2nd week of school and i still dont really understand any part of econs:(was always weak in econs and math1 wasnt any better cause the lecturer kept making mistakes. i think he wasnt sure of what he's teaching sometimes:(got to rely on myself then,jiayou! and i skipped the last 1 hour of math1 lecture today cause im simply too tired and i just slacked outside the lecture theatre with sheena. when it ended, we just went in,packed our bags and went off haha, sheena said that people are looking at us but i never really noticed hehe.im such a slacker:(
Enough about school, here's a quick update: was out with min,bel & liz last tuesday to timbre, it's my 2nd time there. my first time was with them too but im a good girl, i didnt touch any of the alcoholic drinks:)i love the pizza!the main thing im waiting for when i reached there is the pizza haha,love it to the max!
Met up with yunli,carrie,sheena & jiaying last thursday to ikea for dinner and we shopped around for some stuff although i didnt buy any. was sleeping in the bus on the way back and was abit blur when i woke up. slept at around 2 and was feeling very tired on friday during work:(
Planned huikoon's birthday surprise for her and can tell that she's very happy on that day:) bought her carlo rino's wallet, brought her to vivo for thai food, played her favourite basketball game in arcade(was perspiring all over after playing with her,felt like my arms are dislocated haha) and bought her a pink birthday cake!her birthday was very pinkish cause her cake is pink, the wrapping paper used to wrap her present is pink and her birthday card is also pink!just like my birthday this year, received lots of blue presents from my friends:D thanks to shawn who planned all this and i just practically did what he told me, never really planned, im such a bad friend! he also went to buy the cake and lighter cause we both forgot to bring and we stole some cups and forks from our company's pantry because we totally forgot to prepare all those stuff!haha,absent-minded.
Watched step up 3 with jiahao,darren and jovan and i like their dance moves!it was awesome,love watching people dance especially hip hop:)after watching, we got too carried away and decided to go arcade and play the dancing machine. I got an A!haha,i have potential to be a dancer!hehe.
Was celebrating huixin's birthday yesterday and we cooked for her, ok its not we, its just me,my sis and jiahao. but after a while,im tired and decided to hand it over to my sis,but there's once when she got scalded by the oil and she just left the plate with the serviette near the fire. luckily i was just behind her if not there would be a fire hazard cause when i lifted the plate up, one part of the serviette was already burned. imagine if i left it there longer...
Shall recommend u all to go try out jurong pt safra kbox, the sound system is realli gd, there's no backgrd noise to disturb u haha. can hear ur voice real clearly, im abit nt used to it haha. grace was using her cam to take pics of the celebs in the MVs and still asked mi to help her take while she's singing!haha.
Went to watch love in disguise with jy,yl and sheena on mon, tink i expected too much frm this movie. it wasnt as good as wad i hoped, luckily jay chou's one is better:) dun expect too much touching scenes frm this movie, it onli has alot of hilarious scenes, tts all, wont make u cry if tts wad u are looking for. was expecting myself to cry but i didnt, disappointed:(
Was out with siblings and cousins on fri to watch the liar game, it's a fantastic show! i dun like movies tts of another language cos i can onli depend on the subtitles to understand wad they are talking. For this movie, by the time i read finish the subtitles, before i even hav the time to process wad they are trying to make mi understand abt this whole liar game, another set of subtitles come out and i haven even tink abt wad they are saying previously:( sad case, i nid a translator haha. this movie requires u to tink but anw i love this kind of shows:) damn nice:)
Was watching another movie, curse of the deserted ytd and if u want a scare out of this movie, there isnt realli one. it's actualli sort of like a romance show rather than horror, the romance part occupies abt 80-90% of the show, so dun waste ur money and watch it,haha.
sch's starting tmr:( im nt in the least bit excited, jus dread sch:( dun like to study:( cant sch intro more interesting modules?gt to wake up early, dno wad time to wake up also:( i hate sch:( but luckily dunnid go work every mon!hehe,i know im a lazy bum.
Met up with yl,jy and evil twin on thurs when mi and sheena went sim to submit reg fee. went back sp for dinner with them after their sch ended. was talking abt depression and im tinking will i get depression? sheena and jy was afraid tt i'll get it haha. but i told sheena i wont get it cos im so happy go lucky, how can i get it right? but she continue by saying tt some ppl also look like wont get it, in the end also get it. will i? i still dun tink so cos if im unhappy, i'll find some ways to make myself happy agn cos i dun want ppl to worry abt mi. but then... wad if theres smth tt trigger the depression? how will i get depression? is it i nid to be really sad until i feel tt theres no hope or wadever left in my life? this tot scares mi, i reali reali hope i wont get depression, pls leave mi alone depression, im fine as it is, dun ever come and find mi, thanks haha.
