Not sure how's your mood right now, but I think it's best not to keep bothering and agitating you further. I've been thinking, this is a good opportunity to stay away from you but I realized that I couldn't do it. I can't stand the idea of you ignoring me, giving me the cold shoulder, not speaking to me etc, can't stand it a single bit. But I'm not going to let you know about this, not going to make known my feelings to you anymore, not going to tell you that I hate having cold war with you. I hate giving in, I hate to admit I'm wrong and apologizing to you due to my pride, 我不喜欢低声下气跟你道歉之后，你却还是显得有点冷漠，不理我。
I hate having arguments with you and thinking what's the situation now, is the incident still bothering you, are you unhappy, are we back to normal or what, not asking you where do I stand, how much do I matter anymore. Asking you those questions will only humiliate me even further, I know the answer you are going to give but I was hoping that you would give me a different answer. If you are going to stay away from today onwards, feel free to do so. We will just have to pretend there's nothing wrong and continue to be friends in front of other people, that's what I'm good in-- faking.
I don't mind you staying away, at least I won't have to be the one doing it. 算了，就算是我的错，我也不想再这么低声下气，不想再道歉了。你可以继续不理我，生我的气，随便你，反正我再也不要管你了。*都怪我那可恶的自尊心在作祟*
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
对不起
又惹你生气了，又说错话了。。。对不起，不确定你是不是真的没在生气，是我太过分了。不知道要怎么做，要说什么才可以弥补我犯的错误，只能拼命的道歉。对不起。你有在怪我吗？希望你会忘掉，希望你不会放在心上，是我不对，不应该这样怀疑你，不应该诬赖你，不应该口出恶言去中伤你。我知道我伤害了你，对不起。我根本就不应该这么想，都是我的错。对不起。你应该对我蛮失望的吧？很内疚。。。
讨厌跟你吵架，讨厌每次闹不合而我要求和解的时候，你又会跟我保持距离。之前说好的事，你会说你不要了，这哪算和解啊？每次和解后你说你没有生气，我还是不敢跟你讲话，会觉得你很凶，会觉得你还是不想理我，不敢去烦你，怕又会说错话惹你生气。我说过了，你如果有什么事要找我的话，你可以继续这么做，看你想怎样就怎样。
真的很讨厌现在这个时候。。。只能等你想跟我说话的时候了，只有到那个时候我才可以确定一切都没事。
水手怕水这首歌好可爱，MV也很逗趣!:) Album delayed cause of the handmade gift when you pre-order, got to wait until 18 Nov then!
讨厌跟你吵架，讨厌每次闹不合而我要求和解的时候，你又会跟我保持距离。之前说好的事，你会说你不要了，这哪算和解啊？每次和解后你说你没有生气，我还是不敢跟你讲话，会觉得你很凶，会觉得你还是不想理我，不敢去烦你，怕又会说错话惹你生气。我说过了，你如果有什么事要找我的话，你可以继续这么做，看你想怎样就怎样。
真的很讨厌现在这个时候。。。只能等你想跟我说话的时候了，只有到那个时候我才可以确定一切都没事。
水手怕水这首歌好可爱，MV也很逗趣!:) Album delayed cause of the handmade gift when you pre-order, got to wait until 18 Nov then!
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Yunli's birthday party!
Meet up with the rest at ehub first to draw and cut out these words "Yunli 21st" and pasted it on the back of our tee-shirt. Forgot to mention the awesome theme the birthday girl set: tee-shirt and shorts!:) We agreed to wear black shirt cause that's her favourite colour. Called her out from the chalet and just turned and showed her the words:)
Although yunli wasn't there so often to talk to us, there was lots of fun and laughter cause we started playing poker cards haha. Carrie introduced this game asshole, it's sort of like the English version of big two with 5 players instead of the usual 4. Once a player wins, the next in turn to play can just put any card and they have titles for 1st to win right up to the last one, starting from King, Queen, Commoner, Prostitute and Asshole. The King will exchange 2 of his worst cards with 2 of the best cards from the Asshole. The Queen will exchange with the Prostitute, it's quite a fun game especially seeing the players having no cards to put and skipping their turn, it's fun guessing who's gonna be last and laughing at the Asshole haha.
Yunli received her Harman Kardon Soundsticks III from ei8ht and her rilakkuma from her uni mates:) I hope she likes it, she could already guess what we bought for her. Well, at least it's something that she wants but it means that ei8ht will have to go on a diet for 1 month, no money to eat already:( Pictures taken with the 8 megapixel iPhone4S was nice and I like her cake with a variety of colours!
