Monday, December 12, 2016

生日快乐

每年都会送上生日祝福,今年也不例外。最想做的却是陪在你身边和你一起庆生。或许没有我,你会比较快乐,至少不用对我发脾气,不用骂我。我什么都不说,什么都不问,不烦你也不打扰了。希望你会遇到真心对你好,甚至比我对你更好的人。希望你身边的人都会对你很好。怀念以前不管怎么吵都会和好的日子。有你在,我真的很快乐。我知道他不会回来找我的。

生日快乐,希望你快乐。

下个月要去缅甸了,既开心又期待 :) 有点不习惯没有告诉你。以前会说是怕你找不到我,可是现在你又没有要找我。



Friday, November 11, 2016

不可能

I finally changed my phone after 5 years, surprised that my 4s can last for so long. The new phone isn't too bad since I don't really need to charge my phone when I'm outside. I always charge it in office before meeting my friends, so no problem of being unable to charge phone and listen to music at the same time. The earpiece is the same, just that there is an additional cable for the earpiece. I was really hoping there will be a blue version but I'm fine with silver too. No more black for me, it's time for a change.

Been reading soul screamers series (volume one), this novel has 4 volumes. It's about a girl, who's a bean sidhe (banshee), when you hear her scream, you know that someone is going to die. Female bean sidhes' wail sounds like a soul song to male bean sidhes. The males can Influence a person and calm them down. Together, they can save a soul but saving one means another person will die in exchange. Interesting and captivating story, I'd recommend this book to anyone who prefers a little fantasy.

The world's changing, I hope nothing bad comes out of it.

我一直都希望你会对我好,这跟我对你好不好没有关系。不管你信不信都好,对你好也只是希望你会因为这样而开心,仅此而已。最后能为你做的事就是不再打扰,我不再烦你希望你会更快乐。对你好的时候帮你的时候,怎么不说我在浪费你的时间?前阵子忙到没时间做自己的事却还是用了仅剩的时间帮你。你看不见我对你的好,你只感觉的到我在烦你在惹你生气。我不会再多说任何一句多做任何一件事更加不会浪费你宝贵的时间。

你说的话真的很伤人,听了真的令人很难过。我没那么厚脸皮可以装作若无其事又回去找你。我很想你,又能怎样?明明就很在乎很关心你,要怎么装作没这回事?我太依赖你了,失去你的后果我自负。我很想见你。如果可以,我想一直待在你的身边。我一点都不想离开你,不想失去你。你说了那些话以后,这些都已经不可能了。我讨厌不可能这句话。能理解不代表不会难过。要我当你的朋友也是不可能的事,这么多年了我都没有成功过。你开心就好,可惜我只会惹你生气。

Saturday, August 6, 2016

Watched 'Jason Bourne', had free dinner, free movie, free popcorn and drinks! So happy but they provided sweet popcorn so I went to buy my salted popcorn instead. No one to snatch with me, I can enjoy it myself :) The movie is nice with lots of action-packed scenes. I like the car chasing scene, damn exciting.

Had tanyoto steamboat with yx, the tomyam soup is good. I tried tomyam first and couldn't really taste the tomato soup afterwards. I love tomyam! The chicken, fish and crab are fresh and tender. Pork and beef slices are thin so it cooks easily. They have an apron for you to wear so your clothes won't get dirty. I'd recommend this to anyone who likes steamboat, eat until very full. Watched 'train to busan', this is a MUST WATCH, totally my kind of movie. This is beyond exciting, it's thrilling, makes me tense and nervous most of the time. I can feel my heart beating very fast as though I'm experiencing it myself. It's not gruesome and definitely not a horror movie. I don't like the ending though, actually all it takes is just one selfish person to ruin the whole thing. One of the rare occasions where I cried, I always cry when it's related to family or animals. Although I've watched 6 seasons of walking dead, I still can't get used to people dying because of infection/getting bitten by the zombies. I just feel that it's very sad and 可惜,especially when they could have survived but sad endings make people remember. I really like this movie, it's brilliant and fantastic.

Pokemon go has launched today and everywhere I go, all I hear is this. I downloaded it too but haven't started yet, don't want to get too addicted to it. Heard a lot of girls want pikachu but all I want is charmander, it's the first pokemon episode I watched. Hopefully I won't be too obsessed with this game.

