I'm pretty much used to doing things alone, can be considered as a rather independent person. Some people couldn't do it cause they are afraid of people judging. I couldn't care less, like I said I don't want to feel restricted/controlled especially not by people whom I don't even know. Many times, it's not we who choose it this way, but some situations make it that way, we are left with no choice. But it's not something to be afraid of, I want to do whatever I want whenever I want :) However, there's something which I've not tried before and I'm contemplating whether to do it on my birthday. That is watching a movie alone, I've heard of people doing it but I've not muster enough courage to do this. It seems pretty weird to me, watching a movie alone makes me feel like I'm pathetic and makes me feel more alone than ever.
I don't know why I couldn't bring myself to do it. I think I'm too used to watching movies with someone accompanying me, too used to this feeling that I couldn't watch a movie alone anymore. Just saying though, I may not do it in the end. How does it really feel? Going to a concert or ktv alone feels weird too, maybe I can try it someday also? The first steps are always difficult but once I get over it, it may feel like nothing.
Haven't collect my Jay Chou album yet, prefer this album to the previous one. Currently waiting for my J moment album as my birthday present from my cousins haha. Current song which I'm addicted to: 傻笑, could be 2013 ktv hit song, people can stop singing 珊瑚海 already haha. [对的人，不对的时间，却放不掉]，有些人的心里始终有着那么一位放不掉的人 :( My Maths foundation is lousy to the max :(
因为容易满足的个性，所以觉得你对我蛮好的。女生会被宠坏是因为她身边有着一个非常疼爱她的男生，就像我妹一样。又再一厢情愿的想念某人了，怎么办？尽量不要想咯，不然还能怎样？又不是说想他就能见到他。
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
2013 countdown
Had potluck with relatives and silas yesterday, er jie cooked baked rice, pasta and made chocolate fondue with marshmallows for the small kids. We prepared crabstick and ham, popcorn chicken, chicken nuggets and seaweed chicken. Ours wasn't too much of a problem cause it's easy to prepare. I love the pasta and baked rice :) Taught the kids how to play saboteur, after that we watched stephen chow's movies, I love his shows :D Played uno stacko and blind mice in the room, the place is so small, there's not enough space for us to run but this makes it more challenging. Some people even escape like an animal, move on all fours, crawl on the floor, hide in cramped places, stick their bodies as close to the wall/bed, climb up the cupboard, wriggle, bend and twist their bodies like doing gymnastics or aerobics just to escape getting caught. It's really a funny sight haha.
The weird flash messages have stopped coming since yesterday evening. I hope they won't appear again, but for safety precautions, I've reset my phone settings, I wonder if it helps? 10 more months before I can change my phone, might not be an Apple product. Even though I've already known that it's a prank, I'm still rather afraid of the contents that I'll see. I'm glad that it wasn't a virus or a hack either. This only happens to iPhone because apparently Apple doesn't support flash, this was what my cousin told me.
Had a good night's sleep and my mood is back to normal again. If I don't have sufficient sleep, my mood will be real bad. No resolutions again, don't have this habit. It just feels like any other normal day. Here's the overdue pictures.
The weird flash messages have stopped coming since yesterday evening. I hope they won't appear again, but for safety precautions, I've reset my phone settings, I wonder if it helps? 10 more months before I can change my phone, might not be an Apple product. Even though I've already known that it's a prank, I'm still rather afraid of the contents that I'll see. I'm glad that it wasn't a virus or a hack either. This only happens to iPhone because apparently Apple doesn't support flash, this was what my cousin told me.
Had a good night's sleep and my mood is back to normal again. If I don't have sufficient sleep, my mood will be real bad. No resolutions again, don't have this habit. It just feels like any other normal day. Here's the overdue pictures.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Christmas exchange with ei8ht
Last Sunday of 2012 was spent with ei8ht having steamboat and our post-Christmas exchange at yl's semb house. I got nat a tumbler with eiffel tower and I didn't know that she loves it in the first place so it's all a coincidence, glad that she loves it. She didn't expect to receive that gift from me though cause all of her friends didn't give it to her before when she loves it so much, I think cause nobody knows? I'm so lucky haha. I really think I'm very smart in guessing jy's santee and with the exact reason somemore :p I sort of cheated when guessing my Santa cause I know that yl, Sheena and jy were not my Santa so after guessing mag and it's wrong, Carrie was also out of the picture already so my next guess lays is correct! Hehe. Stayover at yl's house and played dance battle and mahjong. Managed to surprise lays and mag by misleading them into thinking we're only celebrating one of their birthdays. Mag opened the fridge and thought the cake was for lays and lays thought it's for mag haha. The other cake was placed in the freezer :) There's a lot of laughter and noise when we gathered together. Evil twin's boyfriend could hear us singing birthday song for lays and mag and calling his name from downstairs cause it's very quiet during midnight. So nice of her boyfriend to send her, mag and Carrie back :) The 4 of us insisted on accompanying nat to hail a cab home cause we are worried about her safety with the recent crimes going on. Went home at 7 while the rest continue sleeping.
