如果我离你远一点会让你开心的话，那就这样吧。没有重要的事就不用找你了，不用告诉你我的事了反正你也没兴趣。
Monday, August 20, 2012
Modules
Discussing what modules to take, MM seems so difficult! I don't know is it a suicide decision, headache, don't know what modules to take. But at least it will be better than taking finance and accounting modules since I'm quite weak in those. My maths is also not that good, seriously, what am I good in actually? Realised that girls bear grudges easily haha, shall not mention it here, it's our secret! Yesterday's outing was enjoyable, had my favourite aston's for lunch! I like it when people make me smile/laugh, I mean who doesn't? My smile is back! Last day is on 31 Aug, having 2 weeks of rest time before school starts, dreading the start of school :( The thought of me having to study soci for the 3rd time just makes me want to kill myself. Watching running man and it's hilarious, a nice variety show!
你一定不知道你是我想要的未来，你不可能会知道的。每次提及一个没有你的未来会让我觉得难过，我却要装得若无其事。我会控制脸部表情不让你发现有任何不妥。当然，我会在你看不见的情况下流露出我的悲伤。重点是不能让你发现。就算找到一个像你一样了解我对我好的人，那个人始终不是你。我都还没放下。
你一定不知道你是我想要的未来，你不可能会知道的。每次提及一个没有你的未来会让我觉得难过，我却要装得若无其事。我会控制脸部表情不让你发现有任何不妥。当然，我会在你看不见的情况下流露出我的悲伤。重点是不能让你发现。就算找到一个像你一样了解我对我好的人，那个人始终不是你。我都还没放下。
