It's the holidays!

Shall not comment too much on exams since it's already over but I can't help worrying about it. Suddenly thought of this quotation " I can't help doing this cause I feel this way" (taken from sociology text) haha. But anyway, adrian tang is damn good in spotting questions. He gave us 2 essay questions and both came out for the main exams but I still don't know how to do cause I never read his answers haha. Didn't complete all the papers, not even Maths but I hope I can pass. Meanwhile, it's time for some enjoyment before results are released and I'll worry for 1 whole week before the release of results. I hope I pass! *prays hard* How I wish there's moderation! Keep thinking how come others can do it but I can't? Maybe I didn't put in enough effort :( sad to say, but I think that's true.

Alright, next up is to start reading my novels! haha, it has been a long time since I've touched a novel! Then I'll start meeting up with ei8ht, min, bel, liz & DBA01 people! I want to go out and play!haha. I want to eat buffet, sing, watch movies, etc etc. I want to watch my Harry Potter movie too! But it's the last one already, kinda sad though, no more Harry Potter's movies to look forward to anymore:( Shall enjoy life to the max before work/school starts!

Those who have not finished their exams, jiayou! Just endure for a few more weeks and everything will be over!:) It's tough but you still got to go through this and the results will be sweet enough:) Jiayou! I have to say goodbye to sleepless nights and guilt for sleeping too much, goodbye nightmares! :))

Bad mood...

In a bad mood recently due to exam stress:( Difficult to feel happy, I wish I can be happy too:( Just let me complain here since I don't want to burden anyone with my troubles...Been having nightmares lately (due to the stress? I don't know), but I hope they will go away soon, I haven't been sleeping well lately :(

Attended all UK lectures already, I'm worried for all my modules. Got back my prelim papers and the results are sucky, I failed all including Maths. I'm left with 3 local lectures, about 2-3 more weeks and it's exam period. I don't have enough time already :( How?! Starting to panic now :(

心情真的很不好 :( I don't feel like blogging anymore :(

Quick updates

I've been going for revision lectures recently, it has been useful for some of them. I love Steve Taylor's lecture the most, he makes the lecture damn interesting haha. I like his teaching style, I wish that the lecturers in SIM will be like him. So far I like my local lecturers too, but Steve Taylor is the best lecturer I've seen so far (in my opinion). My Maths1 lecturer has been changed to Philip Stephenson, he's too good, gave us lots of methods to solve a question but it won't help much since he only taught us once. I'm going to try my best for Maths though:) I think my local lecturer for POA is better than the UK one, Adrian Tang is also not bad, at least he won't force us to answer questions in sociology class (Rosemary wants us to think so she expects an answer everytime). I haven't attended econs revision lecture yet, heard that the lecturer is famous for directing questions at people and will wait till you give him an answer, that's kind of scary and it gives me lots of pressure:( I'm glad that I've a good econs lecturer, she makes me understand econs even though it's difficult, lucky to have her if not I'll be irritated with a lousy lecturer. Have not attended Maths1 revision lecture too, hope it will be useful:)

Meanwhile, it will be mugging period for me, hopefully I'll be able to complete everything before the final exams:) I always thought that exams is not about luck, it's about whether you know your stuff or not. My poly classmates always asked me how come I'm so calm and don't need to study before going into the exam hall? My answer is always: 你会就是会，不会就是不会。True? Even if you studied now, when the questions really come out, you still won't get the right answer cause you don't really understand the concepts.

I feel like going to Jolin's and Show's concert in May:( I want to watch them dance, but I won't be able to see anything if I'm located too far away:( Better to buy their concert DVDs? But then it seems pointless to me since I'm not their supporter. Reminds me of something, I still didn't get to see the live version of Jolin & Jay's "双J舞", sad:( And I came across this picture which states that Jay is a Louis Koo look-alike? At first glance I was mistaken too but after a second glance, I finally realised that it's Jay haha. I shouldn't have been mistaken in the first place!