I want to vent out my frustration. Every week when she comes to my house, she will ask me to find a boyfriend. I know it's for my own good but please stop nagging. Do you really have to say this every week?! Even when I'm going out with my friends, she will say it's good to go out and make more friends, don't always stay at home. What's wrong with staying at home? She even continue to ask my sister to tell qh to introduce his guy friends to me even when I keep rejecting this idea. Unfortunately for me I've always been one who will always show my attitude and black face if I'm unhappy. The more people ask me to do something which I don't want to, I'll just ignore and don't reply, pretend I never even hear you. Yes I admit I'm ill-mannered but I'm really frustrated. Seriously damn pekcek! I want to have my own pace of living, please don't attempt to control me unless I let you, if not I'll feel restricted/suffocated.
Sister is sick, stomach isn't feeling well, went to many clinics and still doesn't help. Mum brought her to ktph, seeing her like this makes me think that she's very 可怜，心疼她。A small incident happened just now. Kept receiving weird messages that will flash across my phone's screen and there's a dismiss button at the bottom. Messages like "I'm watching you, 666, you're not alone and I'm beside your brother now" is enough for me to freak out. I'm a very timid person, 缺乏睡眠又受到惊吓，精疲力尽。I broke down in tears when I saw that last message and I don't even dare to tell my brother that cause I'm afraid he will be scared if he knew about it. Immediately went to my cousin's place and they found out that it's some technical prank done by people. Please, this is not even funny! Stupid iPhone, I want to change phone! Just ignore those messages, still a little scared :( No mood to post pictures, on a happier note, King of Mandopop is back!
我必须承认我没办法把喜欢的人当朋友来看待，如果对谁造成困扰我很抱歉。心没被扰乱，当然没感觉。心被扰乱了就会感觉很乱。
I want to vent out my frustration. Every week when she comes to my house, she will ask me to find a boyfriend. I know it's for my own good but please stop nagging. Do you really have to say this every week?! Even when I'm going out with my friends, she will say it's good to go out and make more friends, don't always stay at home. What's wrong with staying at home? She even continue to ask my sister to tell qh to introduce his guy friends to me even when I keep rejecting this idea. Unfortunately for me I've always been one who will always show my attitude and black face if I'm unhappy. The more people ask me to do something which I don't want to, I'll just ignore and don't reply, pretend I never even hear you. Yes I admit I'm ill-mannered but I'm really frustrated. Seriously damn pekcek! I want to have my own pace of living, please don't attempt to control me unless I let you, if not I'll feel restricted/suffocated.
Sister is sick, stomach isn't feeling well, went to many clinics and still doesn't help. Mum brought her to ktph, seeing her like this makes me think that she's very 可怜，心疼她。A small incident happened just now. Kept receiving weird messages that will flash across my phone's screen and there's a dismiss button at the bottom. Messages like "I'm watching you, 666, you're not alone and I'm beside your brother now" is enough for me to freak out. I'm a very timid person, 缺乏睡眠又受到惊吓，精疲力尽。I broke down in tears when I saw that last message and I don't even dare to tell my brother that cause I'm afraid he will be scared if he knew about it. Immediately went to my cousin's place and they found out that it's some technical prank done by people. Please, this is not even funny! Stupid iPhone, I want to change phone! Just ignore those messages, still a little scared :( No mood to post pictures, on a happier note, King of Mandopop is back!
我必须承认我没办法把喜欢的人当朋友来看待，如果对谁造成困扰我很抱歉。心没被扰乱，当然没感觉。心被扰乱了就会感觉很乱。
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Christmas exchange with family
Spent Christmas with siblings, cousins, silas & qh at Jovan's house, played saboteur while waiting for stefan to have our favourite zi char as dinner :) Saboteur is very fun, one of the most well-played turn was when my sister and qh were the saboteurs, they are really scheming and clever. I was fooled, but I'm easily fooled cause I'm always the blur one. I don't know who's my accomplices and who's not. They always gave me the 'Do you know how to play this game?' face. It makes me doubt myself but yes, I do know how to play, only some people knew what I'm doing if they are clear about who's who. After dinner was charades, it's fun and I like to guess and also be the first one to act it out, my brother's actions were the funniest, always ended up laughing cause he always changed the actions haha. My sister changed her gift for me, gave me 2 small rilakkumas and a tumbler, I love the tumbler a lot. I think the most challenging part is to give presents to qh & silas, luckily mine was Jovan. I don't want to buy gifts for guys, buying a shirt for them is so difficult, I don't know what size are they, not to forget the belts for November babies' also.