I didn't know that Hairul (jy's uni friend) was in the same class as me in poly year 3! He had my name in his contacts and checked with jy if that was me and it was. I have totally no recollection of him in the same class as me, but that time he was the class rep so he had everyone's number so that explains why he has my number but I don't have his. I'm really sorry for not remembering him haha, quite embarrassed and Jackie just had something to say about it and he forgot I've a brother. Then I was pretty heartless, I said it's ok, you forgetting about my brother is the same as me forgetting about you few years later :P If he doesn't want me to forget that I have a friend named Jackie, he better start appearing whenever ei8ht ask him out haha.
Although yunli wasn't there so often to talk to us, there was lots of fun and laughter cause we started playing poker cards haha. Carrie introduced this game asshole, it's sort of like the English version of big two with 5 players instead of the usual 4. Once a player wins, the next in turn to play can just put any card and they have titles for 1st to win right up to the last one, starting from King, Queen, Commoner, Prostitute and Asshole. The King will exchange 2 of his worst cards with 2 of the best cards from the Asshole. The Queen will exchange with the Prostitute, it's quite a fun game especially seeing the players having no cards to put and skipping their turn, it's fun guessing who's gonna be last and laughing at the Asshole haha.
Yunli received her Harman Kardon Soundsticks III from ei8ht and her rilakkuma from her uni mates:) I hope she likes it, she could already guess what we bought for her. Well, at least it's something that she wants but it means that ei8ht will have to go on a diet for 1 month, no money to eat already:( Pictures taken with the 8 megapixel iPhone4S was nice and I like her cake with a variety of colours!
I didn't know that Hairul (jy's uni friend) was in the same class as me in poly year 3! He had my name in his contacts and checked with jy if that was me and it was. I have totally no recollection of him in the same class as me, but that time he was the class rep so he had everyone's number so that explains why he has my number but I don't have his. I'm really sorry for not remembering him haha, quite embarrassed and Jackie just had something to say about it and he forgot I've a brother. Then I was pretty heartless, I said it's ok, you forgetting about my brother is the same as me forgetting about you few years later :P If he doesn't want me to forget that I have a friend named Jackie, he better start appearing whenever ei8ht ask him out haha.
Monday, October 31, 2011
updates!
Happened to see min's boyfriend yesterday when I went causeway point to ask about my contract with SingTel, spotted him first and started looking for min and she was there too:) I've a pretty good memory cause I saw his photos once and can recognise him since then.
Had lunch with min just now and we continued our usual chit-chat haha. She was doing most of the talking while I'm just asking questions and giving some opinions.
I have lessons from 8.30am to 3pm tomorrow and an additional 7pm-10pm FM lecture cause it was postponed to this week since the lecturer wasn't free last week. Tomorrow is going to be a tiring day:(
I want an iPhone4S casing! But until now I can't find one which I really like, just got to make do with this casing I'm using now.
Sigh~ You're being missed again... Sometimes I wish that you will tell me you miss me too:( I'm asking for too much again:( Sigh~ Have I crossed your mind even for 1 second? Or did you ever think of me when you're bored and need someone to talk to? I miss talking to you in person, I miss the times when we used to joke around and I always like to disturb you and bully you. 还蛮喜欢跟你斗嘴的, like to argue until you are speechless and sometimes you will start saying some nonsensical/funny stuff to win haha. I always feel that you like to bully me and give me lots of workload whenever I offered my help, used to complain about it to you. You will either start to argue back or you will take back the stuff reluctantly and do it yourself. Everytime when it comes to this stage, 我又会开始心软了, I'll always take back my words and request for work from you again. You always win whenever you show me the sad face cause that's when I'll start giving in:(
Had lunch with min just now and we continued our usual chit-chat haha. She was doing most of the talking while I'm just asking questions and giving some opinions.
I have lessons from 8.30am to 3pm tomorrow and an additional 7pm-10pm FM lecture cause it was postponed to this week since the lecturer wasn't free last week. Tomorrow is going to be a tiring day:(
I want an iPhone4S casing! But until now I can't find one which I really like, just got to make do with this casing I'm using now.
Sigh~ You're being missed again... Sometimes I wish that you will tell me you miss me too:( I'm asking for too much again:( Sigh~ Have I crossed your mind even for 1 second? Or did you ever think of me when you're bored and need someone to talk to? I miss talking to you in person, I miss the times when we used to joke around and I always like to disturb you and bully you. 还蛮喜欢跟你斗嘴的, like to argue until you are speechless and sometimes you will start saying some nonsensical/funny stuff to win haha. I always feel that you like to bully me and give me lots of workload whenever I offered my help, used to complain about it to you. You will either start to argue back or you will take back the stuff reluctantly and do it yourself. Everytime when it comes to this stage, 我又会开始心软了, I'll always take back my words and request for work from you again. You always win whenever you show me the sad face cause that's when I'll start giving in:(
Sunday, October 30, 2011
happy!