DBA01 girls night out:)

Finally met up with SP DBA01 girls, although some of them are busy and couldn't come, the rest who turned up still had fun:) I miss them, evon was the one who organised this outing, before my prelims, she came to talk to me, she knew how stressful we are, so she went to organise this outing, she's so nice:) I'm glad that I still manage to maintain this friendship with them. I'm thankful for them for taking their time out to meet up:) I'm thankful for lots of stuff nowadays haha. I haven't seen mel and kristin for a while:( I miss insulting/arguing with mel haha! I haven't seen my dearest huiwen too. We can only chat on msn/message each other now. Hopefully I'll see them soon:)

We had our dinner at pastamania and went to shop around at cineleisure afterwards. I wore my new shoes out and evon was saying me all the way, see me one time must say one time (that's what she said--direct translation haha). I was taller cause that shoes helped a little I admit, but I'm always tall just that now become taller, doesn't really have too much difference. If this is tall, you haven't seen me in my heels yet haha. I just so happened to wear shorts that day and become taller and evon just said I can be a model! I thought models have a slim figure? Mine is thin, like bamboo, I seriously think I look like a bamboo or worse I've heard others say I look like chopsticks! haha.

Played monopoly deal at orchard central basement, it was my first time playing so I didn't win. I'm really unlucky cause I always have to sell my property away because I don't have enough money to pay! I seriously hate paying money when I don't have any, how can I complete my set this way?! How come we can't have any change back if we paid extra in monopoly deal? We can have our change back if it's the normal monopoly haha! But it's fun and good game played:)

monopoly deal!

burglary:)

we love to interrupt evon when she's taking her individual picture hehe

this picture shows us interrupting and she's trying to hit me, proof of evidence for evon!

So much has happened...

The incident in Japan is traumatizing to me, hope they are able to rescue the survivors there. It's times like this which reminds me that life is fragile, we got to treasure those around us. Seems like we don't have much time left in this world with all these talks about the world coming to an end:( Sad, but life still goes on, I'm going to treasure every moment spent with my loved ones:) I hope nothing happens to them, hope the world won't end so soon!

I didn't go for my soci prelim on Monday cause I didn't finished studying and met up with min for movie at vivo, had our dinner at holland v:) Bel brought her boyfriend there and the atmosphere wasn't too awkward, feel quite comfortable:) Had to leave early to meet lays at orchard to search for nat's yellow presents! Managed to find 20 of her presents while the last noble task of buying the sunflower is assigned to me:))

Brought her sunflower to tanjong pagar yesterday and along the way, people are starring at the flower! I felt more like going to confess to someone than having someone confessed to me haha. Initially we wanted to eat korean bbq but there's a long queue so we changed location, met with quite alot of obstacles before settling on spizza:) We were entertained by stories of what nat's friends and boyfriend did on her birthday, seriously they are damn sweet and thoughtful! The most entertaining part was talking about jy's "new guy friend" wor~haha. This is the first time I've seen her so quiet, speechless with 6 people bombarding her with her new friend wor~ Started this "wor" thing cause the guy kept saying wor, makes him seem like a girl, the way he talked seems like a girl (no offense jy, don't be angry!haha) I think this is what they call karma, it's payback time!haha, who ask jy to keep disturbing us, now it's our showtime! I better make sure I won't be the next target, keeping a low profile nowadays:)) Sorry for the belated birthday present but we are glad that you liked it!:)

Everything that we ordered came in 8 portions but there's 7 of us. If mag was there, we would have eaten equal amount of food, now some people got to eat the leftovers. Jy was supposed to bring nat away to prevent her from seeing the cupcakes and the messages we are gonna write for her but halfway through nat managed to slip away. It took us by surprise and our plan failed! She saw what we were doing and we had to write our messages in front of her:( Even though mag wasn't there, we still put her picture with ours (taken with the polaroid) and we even drew her out in the group picture:) Managed to catch the last train home, phew!

