worried:(

Here's a quick update: been gg out with my frens frm nhg:) went kbox, pool, bowling and of cos to catch the bear frm the machine, love huikoon ttm! she helped mi caught 2 bears for my sis and I:)i love my rilakkuma hehe. it was fun gg out with them:)1 of my colleagues left and we sort of had a farewell celebration for her, went to hav buffet for lunch at tiong bahru and kbox at nite, gg to meet her agn nxt fri:)

Was out with ei8ht ytd to celebrate carrie's bday and we had steamboat! was damn full! but i love steamboat haha. used the polaroid cam we gav her for her bday and we experimented on it, and i replaced my jay chou pic to theirs, their pic is in my wallet nw:) gt to say sry to jay chou cos there are more impt ppl in my life other than him haha.

Worried abt someone right nw, dno how is she feeling. Dno if she's realli ok cos some ppl may lie so tt others wont worry abt them and tts wad i did all the time. first time im so worried abt someone, afraid of the idea of her being alone cos alone is the worst part. ppl start to tink alot when they are alone, u realli dno wad will go thru their mind at tt moment, it could all be negative thoughts. dun like the idea of being alone even though i've no choice, i am and hav always been alone, hav to be independent and strong even though i dun like it. there are moments when im weak but i always hav to hide tt part of mi away cos nobody realli cares. even if they do, i also dun want them to care cos tt means i may be adding burden to them. hate adding probs for ppl so tts the reason y im always so happy whenever im ard ppl:) will she realli be ok?gt to do things to make her smile but i dno how... hope she wont be smiling on the exterior and crying on the interior...