Singing at partyworld for 2 hours, I can't sing guys' songs with their low pitch and power/strength. My throat hurts. A night of fun and laughter, especially when I get to see who I want to see:) Find it weird to hear people calling my sister's name, still quite used to them using the term "your sister". Wanted to sing 氧气 but couldn't find the song :( 难得有人想唱！Almost forgot about this song. It was a bad idea to let zr know where I live. I hope he won't come without warning, if he's really referring to me. I did tell him not to come again, hope he listens.
希望有个人会把我宠得无法无天，会很疼我，这种感觉应该很不错吧？A lot of people dote on you when you're still a small kid. It's a different story when you grow up. 我不想我不想不想长大~ Still feel like singing and I didn't get to sing a single Jay Chou song. Never mind, there's always a next time!
为什么要油腔滑调？还是是真心话？每次都是称赞别人，我会想很多的，想很多了就会吃醋了。这么喜欢怜香惜玉 :( Quote: 总是有那么一个人，会把你气的直跺脚，把你伤的直哭，把你弄得像个疯子，但是只要他说句什么，你就又会笑的最甜。Very true, 你就是那个人咯。
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Saturday, June 23, 2012
TCC
Shopping with min and bel, didn't buy anything cause my pay is not in yet, controlling my expenses now. Had our dinner at TCC, there's a 1 for 1 promotion and I just realised my camera will automatically switch to smile detector mode when using the front LCD. Planning to go bangkok this July but that depends on whether we are able to take leave. Having graduation trip with them next year, location is not fixed yet. I want to go Taiwan, Australia is too expensive, won't be able to save up that much. I don't even know for sure that I'll be able to graduate by next year! Going Teo Heng to sing next next Saturday!!! Love singing :)
Almost met with an accident on my way to work, none of us was at fault. I guess the driver didn't see me coming but luckily he braked just in time. I need to be more careful. Work just keep coming my way. There isn't a need to do any overtime currently, good in the sense that I can reach home earlier and have sufficient rest. Colleague gave me a ride home on thursday, although I'll have free rides everyday, I declined the offer. Feel quite 不好意思 to hitch a ride even though we live in the same area. People thought that I've a boyfriend. Maybe because people of my age are mostly attached, hence the misconception. 我非常欢迎男生来追我! Haha.
Why can't I sit at the front seat of the car? :( I thought there will be someone to teach me MM but I was happy for nothing :( I love soya milk, drinking it at least once a week.
没办法达到你的标准，忘了我也需要一点称赞吗？总觉得能被你重视的人称赞是一件值得开心的事。跟你聊天让我觉得很开心，超喜欢跟你聊天的！快乐就是这么简单 :)
Almost met with an accident on my way to work, none of us was at fault. I guess the driver didn't see me coming but luckily he braked just in time. I need to be more careful. Work just keep coming my way. There isn't a need to do any overtime currently, good in the sense that I can reach home earlier and have sufficient rest. Colleague gave me a ride home on thursday, although I'll have free rides everyday, I declined the offer. Feel quite 不好意思 to hitch a ride even though we live in the same area. People thought that I've a boyfriend. Maybe because people of my age are mostly attached, hence the misconception. 我非常欢迎男生来追我! Haha.
Why can't I sit at the front seat of the car? :( I thought there will be someone to teach me MM but I was happy for nothing :( I love soya milk, drinking it at least once a week.
没办法达到你的标准，忘了我也需要一点称赞吗？总觉得能被你重视的人称赞是一件值得开心的事。跟你聊天让我觉得很开心，超喜欢跟你聊天的！快乐就是这么简单 :)
Friday, June 15, 2012
working life
2 weeks have passed since I started working, I'm always very tired after work. If I'm early, I'll have to ask for the keys to finance department. Once, I was late for work and the security guard called me when I continued walking past the guard house cause the keys are not taken yet. I was shocked cause it's 9am already, so when I went up, everyone turned to look at me, don't like too much attention focused on me.
Some of my colleagues tend to raise their voice when they get frustrated explaining things over the phone. Why can't they use a nicer tone? Luckily my supervisor and her colleagues in the same room as her are much nicer. They always make me laugh haha. I can hear their laughter from outside the room. Once, they just shouted out my name in the room and I could hear them from my place. My supervisor's children are very cute, they like to call her and continue to talk even after they said bye haha.
