Dinner at y cube mookata, food was good, wouldn't mind going again. Wide variety of food to choose from, they even have abalone, salmon, ice cream. Mixture of bbq and steamboat, soup was nice but it got more salty towards the end, could be due to the bbq meat juices flowing down. They bought a cake for me, I managed to finish half but it was getting sweeter so I stopped. Knowing me, I usually don't pay attention to my surroundings so I didn't notice that mag was holding a cake on the way here until I heard yl ask why is there a cake. I was a bit slow, still thinking whose birthday is nearing until I realised a few seconds later that it's me. I also happened to see jy opening the box under the table after dinner. I pretended I never see anything and looked away, wanted to ask her to pass me something then I saw the candle. Too obvious already, I can't feign ignorance anymore. After dinner we tried our luck calling Teo Heng, managed to get a room at suntec much to our surprise. Most of them haven't been to Teo Heng for so long that they didn't know how to choose songs so I chose all old songs for them while jy chose all the latest ones. We ended up listening to the original singer rather than sing k. Too tired when I reached home at 2 plus.
Steamboat dinner at crystal jade (zhongshan outlet), was expecting to eat my favourite tomyam. Ended up eating 麻辣 because they took the wrong order, I don't like :( With expectations comes disappointment :( 不开心 :( Everywhere I go, I always choose tomyam soup base for steamboat unless if they don't have. I want to eat tomyam :(
When someone likes the stuff you gave them, they will use it in front of you so that you know they like it. If you have never seen them use it, it means they don't like it. That is why actions always speak louder than words. They may say they like it but you don't believe it. 也许就是因为很任性，很霸道，很固执，才会这么惹人厌吧？每次都希望你会送我回家，可是我却总是没办法说出口。送我回家这四个字很简单，可是我却怕被拒绝，怕尴尬，脸皮不够厚。又没有说不要你送，是我的暗示不够明显吗？直接说我送你回家不就好，为什么还要问 :( 怎么可能会不要你送，就这样走掉，什么都不懂，不开心 :( 你什么时候才会看穿我的心思？与其收到祝福的话，我更希望你能陪在我身边。还会不会见面是个未知数。我想应该没有机会一起出国了，可惜 :( 杰伦要来开演唱会了，我还是希望你能陪我去。这些都是我没办法对你说出口的话。Feelings don't come with a switch, you can't turn it off as and when you like. You can pretend like it doesn't bother you but deep down, you know that's not true.
Happy CNY, everybody! Happy birthday to myself too.
Christmas was spent at relative's house, having ready-made bbq food. I won't say it's horrible because it's still edible but I don't like it. Went to jovan's house and played monopoly deal, they keep wanting to make me bankrupt, keep on taking my money and property. My simple-minded brain can't catch up with their scheming minds, 玩游戏没有所谓的亲情感情 haha. Well, in the end I still win even though I'm bankrupt, even winning once can make me so happy. Had supper after that, tomyam soup cravings satisfied :)
Last day of 2015 was spent at cousin's house as usual, tokky's 2 nieces came and joined us for a while. Jh asked meimei who she hopes will lose uno stacko and she kept looking at me even though I'm not playing! That's because she's not close to me initially and I never even attempt to play with them, I'm concentrating on my tv show. 小孩子都希望跟自己不熟的人会输，可是我们却是希望跟我们熟的人会输。After that they went crazy playing with me, as long as there's someone who is willing to play with them, they will like that person. When it's time to go home, meimei is still standing at the door asking me to play hide and seek with her. She doesn't want to go home. Had mac for supper delivered to us by our usual delivery person, hy, managed to countdown with her.
