Let's see what plans do I have in December...
- Celebrate jh and my brother's birthday
- Chalet with ei8ht
- Exchange Christmas presents
- Attend lays' birthday party
- Celebrate December babies' birthdays
- Meet up with min, bel and liz
One word to summarize: broke. I don't know how burnt will my pocket be:(
Suddenly miss the feeling of being teacher's pet (only for Chinese language). My Chinese was considered quite good that time, maybe cause there wasn't any strong competitors in my class. I used to be called a "walking dictionary" cause I seldom check the dictionary for words which I don't know. My friends will just come and ask me to write down the words for them and I enjoy doing that haha.
Sometimes I'll help them check their papers and discuss the answers before letting the teacher mark and they will get quite high marks:) My sister will be known to those teachers (who taught both of us) as "my sister" and that's the one and only subject I feel that I'm better than her hehe.
后悔。。。还没真正领悟到这个字的含义，希望我永远都不会体会到这种感觉。我会尽量不去做会让自己后悔的事，因为我不喜欢我的人生留下任何遗憾。
好朋友的定义是什么？你对我的好总是会让我误会。还是，我只是选择记得你对我的好却忘了要计较你对我的不好？不知道，我只知道不好的东西不需要记得，这样我才会比较快乐。我只能说：友达以上，恋人未满。
I'm curious about what you want to ask me... Judging by the time I received the message, it really makes me doubt the "casual stuff". I could have missed out on something important or it could just be me thinking too much again.
Is it really casual stuff or is it something else? I guess I will never know cause you won't tell me. No point asking you cause if it's something that you don't want to say, you will just come up with something else and I won't even know cause I'll believe whatever you said.
What do you actually want to ask or say? Why won't you tell me?! 可能又是我想太多了。。。
要你称赞我好难。。。算了，你从来都不会称赞我，只会一直说我，说我有多么不好，说我的不是。你都不知道我为什么会生气！我生气不是因为你称赞别人没有称赞我，而是你用什么词汇来形容她。
我不需要你称赞我，你要称赞的话就去称赞那些人很好又谦虚的人。我一点都不好又很骄傲！你想保护谁就去保护，想对谁好就对谁好，我不在乎！抱歉，我不是那种很可爱又会撒娇的女生，所以你对我都没什么好感。无所谓，你那么喜欢那种女生就去对她们好一点。就算我会撒娇，我宁愿对其他男生撒娇也不会对你撒娇！
我觉得自己很无聊，我为什么要这么在乎？你只是把我当成朋友，我有什么资格生气？随便你想怎样，但我不想再这么在乎你了。浪费我的精力去对一个根本就不会懂得我的好的人，一个根本就不会珍惜我的人。这样真的很累！恭喜你，你的目的已经达到了，你已经成功地摆脱我了，赶紧去庆祝一下吧！>
我总不能一直为了你而生气，不开心，吃醋，所以我想应该是时候要放下了。我不清楚会花多少的时间，但我会尽量让自己的情绪没那么容易受你影响。。。我是不是该放下对你的执著？我多么希望你会回答我说不要:(
Mag and jy are currently enjoying their graduation trip travelling around perth, sydney, goldcoast, having fun and eating lots of good food. I also want to travel around, have been trapped for too long living my life as a hermit. But... I need money to do all this, which I'm currently in deficit of, so... plans postponed! I've been wanting to go taiwan for ages and this wish hasn't been fulfilled yet! I don't even have sufficient money for my school fees:( I'll just have to wait then.
They have been updating us by sending pictures of all the food and places they have been to, they came across this Harry Potter shop and took pictures for me:)) Thanks a lot! They will be back on 30 Nov and mag is coming back to stay for.... how long I really don't know. Not sure if she's going back to work though.
Just received news that jy is in hospital now cause she went for a swim and when she came up, her eyes are swollen to the point of not being able to open them and her voice is gone instantly. I hope she's alright, we are all worried about her but she can still laugh about it! 气死了！Her situation seems quite serious cause she doesn't need to queue for her turn:( Thank God mag didn't jump into the water, if not both of them will be stuck at that place! But mag had to drive for 2 hours just to get to the nearest hospital! Waiting for more updates from mag!
Okay, latest update from mag is that her swell has subsided and can open her eyes after taking medicine, think she's allergic to something in the ocean, 没事就好:)
Not sure if I'll get the chance to catch breaking dawn, it's either some of my friends don't watch it or they have already watched it with someone else and the same goes for my family. Maybe I won't get to watch it, but it's alright cause I've always preferred the novels to the movies. Anyway, I still prefer Harry Potter to twilight and after watching The Vampire Diaries, twilight really pales in comparison. But you know, I've watched the previous 3 so if I didn't watch this one, it doesn't feel complete.