On the way back, yl borrowed my itouch frm mi and she's playing the games in it. Seeing mi look at her with nth to do, she said: 你平时搭MRT都在做什么？i replied: 听歌。she continued: then 听啦，不用管我的。and i asked her(looking at her and my itouch):你知道我用什么听的吗？and she realizing tt my itouch is with her, she started laughing haha. she's so blur la, still can tell mi she's jus acting blur everytime haha.
Went to visit yam today cos she jus went for operation and she's looking great:) tink her leg will be ok soon:) oh ya before i forget, i received farewell gifts frm my frens in NHG!haha, love the gifts - musical box and pink care bear:) was rather shocked when both of them approached mi tgt and handed mi the stuff, was stunned for a few secs and was wondering wads tt and y are they giving it to mi haha.
Have a date with grace on nxt tues to go jurong pt safra kbox:) excited! heard frm my fren tt the sound system is gd, gg to try it out and if its realli gd, will recommend u all there:) but seriously, if ur vocals is good, no matter where u go it's the same one, doesnt matter de haha.
Am tinking abt random qn agn: i want to experience love, i want to be loved and to love but... if it's nt the person i want to be with, i find it meaningless. there's no pt in being loved if he's nt the one tt i want. i wont feel happy. so if asked this qn: will i choose to love or to be loved, my ans will be and hav always been this, i will choose to love even if i may get hurt. tts jus my pt of view, of cos u can disagree haha. hav seen a few elderly ppl still holding hands at this age, i hope my husband and i will do tt too:) makes mi feel so envious and happy when i saw this kind of couple:)it's jus so sweet la haha.
Went to his concert and I love it! It's like a magical show haha, the 3D visual/stage effects and his vocals rocks big time (although I tot tt his voice was abit hoarse)! You should see it for yourself, this 3D effect dunnid wear 3D glasses, wont hurt ur eyes haha. First time heard him sing live!haha. Went for his autograph session at bugis and it's damn packed, didnt even get to see his face! Waited for a few more mins then decided to giv up and go home haha. It's nt the 1st time i saw him but it's the first time i went for his concert!haha, this concert means alot cos it represents his 10 yrs in the entertainment industry:) love his piano performance and guitar! he's basically using guitar and playing it like it's a gu zhen. first time i see ppl play guitar can put it on the table and play one haha. musically talented:) love his b-box also hehe:)
I still didnt get to hear him sing my fav song, 3 yrs ago, he didnt sing, i waited until 3 yrs ltr and he still didnt sing haha. was quite disappointed:( and siqi realised tt near the end of the concert hall, there's a very big lyrics board for him, no wonder he didnt forget the lyrics! i was still tinking his memory improve ald can rmb so chim de words until i saw it for myself haha.
Still rmb he said tt sg has alot of pretty girls haha and he told us tt chairs are nt meant for sitting, it's meant for us to stand even higher!haha. upon hearing tt, almost all of us stood up but didnt stand on chairs! he still ask us nt to be shy! and he went to the first row of audience and shook their hands, sad tt i wasnt at the 1st row:(i love the new version of hei se you mo when he used it to sing a duet with his shi mei cindy. and i didnt expect sun yanzi to be there, the screen was showing her face and jay was playing the piano singing a song and he suddenly switched to sun yanzi's song and she sang with him!haha, luckily i went for the sat's concert:)and he everytime changed the lyrics of the song to make us fans more happy and we screamed alot of times haha.
Was still telling sheena they all tt im his gf wadever and when we waited for him to leave, i was telling them tt he haven left cos he'll msg mi when he reached the hotel and i haven receive his msg yet haha, was fun having huan xiang zhen, at least i make them laugh:) oh ya and jay sang yi fu zhi ming, a pity yl wasnt there if nt she can sing with mi haha.
我没那么容易倒，谁叫我是周杰伦! I tink almost everyone in the indoor stadium cheered for him when we saw these words:) gd job, Jay Chou! i shall repeat these words to myself when im met with obstacles. suddenly gt a craving for bak kut teh (cos he says he likes them too haha).
Alright enough of jay, went to watch the sorcerer's apprentice and i like tt show, love those fantasy shows esp harry potter! and of cos i love salted popcorn too hehe. i admit im childish but those are the shows tt are top fav on my list:) like twilight series but i still prefer the book version instead of the movies:( and i dun hav last day in this company, will be working even after sch starts:(
Here's a quick update: been gg out with my frens frm nhg:) went kbox, pool, bowling and of cos to catch the bear frm the machine, love huikoon ttm! she helped mi caught 2 bears for my sis and I:)i love my rilakkuma hehe. it was fun gg out with them:)1 of my colleagues left and we sort of had a farewell celebration for her, went to hav buffet for lunch at tiong bahru and kbox at nite, gg to meet her agn nxt fri:)
Was out with ei8ht ytd to celebrate carrie's bday and we had steamboat! was damn full! but i love steamboat haha. used the polaroid cam we gav her for her bday and we experimented on it, and i replaced my jay chou pic to theirs, their pic is in my wallet nw:) gt to say sry to jay chou cos there are more impt ppl in my life other than him haha.
