Finally watched Harry Potter on Wednesday with jy and the rest of my friends, thanks jy for coming cause I've 1 extra ticket:) No more HP anymore:( No more anticipating for it every few years:( I'm going to watch all the HP movies and read the novels again if I've the time haha. Had heart to heart talk with jy after the movie:)
Bak kut teh on Thursday! Ah pek was there too, long time since I last saw him haha. After the dinner, we had our heart to heart talk as usual and this time it's not the usual ones who are sharing, we managed to force yl to confess her story out!haha, going to try again next time cause I've a feeling that she wasn't completely honest, there must be some stuff which she's still hiding from us, sheena sure miss out a lot cause she wasn't there! Next time then, evil twin!haha, or we will update you again!
Had kbox session with hk they all yesterday, I'm rather sad though, my birthday wish didn't come true. I'll wish for the same thing again next year until it has been fulfilled. I want the best for all my friends:)
如果我更有自信，不要这么自卑，交多一点朋友，友善一点，不要这么孤僻，说多一点话，不要这么安静，聪明一点，不要这么笨老是被人欺负，笑多一点，不要老是板着脸等等，这样我会不会更讨人喜欢？不想改变，只想做自己，因为还是做自己比较舒服自在:)
我不喜欢被人逼去做不喜欢的事，对于不喜欢的人也一样。请不要叫我去喜欢这个人因为他人很好。人好所以呢？人好就代表我一定要喜欢他吗？难道我没有选择的权利？就因为双方都单身所以也不用在乎是不是两情相悦就把我们撮合在一起？生气！既然你这么喜欢他又觉得他人不错，那你去跟他交往不是更好？无聊！我想跟谁在一起，我自己会作决定，不要把我推给一个人，我会跟你翻脸不理你。最好是不要逼我到极限，不然我说话会很不客气，到时请不要怪我！
我希望我不是任何人的代替品/后备，我不喜欢这种感觉，感觉不好受:( 不要因为她不想去/没空，你才叫我去。我也可以选择不要去的，可是却还是没办法拒绝。换另一个角度想，如果她有去的话，你知道我不会想去的，所以才没问我。I want to be someone's priority, not an option, much less a substitute!
Celebrated carrie's birthday for her on Wed, bought a ukelele for her (has 4 strings and much smaller as compared to a guitar). It wasn't our day cause the places that we went was either full house or not enough food for 8 people or closed for some event, finally settled for chicken rice and some side dishes! Damn hungry after walking for so long! Just extracted 2 tooth on that day and I can still talk and eat normal food, I'm so brave!haha, but the feeling of missing teeth sucks, can't even bite a slice of chicken properly, got to cut into smaller pieces. Carrie had to leave early and we chilled outside SMU. Video-called mag again and I swear I really talked alot to her that night but they keep saying can't hear my voice, you all are too busy talking already! Got freaked out by a cockroach cause it suddenly landed on my hair! I HATE cockroaches, freaky disgusting creatures! Don't come near me! Ran away from it after brushing it off my hair, I can't imagine I even dare to touch it but no choice I can't let it stay there, stay off me in future! This is called karma cause we were bitching about someone then, but I remember I didn't really bitch about anyone, I rarely laugh at that person but I'm the one who had my punishment! Next time I don't want to go there anymore, I'm having a phobia now:(
I keep hearing stuff that I don't want to hear, stuff which tells me that I should let go, next time I shall stay far, far away so I won't hear things that will make me sad. Don't worry, once I've earned the money that I want, I will leave automatically without anyone forcing or asking.
我希望有一天有一个人会对我很好很好，会迁就我，让我，疼我，会很体贴又善解人意。他要很听我的话，如果他不喜欢也可以跟我讲，不要为了让我开心而逼自己去做不喜欢的事。他要陪我做我喜欢的事，不可以逼我做我不喜欢的事。我希望他会告诉我他所有的事，今天过得怎样，因为我会想要知道有关于他的一切。他会想要知道我身边的朋友，我也想要认识他身边的朋友。他要很关心我，不可以让我常常担心他，我也会尽量不让他担心我。他要非常照顾我，不可以对我太凶，尽量少和我吵架，因为每次吵完架我会不开心。他不可以和其他女生太要好因为我会吃醋。我们可以不用每天都见面，可是他偶尔要跟我说他会想我之类的话，要做一些会让我感动又开心的事。他必须一看我的表情就知道我现在的感受是什么，我不用说他也会知道我在想什么/要说什么，一切都要以我的感受为优先。他不可以欺负我却不介意让我欺负他，他也不可以骗我。他心情不好要告诉我，就算我帮不上什么忙，我还是想陪他分担一点痛苦，我不介意当他的出气筒，因为我不喜欢看到他不开心。我和他聊天时，他一定要听，不可以觉得我很烦还是很无聊不想跟我讲话。如果是因为我的错而吵架，我认错了之后，他不可以不理我，不可以这么小气，要赶快原谅我。我心情不好/对他发脾气的时候，他要懂得怎么哄我，逗我开心。打游戏机的时候，就算他再厉害都好，偶尔也要让我赢，斗嘴时最好也是让我赢，尽量不要顶嘴。他不可以丢下我一个人/让我是一个人因为我不喜欢一个人的感觉:( 我要一个会害怕失去我的人，这样他才会懂得珍惜我。
I feel like I'm describing someone that I know, just that the person he's nice to is not me...