特别喜欢林俊杰诠释的“爱笑的眼睛”:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATALIE ♥

writing her birthday message with her looking at us!haha

all busy checking out jy's "new guy friend" wor~ lol

can you spot sheena & me?

retro action requested by jy

Sad:((

Everyone is stressed up nowadays, having to complete their projects before deadlines, having tons of stuff to add inside, busy studying for exams, I know that all of you are stressed up. I can't do anything to help, that's the sad thing. I don't even know how to help, except to always give you all moral support and saying stuffs like "don't worry, you can do it, I have confidence in you." I keep saying these words to the point that I think this moral support doesn't even help anymore. I know how it feels to be helpless, when you don't understand the things that you are studying yet there's no one there to help you. The feeling when you are already so helpless and someone just told you all these to console you, it may not make you feel better, it may just make you feel like this person don't even know how tough you had it going.

I admit I don't know how tough it is, I admit I'm always too naive, thinking way too positive that things will be able to get solved by themselves. I know there's a lot of hard work to be done to produce results and when you can't get the desired results, you will feel even worse. I know... but I really don't know how to help. I think that my words of encouragement are so useless, it doesn't make you feel any better, am I right? I'm really sorry I can't do much to help, but I hope that you don't bottle everything inside, at least you can confide in me or even scold me to vent out all the frustrations in you, maybe that will make you feel better. I don't mind if you do that, I just don't want you to feel so stressed, frustrated with no ways to release it all out. Just vent it out on me, I don't mind, I'm born to take away all the anger and unhappiness from people, I don't wish to see my friends being unhappy.

I know that at this point of time, what you need is not words of encouragement, but someone who can guide you in that particular subject. I'm really sorry I don't have the ability to help... sad:( You may feel helpless with this particular subject but I feel even more helpless not being able to help. If there's any way that I can help you, please tell me alright? I'll try my best to do it, as long as it's within my ability:) I always believe that 施比受更有福, that's part of the reason why I'll go all out for my friends as long as they need me:))

好想去唱歌、打保龄球、打桌球，把所有的烦恼都赶走，可是现在的你就算想做这些都没时间:((

Just endure for a few more months will do, don't give up, don't let your past efforts go to waste, I know how much hard work you have put in, just continue doing the same thing and you will be fine:) It takes a lot of determination and perseverance to come to this stage, I'm sure you will be able to get through this with your intelligence:) Let's jiayou together:)) All the same to you guys too:))

Prelims period...

Done with Economics, POA & Maths1 prelim papers and all the papers are damn sucky:(( Partly is due to the fact that I didn't prepare myself well, I merely just read through my Econs notes and half of POA notes! I skipped all parts of management accounting questions cause I didn't study for that, so don't think there's a chance to pass. My Maths... sigh, I don't know how to do, sad... I'm only confident of the matrix question haha. Never mind it's over, shall practise more:) Left with sociology paper on 14 March, that's a rather huge gap between Maths1 & soci paper, don't know if I will start studying anytime soon, damn lazy and not motivated:(

My sister just got back her 'A' level results, she got 3As!haha, she was still worried when my cousin got a call from the school. They wanted him to go school earlier cause he scored quite good grades and he needed to go on stage, but no one called my sister. I can feel that she has alot of pressure cause everyone expected her to score well and she will break down and be disappointed if she didn't. First time seeing her having such low confidence level! Rare phenomenon haha. I predicted that she will get 3As and I told her but she shut me up by telling me she won't get any, how many times does she need to repeat herself. Luckily she got the results she wanted:) I'm happy for her:)) Have always known that she can do it, she's the smartest among us:))

On a side note, I keep listening to the song "99 分的幸福", think it's quite nice until now when this song is released about 5 years ago! I don't even know the existence of this song haha, but will learn this song soon so next time go kbox can sing:)

Shall blog again if there are any new updates, if not I think there's nothing much for me to say. I think I will rarely blog nowadays since my life is rather mundane now, got to study for the final exams, life sucks big time!