Going to myanmar and bkk next year, I can finally go bkk! Jetstar suddenly change our myanmar return flight to a later timing, confirm need to take leave the next day :(

Looking forward to see my favourite guy in sept! Can't wait! I hope he will sing new songs like 一点点 or 告白气球, I think a lot of his fans like 告白气球。Better still if he can sing 不该 with amei, that will be the best. 不该 is quite difficult to sing even for the guy's part. That will be the highlight of his concert if he really managed to get amei to come but he always don't have special guest for his singapore concert.

收不到你送的纪念品,所以我叫别人买给我来弥补心里的遗憾,但毕竟不是你送的。其实我并不是很喜欢星期天出门。你不在也好,我就不用听到会让我难过的话,不会一直要你送我回家。你觉得谁重要就去在乎谁,反正这跟我没有关系。不想勉强你也不想勉强我自己。

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Yu Cun Claypot Curry Fish Head

Had dinner at yu cun claypot curry fish head at taiseng for carrie's birthday. Ordered claypot curry fish head, spinach, radish omelette, shrimp paste chicken and pork ribs with salted egg. Each of us only had to pay $15, cheaper than nat's $300 zichar, not sure why hers was so expensive. The food is nice, we finished our dinner at 8 and sat there chatting for 2 hours. There was some music playing at the background but they changed it to happy birthday song while I brought the cake out. They even brought out a banner with the shop's name and the words 生日快乐 on it. They helped us take a video too. Surprise well-planned :) The cake from chocolate origin is better than awfully chocolate, at least I didn't get sick of it so fast. They keep playing jj's songs, seems like they like his songs very much.



Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Conjuring 2

Watched Conjuring 2 and it's not that scary as conjuring 1. Nonetheless, I still got frightened by the loud sound effects. Can't be helped, I'm a very timid person. I've no idea why I keep watching horror movies even when I'm so timid. Got to eat my salted popcorn, so happy :) I still think that thai horror movies are nicer, at least it's not just to scare you, there's always a storyline and a twist at the end. For thai horror, most of the time there's a reason why they are being haunted by a spirit/ghost. For angmoh horror, sometimes I don't even know why there's this spirit/demon there, like it just appeared out of nowhere. I admit that angmoh horror are just there to scare you but not thai ones. Thai ones are worth watching. 听了不想听的话,当时的我慌了,非常不自在,很想逃出店外。每次希望你送我回家而你却没这么做的时候,我总是非常非常失落 :( 我一点都不体贴一点都不善解人意,我很霸道很任性,就是要你送。我想以后也没机会送了吧,也不能一起出国了,也见不到狗狗了。想跟你一起去台湾的心愿好像很难实现。随口说的话,我却信以为真。我经常留意你是否有用我送的礼物,你却从来都没用过。因为我不重要,所以我送的礼物也不重要也可以不用在乎我的感受。所有跟我有关的事都不重要,那就把要送我的东西留给比我重要的人吧。

这意味着从此你会消失在我的生命里而我会失去你。你也不会再回到我的身边,不会回来找我。想跟你多说几句却经常把话吞回去。我需要你的时候,你总是不在。我不是你喜欢的类型所以不会有任何结果。喜不喜欢跟合不合适是两回事。我会很难过很想你,我经常为了一时的想念而一直回去找你。你从来都不需要我留在你的身边。有好几次想任性的跟你说,我不要你跟别人在一起不要你跟别人结婚。我想一直待在你的身边永远都不要离开,你却给不了我要的。还好你看不到不知道也感受不到我的难过。好好照顾自己,希望你会过得很好,会很开心,虽然再也看不到你的笑容了。遇见你真的是件非常开心的事。你虽然不属于我,我却舍不得让你走。做了自己不想做的事,怎么样都不会开心的。喜欢你在身边的时候,只要你在我就会很开心。失去你让我觉得很难受。常常惹你生气让你不开心是我不好,是我太贪心,总是希望你能为我付出更多。不要离开我,这是我最想对你说的话也是我希望你能对我说的。

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Mahjong, Guan Hoe Soon - Peranakan

Played mahjong at yl's house, lost $6 in total. Yl's boyfriend and jy won, her boyfriend is too pro. Went yishun to eat prata but our main purpose is to go holy cow creamery because yl wants to go. Tried their double scoop ice-cream charcoal waffle with mao shan wang and earl grey lavender (maybe? can't remember). For durian lovers, you have to try it. Even someone like me, who seldom eat durians nowadays, like it. I'm sure durian lovers will love it too. I do eat durians but feel that it is too heaty so I tend to avoid eating it too often. My dinner is only $2 since yl treated us to waffles haha. It feels great to be chauffeured back most of the time.