Yes!!!! Finally gotten my iPhone4S on fri, went to suntec roadshow with jy to purchase:) Happy but also thinking that it's too expensive, spending about $500 at one go for a phone, it's really no joke!
At costa sands downtown east yesterday to celebrate melly's 21st birthday:) Long time since we gathered together, everyone's busy with their own lives and we are asking the same old questions, how are we doing, what have we been up to etc. We used to see one other everyday in school but now we only gather for birthdays, but the chemistry is still there. They are still as fun-loving and humorous haha, Mr Yeong actually recycled one of his lame jokes which he told me before and I had to sit there and helped him lie to the others. Next week will be yl's turn at the same venue again:)
Missed the last train, wanted to cab home with hoonie and bib but we saw the bus heading towards yishun and board it. After that we managed to catch the last train heading towards jurong east!:)) Saved on midnight cab fare, the others got to pay extra by cabbing home! Too bad! I'm being sarcastic here haha. I hope next week I won't miss the last train!
Tuned in to yes93.3fm just now and the first song I heard is Jay's new song!hehe, happy like mad! I'm so lucky! Bought his albums already, gonna wait for 11 Nov to collect:)
One of my brackets came off:( Going to get it fixed tomorrow!
At costa sands downtown east yesterday to celebrate melly's 21st birthday:) Long time since we gathered together, everyone's busy with their own lives and we are asking the same old questions, how are we doing, what have we been up to etc. We used to see one other everyday in school but now we only gather for birthdays, but the chemistry is still there. They are still as fun-loving and humorous haha, Mr Yeong actually recycled one of his lame jokes which he told me before and I had to sit there and helped him lie to the others. Next week will be yl's turn at the same venue again:)
Missed the last train, wanted to cab home with hoonie and bib but we saw the bus heading towards yishun and board it. After that we managed to catch the last train heading towards jurong east!:)) Saved on midnight cab fare, the others got to pay extra by cabbing home! Too bad! I'm being sarcastic here haha. I hope next week I won't miss the last train!
Tuned in to yes93.3fm just now and the first song I heard is Jay's new song!hehe, happy like mad! I'm so lucky! Bought his albums already, gonna wait for 11 Nov to collect:)
One of my brackets came off:( Going to get it fixed tomorrow!
Sunday, October 23, 2011
代替品
有时候会被别人当作是代替品，可是我明知道自己只是个代替品，为什么还情愿当个代替品呢？你有想过这个问题吗？理由很简单，因为不想你一个人，不想你觉得孤单、觉得闷、觉得无聊、觉得不自在、不开心。也许，你根本不会这么想，是我自己想太多，过度担心了。最糟的是，你已经知道自己是代替品了，却只能配合，照着别人的意思去做。
在任何人决定把我当作代替品之前，是不是可以试着站在我的立场为我想一下，考虑一下我的感受？如果今天换作是你被当成代替品，你又会有什么感受？如果再发生同样状况的话，我还是会和以往一样，在你需要我的时候陪在你的身边。只要是你约的，而我又有空的话，我一定赴约。这就是我对你好的方式。。。希望不会有人利用我对他的好。
我要的其实很简单，我只是不想被当作是代替品。这点，你做得到吗？
在任何人决定把我当作代替品之前，是不是可以试着站在我的立场为我想一下，考虑一下我的感受？如果今天换作是你被当成代替品，你又会有什么感受？如果再发生同样状况的话，我还是会和以往一样，在你需要我的时候陪在你的身边。只要是你约的，而我又有空的话，我一定赴约。这就是我对你好的方式。。。希望不会有人利用我对他的好。
我要的其实很简单，我只是不想被当作是代替品。这点，你做得到吗？
Friday, October 21, 2011
Anticipate!
周杰伦与歌迷们不变的约定：第十一张专辑即将于2011年11月11日正式发行！10月26日开始预购！好像会有11首歌！太开心了! :)) 还蛮期待的！这次又会有什么惊喜呢？
还没买他的《超时代》演唱会 DVD :( 那就跟新专辑一起买吧！
Going to get iPhone 4S on the 28th Oct, provided there's enough to cater to all Apple consumers! Money is draining out like water :( After jy & I get it, all ei8ht of us will be using the same brand of handphone! haha. Apple product rocks! :) Still considering whether to switch to SingTel or continue with my StarHub? Let's check out the price plans first!
还没买他的《超时代》演唱会 DVD :( 那就跟新专辑一起买吧！
Going to get iPhone 4S on the 28th Oct, provided there's enough to cater to all Apple consumers! Money is draining out like water :( After jy & I get it, all ei8ht of us will be using the same brand of handphone! haha. Apple product rocks! :) Still considering whether to switch to SingTel or continue with my StarHub? Let's check out the price plans first!