如果有一天，你会因为我而吃别的男生的醋，我应该会蛮开心的吧。其实我不怕闷，不介意跟不熟的人去玩，但前提是你必须在场，我才肯出席。如果答应去了就要做好会觉得闷的心理准备因为你也不可能一直陪我不管别人。你知道吗，其实你可以不用因为我觉得闷而道歉，因为我真的觉得没关系，真的觉得无所谓。我会去也只是因为我想陪你（虽然你不需要我陪）还有因为我知道你希望我去。是我常常自以为是的觉得你需要人陪，但其实我也只是怕你会闷、会无聊、会孤单。
难得的晴天，太阳又照得那么猛烈，去晒衣服了! :D
最后，我还是去了。昨天我在想，如果你没开口的话，那下次如果还有聚会我一定不去！我的脾气真的很倔强！受不了！
你怎么会知道我在不高兴？还知道我不高兴了一整晚，有这么明显吗？？虽然你知道我不高兴，但你一定不知道原因。其实我在吃醋，自从你说了那句话后，我就吃了一整晚的醋，但我又不能告诉你，所以只能继续吃醋。希望那天你会玩得开心一点，好好享受！
Having cough and sore throat at the same time, 讲话都有一点走音！Can't really sing cause I can't hit some notes with a sore throat. Ended up singing those parts with no sound coming out, first time experiencing it, I hope there isn't a next time. 还蛮辛苦的。
Having night class tomorrow from 7pm-10pm! I predict I will be very tired:(
I'm tired, both physically and emotionally. I need a break, I want to rest but can I? Can I really say goodbye to you for the final time? Can I just let go? I don't know but I'm trying hard not to be so affected by you, doesn't seem to work though. Continue trying then! I didn't know it will be this tough!
Let's see, I've a rather long entry today!
I'm not trying to do any hard selling here but just to help someone. I've no idea who will be viewing my blog but this is just for those who wants to buy insurance or interested in learning more about it:) I'm not an insurance agent so there isn't much details which I can write here (only a brief summary), but you can try and leave your contact details on my tag board if you are interested or if you know of anyone who is interested, it'll be great to keep a lookout for me too:) You just need to tell me your concern and the person in charge can come up with a suitable plan for you:)
Frankly speaking, I don't like insurance agents cause they always try to promote their plans to me even though I'm not interested. It's kind of irritating but well, as I grow older, I start to realize the importance of insurance. It's like an assurance to me whereby if there's anything that happens to me or my family members and if we have an insurance, we do not need to worry about not having enough money to pay for hospitalization bills and having to pay a rather huge sum of money. It acts as a protection which safeguards my interest. I've recently just bought 1 from AIA and paid the premium using my CPF, it's an affordable plan with attractive benefits even for a student like me:)
The benefits may differ accordingly between different insurance companies. Every insurance company will provide the most basic and essential benefits but it's up to that particular company to provide additional benefits. Usually it's those additional benefits which attracts you to sign a contract with them. It's true that insurance agents will stand to gain just by clinching a deal, but the main aim of insurance is to protect you and the people around you right? If not, what's the use of them drafting out a plan to protect you in case of any emergencies? Unless you're very certain that you won't be involved in any accidents or contract any illnesses, but how can you be so certain of what's going to happen tomorrow? Even if you are very young and healthy now doesn't mean you don't need to buy any insurance cause the most important clause of insurance is that you must buy it to protect yourself BEFORE anything happens. They will not cover any costs for you when you buy the insurance after something happened. So, start considering now!
Of course there are other plans as well for example one which provides good returns, meaning having an insurance plan and investment opportunity in a package. The insurance agent will come up with a suitable package based on your needs and an affordable premium amount. I'm not too sure about the details but that's about all that I know. If anyone who is unsure of anything and wish to clarify, kindly leave your details on my tag board and I'll get back to you as soon as possible. Thank you!