Meetup with ei8ht for peranakan food at guan hoe soon after finding good reviews online but we were disappointed. It doesn't really taste like peranakan food, tastes like chinese food I feel. The waiter kept asking us to order large portion when we insisted on medium. I thought we were going to sing birthday song at the restaurant so I brought the cake there. Ended up bringing the cake with me everywhere we go. Wanted to go awfully chocolate after that but my cake is from awfully chocolate. It will be quite stupid cause it defeats the purpose of me buying it in advance.

Changed the venue to churros factory and I remember that churro101 has a tagline 'better than a boyfriend'. Well, I can't say my boyfriend is still better because I don't have one. I like churros but I think that having a boyfriend is still better. Went around borrowing lighter from other shops cause churros factory doesn't have it. Managed to surprise jy, although I have no idea why she didn't see me carrying the cake around. The box is so big, even evil twin sees it. Bought chocolate rum and cherry flavour, it's nice but a little sweet for me. Purposely sent nat home cause we want to see her 'mysterious' house, the house where nobody has ever gone to despite so many years of friendship, but we still didn't manage to see it. Never mind, next time then.





Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Marvel 'Captain America Civil War'

Bought a new spectacle, like finally. Bought it at owndays, chose the desired frame I want, took eye examination and 20 minutes later my spectacle is ready. This is subject to availability, sometimes if they don't have stock, you may have to wait for a week or so. Chose a blue frame although it looks like black. Only 3 people noticed the change so far, you have to be really observant to notice it. I've used up my sheet masks bought from tw, I want to go back and buy more. Tw's masks are more moisturised and thinner.

Meetup with DBA01 at badoque upper thomson, was really happy when they arranged to meet there cause I have direct bus from my house. Had blue oyster, garlic chilli chuka (octopus) and kepak bing bing (spicy chicken wings) for starters. The chicken wings are insanely spicy, not that I tried, not after I saw their reaction after taking just one bite. There's a lot of chilli padi, even if you scrape it off, the flavour is still there. Shared flounder fish and chippies with boonie cause the portion is too big for us. Badoque mojito (lime and mint) is nice although it's a little sour but I like citrus taste. The fish is tender but I don't think the food is nice, sorry no offence, just my personal opinion. Failed birthday surprise cause bib kept waving the birthday cake in front of us and got nagged at by ji. The cake is too sweet for my liking.

Movie night with colleagues, watched Marvel's 'Captain America Civil War'. Although I love blue but sorry I am #teamironman. I wouldn't have watched it if it wasn't for ironman and it's free, so why not? I was actually contemplating whether to watch this movie so imagine how excited I was when I knew that my company is going to sponsor us haha. The movie is nice, always watch till the end for marvel movies, they always have something at the end. Full of action, never a dull moment, that's why I prefer marvel to dc. I can't imagine anyone falling asleep but someone did. Such a waste to miss some parts of the show. Antman and spiderman joined in the fight too, I watched antman's movie so I knew who he was. There's a new character I've never seen before. I still think that avengers is nicer cause they introduced new characters with powers I've never seen before but I knew what the new characters are capable of in this movie. They aren't exactly new anyway, there goes the element of surprise. Marvel's action film never fails, as always.