Played polar bear using poker cards, similar to police and thief, but we need to close our eyes and thief is given chances to look up and kill people while police choose who he thinks is the murderer and the narrator will tell the police if it's right/wrong and announced the person's death afterwards. Everyone is given the chance to explain their innocence and it's up to the majority to choose who they think is the murderer and that person will be dead if he/she's innocent. Watched Office有鬼, I've actually watched this multiple times but cause I think it's a nice show so I recommended them to watch it. Slept at around 3, qh went home, he lives just nearby. The fan was super powerful, I woke up a few times cause it's too cold, never sleep well. My bed is always the most comfortable :D After breakfast, we played a few rounds of saboteur and home sweet home!
Going to hy's house to play a few more rounds later, going to have McDonald's as supper :)
Played polar bear using poker cards, similar to police and thief, but we need to close our eyes and thief is given chances to look up and kill people while police choose who he thinks is the murderer and the narrator will tell the police if it's right/wrong and announced the person's death afterwards. Everyone is given the chance to explain their innocence and it's up to the majority to choose who they think is the murderer and that person will be dead if he/she's innocent. Watched Office有鬼, I've actually watched this multiple times but cause I think it's a nice show so I recommended them to watch it. Slept at around 3, qh went home, he lives just nearby. The fan was super powerful, I woke up a few times cause it's too cold, never sleep well. My bed is always the most comfortable :D After breakfast, we played a few rounds of saboteur and home sweet home!
Going to hy's house to play a few more rounds later, going to have McDonald's as supper :)
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Christmas exchange with min & bel
Super long entry today, will post the pictures after I've received it or if I'm not lazy!
At vivo today with min & bel, shopped around and dinner was at the merry men, somewhere between chinatown and clarke quay. Vivo was so crowded and there's even a long queue for the toilet. We were lost while trying to walk to our dinner place, ended up taking bus there. We were still lost, trying to figure out where is that place even after we reached. Turned out that we went one big round when it was right in front. Tried truffle fries for the first time and I think it tasted like normal fries, not much difference but I don't know why some people don't like it. Since we had already guessed one another's gifts before we even left vivo, we let min close her eyes and choose which one she wants. The order in which we received the gifts was same as last year, my secret santa was still min and my santee was bel. 3 of us bought our gifts from books/stationery store! Took lots of pictures with different kinds of camera, I had one but since it was dark, it was quite blur then we used polaroid, iphone, ipad mini & lumix camera. Thinking of changing my camera to panasonic lumix, but I don't think I've the money :( I don't mind if people are willing to sponsor or buy it for me, that's all wishful thinking, it's too expensive as a gift haha. Felt like eating my favourite chocolate, cadbury milk chocolate, almost suggested it to be a Christmas gift for myself. Anyway, ended the night sending min home as usual, she lives just next block to me. Having my 2 weeks break starting from tomorrow onwards, yay!!!
Need to confess that I've already known who's my secret santa for my family side. I really think I'm destined to spoil surprises, either that or I'm really good in guessing. Told my sister that I think it's her, we went shopping the next day and there's just too many loopholes. She helped me pay for my shirt and even went back to get another gift which is the same as the one I was getting for my friend cause she knew I like it. So being paranoid again, this is the part where I think it's suspicious cause she didn't ask me to pay her back.
When she came back, I thought she didn't buy it and was quite disappointed, thinking maybe there isn't any nice ones left. After that, she started asking me to pay her back and that's when all my suspicions on her dropped. Even when she started asking weird questions, my suspicion radar was completely off so I totally didn't suspect anything. I was thinking maybe I was wrong all along. Everything was perfect with me completely fooled. It was after we went home, I came out of my room and saw the gift on the table. Thinking it was the one I bought for my friend and somehow my mum managed to get hold of it and bring it out, I stupidly went to take it wanting to put it in my room. That's when I saw my gift still inside the bag where I left it and realised the one I'm holding onto was what my sister bought. My sister was so angry with my mum for taking it out! I didn't mean to know, it just happened! If my mum didn't take it out of my sister's bag or if I didn't go out before my sister did or if I didn't try to put it back, I wouldn't have known. All surprises are gone. I was determined not to think too much this year, but things like this always happens haha.