Alright, back to my usual stuff! Thursday is coming and I can see that you have no intention to persuade me to go~ It's ok! I shall stay at home then:(
Finally went to collect Jay Chou's album just now and the girl beside me saw it and kept saying " So chio!!!" haha, totally make my day:))
我应该给你机会摆脱我，如果不要我越陷越深，你应该知道要怎么做。你不要跟我走这么近好吗？如果对我没感觉，赶紧把握机会主动跟我保持距离。因为我办不到，所以只能靠你。如果想继续跟我这么要好，后果请自负！
朋友就算没那么经常联络，没那么要好，也还是朋友不是吗？我们只是从好朋友变成了普通朋友。请原谅我这么狠心这么自私，一直想躲你避开你不理你，但是我希望你能够明白我的处境。对不起。
没有了我，就少了一个人一直惹你生气、让你难过、烦你、依赖你、欺负你、给你添麻烦、对你不好等等。你的生活会回到从前你最向往的简单与平静。你应该会很开心才对。
这些都是我永远都没办法告诉你的，所以我们的关系还没改变。我很想念以前跟你通电话聊天的时候，很想念你打来时的第一句话总是会对我说早安，很想念你总是问我今天过得怎样，很想念跟你打桌球的时候，很想念一起念书的时候，很想念一起听歌的时候，还有很多个很想念。。。其实想念的只是你在身边的时候。。。
Didn't manage to help sheena hand in her assignment today cause my lecture ended late and by the time I went to her class, her lecturer was gone. I felt guilty:( Hope she manage to hand in tomorrow.
Hope that I will be able to get my Jay Chou's CD tomorrow... Don't delay!!!!
喉咙痛，咳嗽，快失声了，现在的声音好难听！
Every Saturday is a family day.... I get it.
Cancelled the plans for singing session next week, however much that I want to go, I.... I don't know what I want. Anyway, I'm not going anymore. Although I can see you, but.... we won't even get the chance to interact, what's the point then? Forget it, not going is better. 你也没有非要我去不可，又没有非常希望我会去，算了吧。如果一定要我去的话，你会说的，你会有办法说服我的。
Singing session at kbox on Monday and have an early birthday celebration with yunxin and Shawn:) Vocals become weaker, didn't train my vocals for a long time.
Watched 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 with ei8ht just now and have dinner together:) I like the show, quite nice, like the plot, like the main leads, it's funny and touching, but not to the extent of crying! haha, and there's my favourite 三年二班的"周杰伦"! Heard the 前奏 of his song in the movie and was thinking this song sounds like 双节棍 but didn't say out until I heard his voice cause if I get it wrong, it will be so embarrassing!haha. Lots of vulgarities in this movie! Makes me think about the past, miss those times when I don't have to worry about anything, secondary school life is the most fun and exciting part of my life:) This show is definitely worth watching:)
原来。。。柯景腾这么喜欢沈佳宜。原来。。。柯景腾这么笨！沈佳宜明明就给了很多很明显的暗示，为什么他就是不明白？有这么难懂吗？他们就这样白白错失了在一起的机会。原来。。。失去了一些东西，想找回来的时候却已经来不及了。原来。。。错失了一个机会，一个时机，就可以改变很多事情。人生难免会有很多遗憾，所以不要让你的人生充满着来不及，想做什么就去做，不要让自己的人生留下任何的“早知道”或是“如果当初我.......现在会不会不一样？”
谢谢你想帮我的好意，但我不想欠你，应该说我不想一直依赖你，我可以避免依赖你就尽量避免。我不想再欠你，所以有试着对你好，只是你选择不加理会罢了。如果有对你不好的地方，能做的我都尽量去做了，应该没欠你了吧？我应该都还清了吧？反正，欠你的我一定会还，等我还清了，就互不相欠了。我不介意你对我好，可是我会很容易回到你身边。你却不要我这么做，那我又怎么能这么做呢？如果承担不起后果，就不要对我好，不要跟我走得这么近，因为我对朋友这个形容词还是有点反感。我有经常让你生气或难过吗？那你就不要对我好，不然又会被我欺负。说到好像我没被你欺负，你没让我难过似的，可是我还蛮喜欢你迁就我的:)
其实我只是想知道你是否希望我去、有多希望我去，到最后我去不去都不重要。我知道我很无聊，但我就是想知道。我的脾气就是这么倔强，你不告诉我答案，我就索性不去。只有这次会这样，下次不会再为难你了。我就是要你让我，要你问多一次，要你说你希望我去，我才去。叫我去是因为习惯还是真的希望我去？没有秘密的相处方式已经不成立了，因为我对你隐藏了好多秘密。
[明明可以做的事情，不能做。明明喜欢的人，不能喜欢。明明苦等没有，还要装坚强。明明知道很多事情想做，却偏偏要控制自己，不让对方反感。明明想打电话，却按到最后一个号码，按了关闭。明明一个字一个字的打好了，反复增增减减，生怕一个字错了的信息，只差发送，却到最后全部按了删除]
[Sometimes you have to try not to care, no matter how much you do, because sometimes you can mean nothing to someone who means so much to you]
[我想成为一个很厉害的人，让这个世界因为有了我而有一点点的改变，而我的世界不过就是你的心]
Not sure how's your mood right now, but I think it's best not to keep bothering and agitating you further. I've been thinking, this is a good opportunity to stay away from you but I realized that I couldn't do it. I can't stand the idea of you ignoring me, giving me the cold shoulder, not speaking to me etc, can't stand it a single bit. But I'm not going to let you know about this, not going to make known my feelings to you anymore, not going to tell you that I hate having cold war with you. I hate giving in, I hate to admit I'm wrong and apologizing to you due to my pride, 我不喜欢低声下气跟你道歉之后，你却还是显得有点冷漠，不理我。
I hate having arguments with you and thinking what's the situation now, is the incident still bothering you, are you unhappy, are we back to normal or what, not asking you where do I stand, how much do I matter anymore. Asking you those questions will only humiliate me even further, I know the answer you are going to give but I was hoping that you would give me a different answer. If you are going to stay away from today onwards, feel free to do so. We will just have to pretend there's nothing wrong and continue to be friends in front of other people, that's what I'm good in-- faking.