前阵子有件开心的事想跟你分享,对你来说可能不是很重要但我却想让你第一个知道。结果始终没说,因为觉得你可能对我的事不感兴趣。不管发生了开心或是不开心的事,我总是想第一时间让你知道。我过得一点都不好,一点都不开心。虽然还是很想待在你的身边,可是我却做了你希望我做的事。不想见的人一直出现,想见的人却不见踪影。你应该过得很好吧?这样也好,我不会再惹你生气让你不开心,你也不会嫌我烦。谁会在我每次逃离他身边的时候把我给找回来?我知道你忘了,可是我还在等你带我去三盅两件。说到这个,突然想吃肉脞面。

从前从前有个人爱你很久,但偏偏,风渐渐,把距离吹得好远。



Saturday, March 26, 2016

Batman V Superman: Dawn of Justice

Attended my cousin's wedding banquet at gim tim imperial court restaurant last sunday. We took many pictures using the props at the photo booth. The bride and her mum looks so pretty that night, the bride looks like a disney princess. My impression of brides are their makeup are too thick which I don't like but my cousin's makeup was all right, at least it looked nice on her. The food is all right but not as good as I expected it to be.

Went to visit teo heng's new outlet at causeway yesterday with all the professional singers. Yeong as usual sang his oldies, he even know how to sing cantonese and hokkien songs. 佩服。Ji livens the atmosphere with his fast songs, mel can hit all the high notes, jeff is the best among us. I like that I don't have to say a thing, they just automatically selected jay's songs for me. Went to have mango bingsu for dessert at kokomama, bingsu is really popular nowadays. It usually consists of ice shavings, condensed milk, korean rice cake, ice cream and fruits. Went to wang cafe and sat down for a while waiting for time to pass and headed over to kith cafe. Ordered truffle fries, calamari, smoked duck pizza, smoked salmon pizza and kung pao chicken pizza.

Walked over to the cathay for our movie, if you asked me why do I always choose this place to watch movie, it's because of them. It has become a habit for me to watch movies there since we always do that on wednesdays when we ended school early during our poly days. Watched 'Batman V Superman: Dawn of Justice', I'm neither a fan of both of them. I'm a fan of ironman. This movie wasn't that good as compared to 'The Dark Knight'. I almost fell asleep during the front part but I forced myself to stay awake. It started getting more exciting towards the end with more action. I feel that there isn't a need to watch this movie, 'The Dark Knight' is way better.

Currently using the app hy introduced, sing by smule. This app needs iOS8 or later, I had to update my iOS in order to use it. You can sing a duet with someone else or find those songs which you can do a solo cover. My vocals are not as good as hy but I tried my best, she's really damn good. You can delete the recording if you find it not as good and record it again until you are satisfied with the results. It is recommended to use earpiece mic for better quality. If you don't mind listening to my not so beautiful voice, you can find me at snowqueen_m.











Friday, March 11, 2016

Morganfield's

Dinner at morganfield's, silly me didn't see the signboard of bistro 1855 and went in. Sat there happily waiting for them until yl came and asked me if we are at the right place. Went to check the name on the reservations list and realised that it's not jy. The thing is the staff directed me in when I asked and all this while I didn't know that I'm in the wrong place. Morganfield's was just beside and I thought it was all connected. Sometimes I really think I never put my eyes to good use, really don't know what am I looking at.

Ordered some appetizers to eat while waiting for the rest. Chilli cheese fries is nice but not the popcorn pork. Didn't drink any beer cause I don't like beer. Had sharing platters where we get to choose 3 stickybones flavour, garlic bbq, honey rum and probably spicy asian? Can't remember the last one. Their ribs are really tender, not too tough to cut or chew, I like. We are still a little hungry so we ordered appetizers again. We love the loaded chilli nachos, the spicy chicken wings wasn't too nice I feel.

Ordered a cake/brownie for nat's birthday, the staff just randomly put the cake in front of her while she was talking on the phone. Nice timing and she ended her call so abruptly haha. Reached home at 11 plus, so tired. It's my first time taking downtown line home, luckily we didn't take circle line if not we will go one big round.

I have quite a number of leave this year but not really going anywhere. Well, my plans of going anywhere failed, they either get postponed or cancelled. Currently there's only the plan of going bali but then again if this gets cancelled, I really won't be going anywhere this year. What's the point of having so much leave when I'm not going anywhere? Envious of my friends going for holidays, I want to go too. Sad :(





Sunday, February 21, 2016

Steamboat

Steamboat dinner at evil twin's house, it's been a few years since we went there. Bought haidilao tomato soup base but it doesn't taste anything like the original. It's so bland, we had to pour 2 packets but it only makes it slightly better. There's still a difference, disappointed. Bought lesser ingredients than usual but her dad kept adding stuff for us, too full to finish all. He shared his bottles of red and white wine with us, kept on persuading us to drink and he really poured a lot. Not that I drank any of it, I have never drunk wine before.