People should stop talking to me or leaving clues for me to pick up. My brain will automatically start analyzing, so if you are my secret santa, don't talk to me, just stay quiet ok? haha. I shouldn't think too much next time, don't ask me to guess! haha. Now I know why jy doesn't want to leave any hints for me to guess :D
感觉不到有谁对我特别好或是特别不一样。曾经以为有，现在却不这么认为了。需要一个会对我超好，关心我、疼我、宠我、迁就我、让我、尽量不骂我或对我凶等等，任由我欺负他并且懂得珍惜我的人。「We accept the love we think we deserve」
Next entry will be Christmas exchange with my cousins, siblings, silas & qh! :) Merry Christmas everyone!
At vivo today with min & bel, shopped around and dinner was at the merry men, somewhere between chinatown and clarke quay. Vivo was so crowded and there's even a long queue for the toilet. We were lost while trying to walk to our dinner place, ended up taking bus there. We were still lost, trying to figure out where is that place even after we reached. Turned out that we went one big round when it was right in front. Tried truffle fries for the first time and I think it tasted like normal fries, not much difference but I don't know why some people don't like it. Since we had already guessed one another's gifts before we even left vivo, we let min close her eyes and choose which one she wants. The order in which we received the gifts was same as last year, my secret santa was still min and my santee was bel. 3 of us bought our gifts from books/stationery store! Took lots of pictures with different kinds of camera, I had one but since it was dark, it was quite blur then we used polaroid, iphone, ipad mini & lumix camera. Thinking of changing my camera to panasonic lumix, but I don't think I've the money :( I don't mind if people are willing to sponsor or buy it for me, that's all wishful thinking, it's too expensive as a gift haha. Felt like eating my favourite chocolate, cadbury milk chocolate, almost suggested it to be a Christmas gift for myself. Anyway, ended the night sending min home as usual, she lives just next block to me. Having my 2 weeks break starting from tomorrow onwards, yay!!!
Need to confess that I've already known who's my secret santa for my family side. I really think I'm destined to spoil surprises, either that or I'm really good in guessing. Told my sister that I think it's her, we went shopping the next day and there's just too many loopholes. She helped me pay for my shirt and even went back to get another gift which is the same as the one I was getting for my friend cause she knew I like it. So being paranoid again, this is the part where I think it's suspicious cause she didn't ask me to pay her back.
When she came back, I thought she didn't buy it and was quite disappointed, thinking maybe there isn't any nice ones left. After that, she started asking me to pay her back and that's when all my suspicions on her dropped. Even when she started asking weird questions, my suspicion radar was completely off so I totally didn't suspect anything. I was thinking maybe I was wrong all along. Everything was perfect with me completely fooled. It was after we went home, I came out of my room and saw the gift on the table. Thinking it was the one I bought for my friend and somehow my mum managed to get hold of it and bring it out, I stupidly went to take it wanting to put it in my room. That's when I saw my gift still inside the bag where I left it and realised the one I'm holding onto was what my sister bought. My sister was so angry with my mum for taking it out! I didn't mean to know, it just happened! If my mum didn't take it out of my sister's bag or if I didn't go out before my sister did or if I didn't try to put it back, I wouldn't have known. All surprises are gone. I was determined not to think too much this year, but things like this always happens haha.
People should stop talking to me or leaving clues for me to pick up. My brain will automatically start analyzing, so if you are my secret santa, don't talk to me, just stay quiet ok? haha. I shouldn't think too much next time, don't ask me to guess! haha. Now I know why jy doesn't want to leave any hints for me to guess :D
感觉不到有谁对我特别好或是特别不一样。曾经以为有，现在却不这么认为了。需要一个会对我超好，关心我、疼我、宠我、迁就我、让我、尽量不骂我或对我凶等等，任由我欺负他并且懂得珍惜我的人。「We accept the love we think we deserve」
Next entry will be Christmas exchange with my cousins, siblings, silas & qh! :) Merry Christmas everyone!