从星期三就不开心了，因为发生了一些事，到现在还是没办法接受你的解释。同样都咳得很辛苦，同样都怕被别人误会，我却连一句慰问都收不到，有人却会买凉茶给她喝:( 你说你坐这么远听不到，请问我是要咳多大声你才会听到？等我咳完了才说要买给我，你的诚意在哪里？原来你是这样关心人的:( 我记得以前我就坐在你的旁边，也是咳得很辛苦，都不见得你会买凉茶给我。我这样怀疑你，你能说是没有道理的吗？你明明就对她比较好:( 如果真的有心要关心我的话，你也会特别去留意一下的，就算是慰问一下我也不介意。怕被别人误会，可是你还是买了啊，还是给她了啊！明明就有对她特别好，要买给自己的时候还会想到她就买给她，我呢？还必须顺便帮自己买，就算是你还钱的又怎样？我看不到你的诚意:( 重点不是谁付钱，是你有没有这个心意！算了，反正以后咳死也不用你管:( 该关心的时候你没有这么做，以后我不会再给你这个机会关心我了:( 你要对谁好，要关心谁跟我无关，再也不要管你了！以后我的事也不用你来管！气死了！问一下自己：只不过是一瓶凉茶有必要这么计较吗？有！因为它让我看清了很多事。
虽然每次生你的气都会说不要理你，不要再关心你，那也只是气话，口头上说说罢了，气消了就没事了。你不明白为什么我要请你喝凉茶，那是因为你说你喉咙痛，又对我说自己买凉茶给自己很无趣，所以我才会坚持不收你的钱。如果想对我好的话，请不要给任何理由，就只是纯粹想对我好所以才会对我好的，可以吗？不要因为你会内疚，因为怕我讲你，因为我对你好，因为我帮你做这儿做那儿等等理由所以才对我好，我不会接受这样的好意。Be nice to someone just because you want to, that's all I asked for, it isn't too difficult is it? 我太小气了，这样子不行:(
不开心的时候会一直重复听周杰伦的歌，而且就只有听他的歌，我的气才会消，心情才会变好。如果你们看到我一直在重复听他的歌就大概知道我的心情应该是不怎么好，所以请不要来惹我。其实我很容易哄的，看到我难过跟我讲一点话还是让我笑一下来分散我的注意力就好了:) 不然就说有关周杰伦的一些东西就可以了:)
一直都是我在吃醋，你什么反应也没有，因为你对我一点感觉也没有:( 很难过，但我必须接受这事实。已经告诉自己很多次了，你只是朋友，却没有一次真正把你当作是朋友过，反正我会再努力的，也许有一天我会成功忘记这一切吧？也许有一天，我不会再这么在乎你，不会再这么关心你了，到底什么时候才不会这么在乎你呢？
We were supposed to be meeting bel for a farewell day out before she went hongkong, but she couldn't make it the last minute so I only met up with min on 25 June:) Had my all-time favourite fish & co:) Did some shopping and some walking from bugis to orchard, went to the new F21 outlet above Orchard MRT station, it's bigger than the outlet at 313 I think? Anyway, I enjoyed the day out with her and that's the first time I encouraged her to spend! Usually, I'll be the one to prevent her from spending and bel will be asking her to spend, well, I guess I just played the part of bel when she's absent!haha.
Played street fighter IV on xbox with cousins & sister yesterday:) I just love street fighter and my favourite character is Ken, always used his hoyuken (anyhow spell cause I don't know the exact spelling haha) until hy was so sick and tired that she said the one she hates most is Ken! But that's his trademark move and I only know how to use that haha!
Work was tiring as usual, I always feel sleepy after lunch, that's the toughest period when I've to fight against the sleepiness:( Couldn't keep my eyes open, got to force myself to stay awake:( Terrible feeling! Increased workload, tough decision between deciding to be efficient or not, being efficient means increased workload and praises from supervisor but not efficient means reduced workload and maybe negative impression? Dilemma:(
Was given this question from my sister: Will I get jealous easily? Erm, after giving it some thought, I think it depends on how much I trust that guy. I have a vast range of acceptable stuff like if I trust you, I can even allow you to go out with another girl alone and I won't mind. You can have the freedom to do whatever you want as long as you don't do anything overboard like betraying me that is. But if I suspect that you are interested in that girl, I'll get jealous very easily if I see you talking to her, just talking to her will trigger my jealousy. I'm that extreme, but no choice though, I can't stop myself from not being jealous. So it's better that I trust you cause I'll let you have lots of freedom:) But if I get jealous, I promise you it will be hell, just kidding haha!
Imy:( I miss you:(