Played blackjack with them, I kept on losing. Uncle and mag are the only lucky ones to win, uncle is too lucky already. He won double when he is the banker. I lost all my money just before his turn to be banker, luckily I stopped if not I will lose more. I lost the money kelvin lent me too, why so unlucky :( He staked his bet on me and gave me the winnings to guard my wealth but I lost it all. Evil twin and I are really best friends, get lousy cards together and die together but I'm worst than her. Continued second round (mahjong) and I won! Mahjong suits me more haha. We left at 4 plus after finished playing west wind, didn't finish a session since lays got to work the next day.

I thought I can finally go bkk this time round but I guess I really have no fate with bkk. Have been planning to go there since a long time ago but somehow or another the plan always fails. Why is it so difficult for me to go there, why are there so many obstacles? Can I go bkk? Does anyone want to go with me? :( Sigh, I give up.

Sunday, February 14, 2016

CNY

Happy Chinese New Year! More additions to our big family this year. Coincidentally the cousins are all wearing the same colour code. Went to rooftop garden for our 'photoshoot', credits to jovan our photographer. The triplets wore the same shoes. Really love my 初一 dress although it's a bit short.

Caught 'mermaid' movie by stephen chow on 初二, a comedy romance. The mermaid is innocent and pretty. I like the movie, it got more funny as the film progressed. Predictable storyline. Lots of laughter and tears (from hy), I knew she will cry, always so sentimental. I feel touched but didn't cry. The only 2 movies that make me cry are 'hachiko' and 'money not enough 2'. Maybe animals and elderly are my greatest weaknesses. It's difficult to make so many people laugh while watching a movie but it's even more difficult to make them cry. If you want a good laugh, you can watch 'mermaid'. The message the director is trying to deliver is to love our environment and stop doing harmful things to it just for your own personal gain. Hy and I were in the shelter while the rest took pictures despite the rain.

Dinner with bel and min at gusto, we shared truffle fries, seafood squid ink pizza and carbonara since we are not that hungry. Ordered somersby apple cider, mixture of apple flavoured drink and alcohol (4.5%), suits my taste. Received my birthday present, I'll definitely use it. Went to walk around after that and tried not to be in the train by 9.30pm as it is considered too early according to bel.

情人节,有个人陪,有花收,也挺好的。

要离开就赶快离开,离开了就不要再回来了。自私的我没办法说出祝你幸福这种话。我对你的付出你不曾放在心上。就算我很难过,你也未曾心疼过。跟别人的毫无反应比起来,这样的反应确实很可笑。不要再舍不得了,对方并没有相同的感受,他的未来没有你的位置。唯一后悔的只是没办法留你在身边。照顾好自己,不要生病,我就不会担心了。

我好想你,好想你,却不露痕迹。我好想你,好想你,却欺骗自己。











Friday, February 5, 2016

Steamboat

Dinner at y cube mookata, food was good, wouldn't mind going again. Wide variety of food to choose from, they even have abalone, salmon, ice cream. Mixture of bbq and steamboat, soup was nice but it got more salty towards the end, could be due to the bbq meat juices flowing down. They bought a cake for me, I managed to finish half but it was getting sweeter so I stopped. Knowing me, I usually don't pay attention to my surroundings so I didn't notice that mag was holding a cake on the way here until I heard yl ask why is there a cake. I was a bit slow, still thinking whose birthday is nearing until I realised a few seconds later that it's me. I also happened to see jy opening the box under the table after dinner. I pretended I never see anything and looked away, wanted to ask her to pass me something then I saw the candle. Too obvious already, I can't feign ignorance anymore. After dinner we tried our luck calling Teo Heng, managed to get a room at suntec much to our surprise. Most of them haven't been to Teo Heng for so long that they didn't know how to choose songs so I chose all old songs for them while jy chose all the latest ones. We ended up listening to the original singer rather than sing k. Too tired when I reached home at 2 plus.