Colleagues having heated arguments scared the hell out of me. I can't win an argument. If you're smart, you'll know that by threatening me with the things that I care about will make me give in immediately even when I stubbornly refuse to compromise a while ago. If I like talking to you and you said things like you won't talk to me again out of spite, I'd have lost the argument completely. It also depends on the person who said that, of course if I hate you, I don't even care.
如果认为我无故发脾气，或许是因为不明白我要什么/我在想什么。我要的只是被别人在乎，想被视为特别或重要的人。因为我不重要，所以就可以把关于我的事都忘掉。不应该不开心的，不应该发脾气的，不应该对你这么坏的。很想念那个对我好的人，想念那个霸占我思绪的人，可是。。。他不知道。如果知道了，会不会反感？应该会不喜欢。
Some of my colleagues tend to raise their voice when they get frustrated explaining things over the phone. Why can't they use a nicer tone? Luckily my supervisor and her colleagues in the same room as her are much nicer. They always make me laugh haha. I can hear their laughter from outside the room. Once, they just shouted out my name in the room and I could hear them from my place. My supervisor's children are very cute, they like to call her and continue to talk even after they said bye haha.
Colleagues having heated arguments scared the hell out of me. I can't win an argument. If you're smart, you'll know that by threatening me with the things that I care about will make me give in immediately even when I stubbornly refuse to compromise a while ago. If I like talking to you and you said things like you won't talk to me again out of spite, I'd have lost the argument completely. It also depends on the person who said that, of course if I hate you, I don't even care.
如果认为我无故发脾气，或许是因为不明白我要什么/我在想什么。我要的只是被别人在乎，想被视为特别或重要的人。因为我不重要，所以就可以把关于我的事都忘掉。不应该不开心的，不应该发脾气的，不应该对你这么坏的。很想念那个对我好的人，想念那个霸占我思绪的人，可是。。。他不知道。如果知道了，会不会反感？应该会不喜欢。
Monday, June 11, 2012
Recognition
Got reminded of some stuff and I lost my cool. I just want to be recognised for my efforts, why does it seem so hard? I remember my teachers used to say I'm a hardworking student and that's all. My sister? She's very smart, intelligent etc etc. She doesn't need tuition, I need and even after tuition, my grades are not comparable to hers. Not that I want to compare, but people have always been comparing. I don't mind cause that's the only way for me to improve but the thing is, I wanted so much for them to recognise my hardwork but they never did. They only see the results, I don't know how to study smart, I only know how to study hard. Only people with good results get praised, I don't.
I've always been stressed about my results cause I'm afraid that my relatives and family will start comparing. Things doesn't get better when you have a cousin of the same age who scores higher grades. I used to quarrel with my sister over results cause she's always trying to prove that she's better and I hated that. I used to hate my aunt who will tell all her friends my results and compare it with her daughter's. When friends talked about grades, I always kept quiet until the point when I've no choice but to answer.
I'm very sensitive when it comes to this topic. I tried not to but sometimes I failed and ended up making people agitated with me. The reason why I like Chinese so much? Because that's the only subject when I feel like I can be on par with the rest. That's the only time when I feel like there's finally something which I'm good at. Whenever there's something I'm good at, I'll be very happy even when it may seem like a normal thing cause others are good at it too. But you will never know what it means to me, you can never imagine my happiness. 就算没有很好，也请不要贬低我。不是故意发脾气的，但每次不被认同的时候就会这样。就会误会别人的意思，会乱发脾气。
有没有这么一个人，就算是我的错，他也不忍心责备我，不忍心生太久的气，因为他知道我会很自责？有时候做错事，会有不想道歉的时候。
I've always been stressed about my results cause I'm afraid that my relatives and family will start comparing. Things doesn't get better when you have a cousin of the same age who scores higher grades. I used to quarrel with my sister over results cause she's always trying to prove that she's better and I hated that. I used to hate my aunt who will tell all her friends my results and compare it with her daughter's. When friends talked about grades, I always kept quiet until the point when I've no choice but to answer.
