因为我的固执让你不开心了，对不起。不是不想见，而是不能见。我超想见你，可是我还记得你那天说的话。每次想念你或是想跟你说话，我就会不断的对自己重复你那天说的话，一直重复到不想找你为止。少了之前的主动，我的简讯少了，关心少了，甚至也不再打扰你了。虽然不想这样，可是你说的话我都听了也都照办了，你还要我怎样？难道要我在你面前哭你才会知道我有多痛苦吗？要留谁在生命里，你自己决定，不要再让自己后悔了。
或许我们这一辈子都不会再见到彼此了，或许就会这样渐渐的失去你。你又不是第一天认识我，我有多固执你怎么会不知道？我这个死脑筋很死板不懂得变通。一想到要见到你就会很开心，可是也很怕会因为某些事而难过。我不想让自己不开心。我也很挣扎很痛苦啊，明明想见却又要逼自己不去见你。因为很想见你，所以我的决心差点动摇了。仔细想想，我是有多难过才会下如此大的决心不再见你。
我们给不了彼此想要的，这不是我想要的永远。或许这就是最适合我们之间的距离。我还是那句话，希望你快乐。如果要我笑着祝福你，抱歉我办不到。没有必要在伤口上撒盐吧？你幸福与否跟我没有关系。不要再说些会让我不开心的话了，不要让我这么纠结。
你和别人不一样，至少你不会逼我做我不想做的事，即使我固执得无可救药。
我还是很想你，很想见你，但没有办法当你的朋友。很抱歉让你失望了。
Thursday, February 16, 2017
Monday, February 6, 2017
Platform 1094, 初九
Went to Platform 1094, Harry Potter/a wizard themed cafe, for my birthday celebration. They have potions and poisons, potions are the non-alcoholic drinks while poisons are the alcoholic drinks. Some of the drinks are mentioned in Harry Potter's books like the love toxin, truth venom etc, although the names are not exactly the same. A must-order is the goblet of fire which is the flaming brew secret recipe. I had fun playing with the flames, I'm easily amazed by it, seems magical enough to me. Their mains and truffle fries are not bad either, worth a try, you can easily spend about $30 plus in this cafe. They also have all the props - wands, cloak, wizard's/witch's hat, round spectacles etc for you to use at Mrs Lich's corner.
初九 was at jy's house, eating pizza and instant noodles with abalone, playing ban luck and in-between. 今年属马的还挺旺的，but 8 of us are born in the year of horse so it is a matter of which horse is more lucky. I thought my luck was not too bad since I won some money at ban luck but I lost more during in-between. I don't think I can play that, I should just stick to my ban luck. Purposely never wear black so I can win money but in the end still lost. Lou-hei with full attendance of 9 people on cny day 9, here's to a 长长久久 friendship. Celebrated the Aquarius babies' birthdays, although yl accidentally spoilt the surprise by saying they bought a cake. This is our 10th year of cny together, looking forward to our 10th year anniversary photoshoot at SP :)
初九 was at jy's house, eating pizza and instant noodles with abalone, playing ban luck and in-between. 今年属马的还挺旺的，but 8 of us are born in the year of horse so it is a matter of which horse is more lucky. I thought my luck was not too bad since I won some money at ban luck but I lost more during in-between. I don't think I can play that, I should just stick to my ban luck. Purposely never wear black so I can win money but in the end still lost. Lou-hei with full attendance of 9 people on cny day 9, here's to a 长长久久 friendship. Celebrated the Aquarius babies' birthdays, although yl accidentally spoilt the surprise by saying they bought a cake. This is our 10th year of cny together, looking forward to our 10th year anniversary photoshoot at SP :)
