dimsum :)

Had dimsum with ei8ht yesterday:) We still didn't know what to get for yl, thought of an idea for her friends though! We were too tired to think and I really have no idea! We are the laziest bunch of girls around! Not forgetting the 'always hungry and eat alot', of course not including me since I've a rather small appetite as compared to them!haha. We went to rest for a while before continuing shopping and chill at 'once upon a milkshake'. We are always resting~~~ haha!

Talked about my sister and I, we are way different! No one believed me when I told them that, not until they saw the pictures. That's when they became speechless. Personality not the same, intelligence level not the same, appearance not the same, sense of dressing not the same... But nevertheless, I still love my sister:)) I like the relationship I have with her:) I can talk to her about anything and everything in the world, but it depends on whether I want to do that. She will always listen and give advice:) She will care about me, I can always tell even though she always used a serious tone when she cares hahaha, but that's just her! We care about the people around us, but she is more expressive, not me, I won't show but that doesn't mean I don't care, I do it through actions, she prefers both actions and words.

感觉很矛盾，有时希望你会关心我，有时又希望你不要对我那么好，就连朋友的关心都不可以。因为我会害怕，害怕又会想太多，害怕又会重新燃起希望，每次都要跟自己说这就只是朋友的关心而已，没有别的意思，不可以想太多。最怕的是，越陷越深，怕受伤，怕难过，怕失落。我还蛮怕面对你的。。。我怕我的情绪会很容易被你影响。

为了避免自己再越界，我总是在重复着你对我说的话，那些伤人的话我还记得。。。也只能用这个方法了，至少会比较容易把我们之间的距离拉开。不对，应该是我会觉得比较容易远离你。我没办法再跟你走得这么近了，因为我随时会有越界的行为。

有时还是会超越朋友可以关心的范围，会过度关心，这样不行！反正我可以躲的话就会躲得越远越好，不行的话，就只能装一下了，不能让你发现我在躲你，如果你知道的话，应该会很难过吧？我不能再像以前那样关心你，对你好了。我没办法再把你当作是朋友了，至少现在不行。。。对你，始终还是会有特别的情感存在着。