Steamboat dinner at crystal jade (zhongshan outlet), was expecting to eat my favourite tomyam. Ended up eating 麻辣 because they took the wrong order, I don't like :( With expectations comes disappointment :( 不开心 :( Everywhere I go, I always choose tomyam soup base for steamboat unless if they don't have. I want to eat tomyam :(

When someone likes the stuff you gave them, they will use it in front of you so that you know they like it. If you have never seen them use it, it means they don't like it. That is why actions always speak louder than words. They may say they like it but you don't believe it. 也许就是因为很任性,很霸道,很固执,才会这么惹人厌吧?每次都希望你会送我回家,可是我却总是没办法说出口。送我回家这四个字很简单,可是我却怕被拒绝,怕尴尬,脸皮不够厚。又没有说不要你送,是我的暗示不够明显吗?直接说我送你回家不就好,为什么还要问 :( 怎么可能会不要你送,就这样走掉,什么都不懂,不开心 :( 你什么时候才会看穿我的心思?与其收到祝福的话,我更希望你能陪在我身边。还会不会见面是个未知数。我想应该没有机会一起出国了,可惜 :( 杰伦要来开演唱会了,我还是希望你能陪我去。这些都是我没办法对你说出口的话。Feelings don't come with a switch, you can't turn it off as and when you like. You can pretend like it doesn't bother you but deep down, you know that's not true.

Happy CNY, everybody! Happy birthday to myself too.





Sunday, January 3, 2016

Happy 2016

Christmas was spent at relative's house, having ready-made bbq food. I won't say it's horrible because it's still edible but I don't like it. Went to jovan's house and played monopoly deal, they keep wanting to make me bankrupt, keep on taking my money and property. My simple-minded brain can't catch up with their scheming minds, 玩游戏没有所谓的亲情感情 haha. Well, in the end I still win even though I'm bankrupt, even winning once can make me so happy. Had supper after that, tomyam soup cravings satisfied :)

Last day of 2015 was spent at cousin's house as usual, tokky's 2 nieces came and joined us for a while. Jh asked meimei who she hopes will lose uno stacko and she kept looking at me even though I'm not playing! That's because she's not close to me initially and I never even attempt to play with them, I'm concentrating on my tv show. 小孩子都希望跟自己不熟的人会输,可是我们却是希望跟我们熟的人会输。After that they went crazy playing with me, as long as there's someone who is willing to play with them, they will like that person. When it's time to go home, meimei is still standing at the door asking me to play hide and seek with her. She doesn't want to go home. Had mac for supper delivered to us by our usual delivery person, hy, managed to countdown with her.

Brunch at symmetry with ei8ht, I was late because I don't want to get out of bed when it's such a nice weather to sleep in. Ordered big breakfast, it's good although it's a little on the pricier side, eat till very full. Evil twin guessed it's me on the first try, not fun at all but I got her what she wanted - gopro case. My secret santa was jackie, had a hard time guessing. He got me what I wanted, charmander nanoblock :) Our budget is $20 and I thought the price is about $15 so I only asked for one :( Should have asked for one more, ironman nanoblock but I'm still very happy with my charmander. I was still asking him a lot of questions about his present on the train ride there. I keep trying to play mind games, questioning him about the size of the present since his bag seems quite flat and empty. Since my nanoblock is small, I was trying to see if I can get anything out of him. I even asked if the person is coming but his answers managed to make me drop my suspicions, not bad. Played truth or dare using the china version cards jy brought and htht, I'm lucky to get only 1 dare. There's the extreme worst case and super good one like 生不如死 (got to do every punishment decided by the dice each one of us throw), 君子报仇十年不晚 (each of us have to do the punishment now), 免死金牌 (don't need to do any punishment) and 时来运转 (the previous player has to accept the punishment on your behalf). The usual 4 (2 pairs of twins) went to jy's house to play board game munchkin, only managed to play 2 rounds cause we are busy trying to figure out the rules of the game, there's too many rules to follow. It's rather confusing at first, we have new questions popping out for every turn, need to refer to the manual for guidance. Swee choon for dinner at 10, not that hungry anymore so didn't really eat a lot.

我很想你 :( 可不可以不要离开?可不可以不管我说什么都不要让我离开?不用等到以后,每次说要离开就已经后悔了。不想离开才是真心话,其它的都是口是心非。不是办不到,只是不想。