I'm very sensitive when it comes to this topic. I tried not to but sometimes I failed and ended up making people agitated with me. The reason why I like Chinese so much? Because that's the only subject when I feel like I can be on par with the rest. That's the only time when I feel like there's finally something which I'm good at. Whenever there's something I'm good at, I'll be very happy even when it may seem like a normal thing cause others are good at it too. But you will never know what it means to me, you can never imagine my happiness. 就算没有很好，也请不要贬低我。不是故意发脾气的，但每次不被认同的时候就会这样。就会误会别人的意思，会乱发脾气。
有没有这么一个人，就算是我的错，他也不忍心责备我，不忍心生太久的气，因为他知道我会很自责？有时候做错事，会有不想道歉的时候。
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Work
Work has been fine so far, haven't encounter anything too difficult yet. Colleagues are friendly but we seldom talk cause everyone is too serious in their work. I don't mind cause I'm quiet in nature and need to focus all my attention in my work. Don't want to make too much mistakes cause not everyone will protect me and cover up my mistakes. I've made tons of mistakes in the past and I'm thankful that there's always someone to shield me from all the scoldings. I didn't utter a single word of gratitude, feel weird saying it but I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart. Seems like I didn't help much when I really wanted to help.
The current difference is.... there's no one to chat on the phone with me. They teach real fast and they expect me to be able to do it right away, I still can catch up as long as they show me how to do it. May have damaged my vocals due to the cough, sad. Whenever I start taking cold drinks, my cough will act up again, this is so irritating.
Feel like lunching in cause I'm lazy to walk out, the distance is a little far. The lift was under servicing today, one month plus didn't climb stairs, was panting when I reached level 4. Stamina is dropping. I like being cared for:) 羡慕那些每天都可以接触到你的人，跟某些人太要好我会吃醋。我很容易吃醋的，也许你会受不了，所以不开心的时候都不敢告诉你原因。只是小事，所以不用让你知道。好想把生活的一点一滴都告诉你，喜欢有人问我今天过得怎样:)
The current difference is.... there's no one to chat on the phone with me. They teach real fast and they expect me to be able to do it right away, I still can catch up as long as they show me how to do it. May have damaged my vocals due to the cough, sad. Whenever I start taking cold drinks, my cough will act up again, this is so irritating.
Feel like lunching in cause I'm lazy to walk out, the distance is a little far. The lift was under servicing today, one month plus didn't climb stairs, was panting when I reached level 4. Stamina is dropping. I like being cared for:) 羡慕那些每天都可以接触到你的人，跟某些人太要好我会吃醋。我很容易吃醋的，也许你会受不了，所以不开心的时候都不敢告诉你原因。只是小事，所以不用让你知道。好想把生活的一点一滴都告诉你，喜欢有人问我今天过得怎样:)
Saturday, June 2, 2012
MBS
At MBS with ei8ht, dinner at ding tai feng and went to ku de ta for drinks. Had an awesome view of the casino and night scenery, felt that the drinks were overpriced and service wasn't that good. I drank tea for the whole night, damn full! First time singing birthday song in the lift, all the way from level 57 to level 1. Same old topics being discussed, but at least the secret is out. I pretended that I didn't know anything. My lips are tightly sealed! One more out of the singles club! I like our 默契 when we have the same facial expressions when taking pictures:) Awesome night with awesome company, cabbed home, dead tired.
Starting work on Monday, now that I've found a job, I don't feel like working. I hope I can last throughout the whole period. Need time to get used to the work environment, people and the work being done. Make new friends.... does it mean make more GUY friends? I hope that's not what you meant. I predict that people will start asking me are there any male colleagues in your workplace? Is there anyone whom you are interested in? etc etc.
我不喜欢主动，更不喜欢主动去认识异性，所以不要奢望我会去倒追任何人。该主动的永远都应该是男生，我对这点深信不疑。我发现我是个没有安全感的人，不管我有多信任你，我还是很难有安全感。因为自卑的心态，觉得自己不够好，有人和我一样吗？
Hooked onto 范曉萱's 《氧氣》，nice song:)
Starting work on Monday, now that I've found a job, I don't feel like working. I hope I can last throughout the whole period. Need time to get used to the work environment, people and the work being done. Make new friends.... does it mean make more GUY friends? I hope that's not what you meant. I predict that people will start asking me are there any male colleagues in your workplace? Is there anyone whom you are interested in? etc etc.
我不喜欢主动，更不喜欢主动去认识异性，所以不要奢望我会去倒追任何人。该主动的永远都应该是男生，我对这点深信不疑。我发现我是个没有安全感的人，不管我有多信任你，我还是很难有安全感。因为自卑的心态，觉得自己不够好，有人和我一样吗？
Hooked onto 范曉萱's 《氧氣》，nice song:)
