Doesn't matter anymore

I guess this is the only place where I can rant everything out, I hope it will remain this way. I hope that one day I won't have to resort to changing my blog address. Maybe I'll consider locking my tweets, locking my facebook, locking my blog so that no one will know about my recent happenings. Well, it seems like a good idea:)

There must be a reason why I always come here, that's because I tend to confess about those things which I find it difficult to tell my friends in my blog. Everything that I'm hiding will be posted here, I find it more comfortable to express it in words rather than confiding in my friends. I don't really know how to express myself, so this is the only way. I don't really want them to worry about me, so I'll always write about my feelings here. If this privilege is taken away from me, that's it. It's the last straw, there's a limit to everything.

I don't even know if I should feel angry or sad or put myself in your shoes and do whatever I can to help you, but I've already done everything that I can. I don't have the habit of setting my profile page to private cause I don't see the need to, and I don't want this habit to change. I don't want to keep thinking about the consequences it will lead to if I post this particular stuff, I want to be able to rant about everything and anything that I want, just like in the past. I don't like to feel restricted, like what if I'm sad about this thing but I can't even post it in my blog? Then what is the use of my blog? It's designed such that I can just rant out my feelings, isn't it?

Forget it, I didn't expect this reaction though, but well, you won't really understand my feelings unless you are the one experiencing it. It seems as though it's my fault, I've to control myself from writing about anything as and when I like. This is my own private space, so why should I be restricted to write about anything as and when I like? But well, I'm just venting out my anger.

很开心你告诉我希望我留下的原因，很开心你希望我留下，但是我说过了，除非是我要的答案，不然我是不会留下的。我承认我有被动摇，你给的理由都很合理，但是都不重要了，因为那始终不是我要的答案。如果留下的话，只会越陷越深，伤害也会越来越大，何必呢？虽然还是会想要留下来，至少有机会留在你的身边陪你聊天，跟你开玩笑，让你教我功课，还可以赚钱，听起来还真是不错哦！但是就像我说过的，来不及也不重要了。。。我想以后就算要回去找你，也应该找不到了吧？

保重，再见了。。。