Worried abt someone right nw, dno how is she feeling. Dno if she's realli ok cos some ppl may lie so tt others wont worry abt them and tts wad i did all the time. first time im so worried abt someone, afraid of the idea of her being alone cos alone is the worst part. ppl start to tink alot when they are alone, u realli dno wad will go thru their mind at tt moment, it could all be negative thoughts. dun like the idea of being alone even though i've no choice, i am and hav always been alone, hav to be independent and strong even though i dun like it. there are moments when im weak but i always hav to hide tt part of mi away cos nobody realli cares. even if they do, i also dun want them to care cos tt means i may be adding burden to them. hate adding probs for ppl so tts the reason y im always so happy whenever im ard ppl:) will she realli be ok?gt to do things to make her smile but i dno how... hope she wont be smiling on the exterior and crying on the interior...
changing place, new environment with new colleagues whom im nt realli close to:( no one for mi to disturb, no one to talk to, cant even slack! dun dare to use internet at tt place cos it seems tt everyone will pass by everytime:( y did this happen to mi? wad did i do to deserve this?haha, i know im abit dramatic here lol. no choice la, gt to get used to a new environment whereby i cant slack as much as i do nw:( tts such a sad and boring thing for mi! will miss my frens whom im working with nw, i sound like it's my last day here haha. i tink on my last day i'll be more sad:(
my fren sitting beside mi sounds sad, dno how to console him, dno how to make him feel more happy:( how? it's nt as though it's my last day here. can somehow understand his feelings since the one who's gg to sit nxt to him may be someone who wont talk as much nonsense as i do haha. i'll still come back and disturb him but dun realli dare cos im nt sure how the new colleague will react, afraid tt she will tell on mi, gt to be more careful:( sometimes ppl can be so scheming:( this world is getting too complicated, y cant ppl remain as simple-minded/innocent as before?sian:(
anw, im gonna leave here in abt 1 month's time which is very fast!haha, tink i'll feel lost if i suddenly dunnid to go to work, dunnid to wake up so early. im wondering wad if one day i forgt tt i've left this place and i suddenly go to work as usual? tink my colleagues here will laugh at my blurness!haha
anw to my dearest fren, if u are reading this, dun feel sad k?cheer up! i'll still come back and disturb u. although i dun tink i can help u anymore, but i know u can manage it:) i have confidence in u, u cfm can one:) u are the one who taught mi alot of things so i know u can do it, gt to get used to it, i tink i better dun thank u nw, shall leave it when it's my last day here if nt i wont hav anything left to say haha. although there are some things which u dun quite agree with, but tts life, no matter wad happens rmb to smile bcos u still gt to continue living and existing no matter how bad life turns out to be:) i tink i better draw more happy stuff for u to put at ur desk so u will rmb to smile:)
this post will be dedicated to my beloved family members and action ji hehe. went amk kbox with siblings and cousins last sat and i hav to admit i realli LOVE singing. It's practically my life haha, one way to make myself happy or nt to tink abt anything negative, it's to sing:) and i tink nowadays those recent chi songs cant be compared to the oldies. I rmb one very jing dian song: guan huai fang shi, tts one of my fav! haha, used to sing it almost everyday:) i love tt show too:) anw had a great time on tt day:D
nxt shall be the 21st bday celebration of action ji!haha. long time since i called him tt, his 21st bday is a total blast! i know tt his ren yuan is gd but i didnt expect it to be so gd!!! he's realli very popular!haha, no choice la with such a great personality and treating his frens so well, it's nt a surprise he's still so close to his frens. Wad made me realli touched and happy on tt day was he took pics with us first haha, the sequence/order matters alot, at least to mi:)
discovered some top secret tt day also, asked alot of qns and seriously we were like paparazzi, i know tt person mus be real stressed on tt day but u know if u cant handle us, u wont be able to handle the rest also.lol. at least we will be able to protect u if others ask, tts the excuse we gave for asking her to tell us more.hehe.
went kbox agn with NHG colleagues on mon, by the way NHG is the company im working in, jus in case some of u still dno haha. cant get tired of singing:)
on a side note, i realised tt im putting alot of happy/smiley faces or even trying to show tt im happy. i've always wanted to be happy even if im nt, tts bcos i dun want anyone to worry abt mi. but there are times when im tired of this facade, i dun want to smile or even force myself to smile when all i realli want is to sulk. im tired of having to smile all day:( i want to smile onli if i feel like it, dun want to put on a facade everytime but whenever i see some of you, i cant help but smile:) i know who's impt in my life, i know wad i should do when faced with difficult situation, i cant seem to be brave anymore whenever i hear smth which i dun want u to say. i know tts the truth/fact but i dun want to hear u say it bcos it hurts. it realli hurts. wad hav i done?stupid mi:( i cant stop tinking bcos tts wad my brain always does, always tink of some stupid things which maybe some or alot of u dun usually tink tt way. there will be alot of things which i cant and wont be able to tell u anymore.
