Sending Carrie off to Korea

At airport to send Carrie off to Korea for exchange. Made a card for her, shall see her in 5 months' time! :)

可不可以不要渐行渐远？可不可以让我一直烦你，一直依赖你？多么希望可以在你闷的时候陪你聊天，偶尔让你欺负我一下，让你说我几句。我当然不介意三不五时去烦你，可是你应该会觉得烦吧？你会介意我这么做吗？会不会打扰到你？不知道为什么还想对你好，欠你的应该还清了吧？不用再补偿了吧？什么时候才会换你对我好／在乎我／想念我？:(

Botanic garden

Studying at Mcdonald's with evil twin on Saturday before going cousin's house for a simple dinner and belated birthday celebration for me and my sister:) Played scramble with friends with them and we formed teams, of course my team won since most of them are not too familiar with the game. Faster go and download and play with me!!!

Out with ei8ht to Botanic Garden yesterday for picnic without evil twin:( Hope she's feeling better from her fever. The last time we went was like 4-5 years ago? Thanks for the blueberry hazelnut cheesecake (for my birthday and carrie's leaving for korea soon) but I don't like nuts! Started talking about how difficult it is to find a job and going for interviews, passion and commitment in the job, office politics etc. I hate the dog-eat-dog world out there and I think I tend to trust people too easily. Can't be helped, I guess I'll have to learn it the hard way. After that went for some ice-cream and started talking about shotgun marriages, those very quiet and obedient girls seem more likely to get involved. Don't worry guys, I assure you all that I'll think very carefully before doing anything rash. I will not have a shotgun marriage:)

有时候还蛮希望有人会为我付出，会对我好，会送我回家，会送我礼物等等。以前，有人送我回家过，有人对我很好，有什么好东西都一定跟我分享。我至今还是觉得他们人很好，有点怀念以前，不用去怀疑别人对你的好是不是有什么目的／有什么居心，不会觉得别人在利用你，就只是纯粹的想对你好。以前我的世界就是这么简单，这么单纯。我不想长大，不想去面对这残酷的社会。

你过得好吗？有什么事让你不开心吗？为什么要关心你，在乎你？你都不在乎我，而且你开心与否都跟我没关系。不知道为什么还蛮喜欢作弄你的，觉得很好玩 :D 喜欢故意惹你生气，也喜欢逗你笑 :)

music dreamers cafe

At music dreamers cafe 爱琴海 民歌餐厅 yesterday to celebrate my birthday:) The performance was good, one of them sang and danced 对你爱不完, it was entertaining especially with the humorous singer. But maybe hk and yx prefer the good-looking guy. Ended the day with Jay Chou's 牛仔很忙, satisfied! Obviously I think that Jay Chou's version is better cause it's cuter:) They don't really sing JJ's songs though, was really hoping that they will sing but it wasn't very nice also haha. Kept choosing those difficult songs for them to sing, very evil :D Had my share of fun just by selecting the songs haha. I realized that I don't really pay much attention to good-looking guys, this is abnormal. Maybe I should start to keep a lookout for them or cultivate this interest. This can benefit my eyes and make me happier I guess?

Yay!! 我不是小妹妹！蛮开心的，即使你不知道这其中的原因。突然想到等你结婚了，我一定会很难过。光想到这点就足以让我觉得难过。没办法，只能先做好心理准备，等你说的时候就不会这么难过了。我也不想这样啊，还好你不知道。不告诉你是因为我怕被骂，怕你觉得烦／不高兴，怕你会说难听或是我不想听的话。要怪也只能怪自己放不下。

失落

I was hoping that you will ask me out, I was hoping to spend the day with you. Obviously, you didn't have the same intention. I knew you wouldn't do it, but it didn't stop me from having expectations. So much for having expectations. 自作多情的下场就是这样，活该！是有那么一点贪心，一直会有想见到你的念头。谁会希望在自己生日当天独自一个人留在家？没有在怪你的意思，反正你也很忙，只是有点失落而已。。。Happy birthday to myself~

P.S. Thank you for all the birthday wishes especially to mag & jy who called me specially:) 感动！我超容易哄的，这样就很开心了！Looking forward to our next outing! Don't need buy present if you happened to see this entry! My birthday wish can't be bought with money :D Appreciate those who remembers my birthday:) Thank you! :))

Gatherings

Dinner at pasir panjang with ei8ht on Friday. First time going there, after that was to evil twin's house for ban luck & mahjong! Lost in ban luck, won in mahjong but overall I still made a loss. Not much luck. Getting better in mahjong, but afraid that I'll forget how to play the next time. Reminisced our poly days, memories kept flowing back:) Played some background music and I kept choosing Jay's & JJ's songs:) I want to sing~~~ Played mahjong for about 3-4 hours to complete one round, reached home at 3 plus in the morning. Addicted to mahjong now, I like playing mahjong. It's fun playing with them:)

Just came back from ah ma's birthday celebration & it's my sister's birthday today:) Played murderer and hide & seek with the kids, I think I'm a bit too old for that. I've forgotten how to play happy family, donkey and old maid already, my childhood memories~ It's gone just like that. My favourite ler ler boy was very hyper and friendly today, not as shy as before, had fun playing with him:)

February babies

Marche with min, bel and liz to celebrate the February babies' birthdays! Updated one another on our lives since I seldom use social network so they have no idea what I've been up to nowadays. Lots of fun taking pictures especially with our iphones haha. Thanks for the birthday present!

我是不是太野蛮又不讲道理？可能你会觉得我对别人的要求很高，可是我真的不喜欢听到有人用那个字。我又没说你不能用，我只是不喜欢你用而已啊。我喜欢你跟我诉苦，喜欢陪你分担你的烦恼，喜欢你告诉我你的点点滴滴。虽然我帮不上什么忙，但至少我有尽力去安慰你，让你的心情变好一点。我不喜欢你不开心，所以会尽量帮你，不做会让你不开心的事。可是。。。我明明说错话了，让你不开心了，你却没有指责我／骂我，反而还让我。我不该在这个时候说你，对不起！我也不是完全不能接受你用那个字，只是有点不喜欢而已，以后你想用就用，我没关系的。

我知道我很单纯很天真，也因为这样所以才会把一切都想得很简单很完美。有时候也会因为这样而说／做错事，会让你生气／难过。不知道我的单纯是好事还是坏事？我知道你没在怪我也没有生气／难过，我知道事情没那么严重，可是我就是想道歉。对不起。

如果回去也只是想找你，可是你又不会出来，那我为什么要回去？你会觉得闷，会觉得孤单吗？对不起。对你来说，我只是一个小妹妹，一个你对她不会有任何感觉的小妹妹:( 一点都不想被当成是你的妹妹／好朋友，真的一点都不想:( 你永远都不会明白的:( 算了，又是我在一厢情愿，每次都是我在一厢情愿:(

多的是，你不知道的事。。。