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
12新作
12/12/12，难得特别的日子，这篇文章就献给我的最爱吧！J式情歌回来了！很喜欢「明明就」这首歌。「明明就他比较温柔，也许他能给你更多，不用抉择我会自动变朋友」，心酸。不管再忙都一定要履行一年发一张专辑的承诺。会履行三年之约吗？明年就是了，可是如果明年推出新电影，还会有时间吗？「不能说的秘密」是一部佳作，期待新电影，我一定会去支持的！
他的歌对我有很大的魔力，会被吸引住。因为身边的人都不太听他的歌也不爱唱也不喜欢他，所以我都尽量不点他的歌来唱。说他不好我也不反驳，没办法因为不想听到更多不好的东西。不喜欢别人说他的坏话 :(
没办法应付MM，不明白不会做，惨了 :((( 碰到特别的日子总希望能跟特别的人一起过，尤其是生日。希望我的生日会有特别的人陪我一起过。
Last minute decision to meet jy and yl for dinner at ssc astons. I already had dinner at granny's house so just went there to accompany them without bringing anything. Luckily there's shuttle bus to ssc and jy treated me to iced lemon tea! Haha. 好久没去那里吃了。Going to see them again on the 30th. Meeting min and bel on 23rd and my cousins on 25th! Haven't buy any presents yet! Still not sure of what to buy，真是的。
他的歌对我有很大的魔力，会被吸引住。因为身边的人都不太听他的歌也不爱唱也不喜欢他，所以我都尽量不点他的歌来唱。说他不好我也不反驳，没办法因为不想听到更多不好的东西。不喜欢别人说他的坏话 :(
没办法应付MM，不明白不会做，惨了 :((( 碰到特别的日子总希望能跟特别的人一起过，尤其是生日。希望我的生日会有特别的人陪我一起过。
Last minute decision to meet jy and yl for dinner at ssc astons. I already had dinner at granny's house so just went there to accompany them without bringing anything. Luckily there's shuttle bus to ssc and jy treated me to iced lemon tea! Haha. 好久没去那里吃了。Going to see them again on the 30th. Meeting min and bel on 23rd and my cousins on 25th! Haven't buy any presents yet! Still not sure of what to buy，真是的。
Saturday, December 1, 2012
kbox with yx
At kbox with yx today, helped her vent out some of her unhappiness. Sang lots of jay chou's songs and those songs which I normally won't get to sing, most of his songs are rap hehe, that's my favourite genre. Singing does help to improve one's mood. Dinner at soup spoon, I realised sometimes I do eat a lot for a person of my size. We chatted for about 3-4 hours! Unbelievable, I couldn't believe it myself. Min saw me at somerset station and we went home together :)
Honestly, yx is one of those few who has seen the noisy side of me. I don't know what is it about her that makes me feel so comfortable. She makes me want to talk, which is an amazing feat considering the fact that I'm an extremely quiet person. Maybe it's our age, or similar personalities or similar interests, whatever, I don't even know the reason why. I just know that I feel comfortable enough to be able to talk so much. 有一点一见如故的感觉。From the moment she knew me, I've already given her the impression of a talkative person, anything but quiet. This is strange, even to me. I'm a selective person, I select certain people to talk to. I just hit it off with her, which is a good thing :) That's why I always ended up talking to her whenever we meet.
Haven't thought of what to buy for Christmas exchange, haven't buy birthday presents also. Oh ya, people always have the misconception that I just cut my hair recently. I didn't, it's because I cut it to be of the same length and it's not layered, plus my thick volume of hair makes it seem like I just cut it. Truth is, I cut it since 3 months ago haha. Didn't sleep well these days, could be due to throat irritation :( Jay Chou is releasing his new album on 28 Dec 12! I can start to pre-order on 12 Dec 12, what a special date :) Excited! 期待！
Honestly, yx is one of those few who has seen the noisy side of me. I don't know what is it about her that makes me feel so comfortable. She makes me want to talk, which is an amazing feat considering the fact that I'm an extremely quiet person. Maybe it's our age, or similar personalities or similar interests, whatever, I don't even know the reason why. I just know that I feel comfortable enough to be able to talk so much. 有一点一见如故的感觉。From the moment she knew me, I've already given her the impression of a talkative person, anything but quiet. This is strange, even to me. I'm a selective person, I select certain people to talk to. I just hit it off with her, which is a good thing :) That's why I always ended up talking to her whenever we meet.
Haven't thought of what to buy for Christmas exchange, haven't buy birthday presents also. Oh ya, people always have the misconception that I just cut my hair recently. I didn't, it's because I cut it to be of the same length and it's not layered, plus my thick volume of hair makes it seem like I just cut it. Truth is, I cut it since 3 months ago haha. Didn't sleep well these days, could be due to throat irritation :( Jay Chou is releasing his new album on 28 Dec 12! I can start to pre-order on 12 Dec 12, what a special date :) Excited! 期待！