I don't mind you staying away, at least I won't have to be the one doing it. 算了，就算是我的错，我也不想再这么低声下气，不想再道歉了。你可以继续不理我，生我的气，随便你，反正我再也不要管你了。*都怪我那可恶的自尊心在作祟*
又惹你生气了，又说错话了。。。对不起，不确定你是不是真的没在生气，是我太过分了。不知道要怎么做，要说什么才可以弥补我犯的错误，只能拼命的道歉。对不起。你有在怪我吗？希望你会忘掉，希望你不会放在心上，是我不对，不应该这样怀疑你，不应该诬赖你，不应该口出恶言去中伤你。我知道我伤害了你，对不起。我根本就不应该这么想，都是我的错。对不起。你应该对我蛮失望的吧？很内疚。。。
讨厌跟你吵架，讨厌每次闹不合而我要求和解的时候，你又会跟我保持距离。之前说好的事，你会说你不要了，这哪算和解啊？每次和解后你说你没有生气，我还是不敢跟你讲话，会觉得你很凶，会觉得你还是不想理我，不敢去烦你，怕又会说错话惹你生气。我说过了，你如果有什么事要找我的话，你可以继续这么做，看你想怎样就怎样。
真的很讨厌现在这个时候。。。只能等你想跟我说话的时候了，只有到那个时候我才可以确定一切都没事。
水手怕水这首歌好可爱，MV也很逗趣!:) Album delayed cause of the handmade gift when you pre-order, got to wait until 18 Nov then!
Meet up with the rest at ehub first to draw and cut out these words "Yunli 21st" and pasted it on the back of our tee-shirt. Forgot to mention the awesome theme the birthday girl set: tee-shirt and shorts!:) We agreed to wear black shirt cause that's her favourite colour. Called her out from the chalet and just turned and showed her the words:)
Although yunli wasn't there so often to talk to us, there was lots of fun and laughter cause we started playing poker cards haha. Carrie introduced this game asshole, it's sort of like the English version of big two with 5 players instead of the usual 4. Once a player wins, the next in turn to play can just put any card and they have titles for 1st to win right up to the last one, starting from King, Queen, Commoner, Prostitute and Asshole. The King will exchange 2 of his worst cards with 2 of the best cards from the Asshole. The Queen will exchange with the Prostitute, it's quite a fun game especially seeing the players having no cards to put and skipping their turn, it's fun guessing who's gonna be last and laughing at the Asshole haha.
Yunli received her Harman Kardon Soundsticks III from ei8ht and her rilakkuma from her uni mates:) I hope she likes it, she could already guess what we bought for her. Well, at least it's something that she wants but it means that ei8ht will have to go on a diet for 1 month, no money to eat already:( Pictures taken with the 8 megapixel iPhone4S was nice and I like her cake with a variety of colours!
I didn't know that Hairul (jy's uni friend) was in the same class as me in poly year 3! He had my name in his contacts and checked with jy if that was me and it was. I have totally no recollection of him in the same class as me, but that time he was the class rep so he had everyone's number so that explains why he has my number but I don't have his. I'm really sorry for not remembering him haha, quite embarrassed and Jackie just had something to say about it and he forgot I've a brother. Then I was pretty heartless, I said it's ok, you forgetting about my brother is the same as me forgetting about you few years later :P If he doesn't want me to forget that I have a friend named Jackie, he better start appearing whenever ei8ht ask him out haha.
