赌气

Told yx that I haven't decided if I want to go. Asked her to go ahead without me and don't cancel it, if not I'll feel damn bad. I know that you want to sing, so there's no way I'm going to let it get cancelled because of me. What's with the sudden change in mind? I also don't know. All I know is that it doesn't matter if I'm there or not. I strongly believe that this is the main reason, so... Let's see if I turned up that day. 那天的回复没说明你要我去。为什么不要说服我叫我去？是不是真的不要我去？你就这么不在乎哦？

真希望有人会送我回家。我猜没选择去那里是因为不想送我回家。最好永远都不要送，我自己会回！*赌气*不想做就不要说啊，每次只是说说而已 :(

DBA01 gathering

I was at orchard, getting a present for my friend and wanted to collect hy's shoes for her but it will only come after 3 so I passed the receipt to her sister when I went bugis at around 5 plus. Went to ntu alumni's teo heng with jeffrey, weixian and mel, luckily mel led us to an easier route which doesn't require us to climb the hill. Sang for 3 hours and went bugis to chat for a while before proceeding to our dinner place to meet up with the rest. I've to admit, I like jeffrey's singing, it's very nice :) I think he's the first guy who can sing jay's songs quite well haha. Most of the guys I know couldn't reach his key, so I was rather impressed with him. Dinner at vintage delicafe and chilled at raffles city's Mcdonald's. I know a lot of secrets today haha. Played truth or dare and it's seriously not my day. I'm unlucky to the max, I got it correct most of the time. Why am I so unlucky? :( I couldn't remember one of the answers to a particular question. My mind was a total blank at that moment, all I remember was that someone made me feel hurt before, but at that time, I couldn't remember the incident. Maybe I just don't want to remember. I think it's better that way. Anyway, I enjoyed my day but I was really very tired after teo heng, I just felt like sleeping which resulted in me not being in a good mood.

Good news: Jay will be having his concert on 7-8 June, he did fulfill his promise :) I'm definitely going if I managed to buy the ticket. Not sure when can I start buying. I'm looking forward to seoul garden and teo heng!!!

我觉得我说错话了。人家只是关心你，你的回复却好像是跟他说话让你很不开心，带给你很多压力。不是这样的啦，做错了就要听别人的建议，为什么要顶嘴？这样以后还有谁敢多说点什么，还有谁敢关心你？还会不会关心我就很难说了。也许别人再也不会管我的死活了。我只是觉得我说话的方式不对，如果让他不开心了，我愿意道歉。最好是没有啦，这样我就不用道歉咯！

有件事让我不开心。。。耍嘴硬，口是心非，生闷气，怄气。「大笨钟」这首歌写得真好，正符合我现在的心情。

哎

果然还是不能坐你的车不能送我回家，希望落空，害我白开心一场 :( 我的预测会不会太准了一点？ :(( 为了这种事不开心，我好像有点无聊。哎~ 确实如此。

Alone

I'm pretty much used to doing things alone, can be considered as a rather independent person. Some people couldn't do it cause they are afraid of people judging. I couldn't care less, like I said I don't want to feel restricted/controlled especially not by people whom I don't even know. Many times, it's not we who choose it this way, but some situations make it that way, we are left with no choice. But it's not something to be afraid of, I want to do whatever I want whenever I want :) However, there's something which I've not tried before and I'm contemplating whether to do it on my birthday. That is watching a movie alone, I've heard of people doing it but I've not muster enough courage to do this. It seems pretty weird to me, watching a movie alone makes me feel like I'm pathetic and makes me feel more alone than ever.

I don't know why I couldn't bring myself to do it. I think I'm too used to watching movies with someone accompanying me, too used to this feeling that I couldn't watch a movie alone anymore. Just saying though, I may not do it in the end. How does it really feel? Going to a concert or ktv alone feels weird too, maybe I can try it someday also? The first steps are always difficult but once I get over it, it may feel like nothing.

Haven't collect my Jay Chou album yet, prefer this album to the previous one. Currently waiting for my J moment album as my birthday present from my cousins haha. Current song which I'm addicted to: 傻笑, could be 2013 ktv hit song, people can stop singing 珊瑚海 already haha. [对的人，不对的时间，却放不掉]，有些人的心里始终有着那么一位放不掉的人 :( My Maths foundation is lousy to the max :(

因为容易满足的个性，所以觉得你对我蛮好的。女生会被宠坏是因为她身边有着一个非常疼爱她的男生，就像我妹一样。又再一厢情愿的想念某人了，怎么办？尽量不要想咯，不然还能怎样？又不是说想他就能见到他。

2013 countdown

Had potluck with relatives and silas yesterday, er jie cooked baked rice, pasta and made chocolate fondue with marshmallows for the small kids. We prepared crabstick and ham, popcorn chicken, chicken nuggets and seaweed chicken. Ours wasn't too much of a problem cause it's easy to prepare. I love the pasta and baked rice :) Taught the kids how to play saboteur, after that we watched stephen chow's movies, I love his shows :D Played uno stacko and blind mice in the room, the place is so small, there's not enough space for us to run but this makes it more challenging. Some people even escape like an animal, move on all fours, crawl on the floor, hide in cramped places, stick their bodies as close to the wall/bed, climb up the cupboard, wriggle, bend and twist their bodies like doing gymnastics or aerobics just to escape getting caught. It's really a funny sight haha.

The weird flash messages have stopped coming since yesterday evening. I hope they won't appear again, but for safety precautions, I've reset my phone settings, I wonder if it helps? 10 more months before I can change my phone, might not be an Apple product. Even though I've already known that it's a prank, I'm still rather afraid of the contents that I'll see. I'm glad that it wasn't a virus or a hack either. This only happens to iPhone because apparently Apple doesn't support flash, this was what my cousin told me.

Had a good night's sleep and my mood is back to normal again. If I don't have sufficient sleep, my mood will be real bad. No resolutions again, don't have this habit. It just feels like any other normal day. Here's the overdue pictures.