Brunch at symmetry with ei8ht, I was late because I don't want to get out of bed when it's such a nice weather to sleep in. Ordered big breakfast, it's good although it's a little on the pricier side, eat till very full. Evil twin guessed it's me on the first try, not fun at all but I got her what she wanted - gopro case. My secret santa was jackie, had a hard time guessing. He got me what I wanted, charmander nanoblock :) Our budget is $20 and I thought the price is about $15 so I only asked for one :( Should have asked for one more, ironman nanoblock but I'm still very happy with my charmander. I was still asking him a lot of questions about his present on the train ride there. I keep trying to play mind games, questioning him about the size of the present since his bag seems quite flat and empty. Since my nanoblock is small, I was trying to see if I can get anything out of him. I even asked if the person is coming but his answers managed to make me drop my suspicions, not bad. Played truth or dare using the china version cards jy brought and htht, I'm lucky to get only 1 dare. There's the extreme worst case and super good one like 生不如死 (got to do every punishment decided by the dice each one of us throw), 君子报仇十年不晚 (each of us have to do the punishment now), 免死金牌 (don't need to do any punishment) and 时来运转 (the previous player has to accept the punishment on your behalf). The usual 4 (2 pairs of twins) went to jy's house to play board game munchkin, only managed to play 2 rounds cause we are busy trying to figure out the rules of the game, there's too many rules to follow. It's rather confusing at first, we have new questions popping out for every turn, need to refer to the manual for guidance. Swee choon for dinner at 10, not that hungry anymore so didn't really eat a lot.
我很想你 :( 可不可以不要离开？可不可以不管我说什么都不要让我离开？不用等到以后，每次说要离开就已经后悔了。不想离开才是真心话，其它的都是口是心非。不是办不到，只是不想。
There isn't any christmas exchange with the Teo's because some of them are travelling overseas and we couldn't find a date where everyone can make it. So sad, this is the first time we didn't have christmas exchange :( On a side note, I finally found a blue christmas tree! This is by far my favourite haha.
Dinner at I'm Kim korean bbq with bel and min, had cravings for korean bbq. Ate a lot of my favourite kimchi, their pancakes are nice, garlic chicken and volcano chicken are good too. Whatever meat they can't finish, they just throw it to me, want me to eat more so I can grow fatter haha. I actually prefer mushroom soup than collagen soup, too full to try the seaweed and korean ginseng chicken soup. It's not bad but I don't really like it, still feel that wang daebak is better. They have a time limit of 1.5 hours for the buffet. I don't like the idea of having a time limit, especially for buffet. The queue was still very long when we left, is it really that nice?
Wasn't too full so we went over to createaf waffles at cathay. They have 1-for-1 promotion but we had to order full size waffles instead of half. Their waffle is good, worth a try, don't really like earl grey lavender ice cream :( Salted caramel suits my taste more. Had our annual christmas exchange, our theme is starbucks. I managed to find the snowman cup both of them wanted after checking out 5 outlets. I guess I'm just lucky. I even facebook messaged starbucks to find out which outlet has it, but they only replied after I bought it. Both of them were still talking about it during dinner, they are sad that it was sold out. They went to a lot of outlets too but couldn't find it and I just kept quiet all the way. Too bad for bel that it was min who got it, she seems really surprised and happy when she saw it :) Mission accomplished!
We were talking about the 5 love languages and decided to do an online test to find out what was our love language. I was expecting mine to be quality time and it turns out that I do understand myself well enough. Next was acts of service, the other 3 was much lower (gifts, words of affirmation and physical touch). Well, I admit I'm a sticky person but not always. I still need some 'me' time.
Merry Christmas everyone! All I want for Christmas is you~
Had lunch at bottura, ordered pizza and pasta, had to help yx finish her pizza. I can only manage 2 slices before I give up, too full to continue. Not too bad, will recommend their pasta rather than pizza. I still prefer the pizza at peperoni pizzeria. Their manager still went around to ask if everything is all right, seems like they really care about customers' satisfaction. Singing is satisfying as usual, held my mini J concert as usual haha.
Discussed about our next overseas trip, wanted to go bkk but her only worries were it might be a little unsafe for only 2 girls to travel around bkk. We don't have many common friends. Since we will be together the whole time, I don't want to go with people that I'm not close with or don't really know. I've been wanting to go there for quite some time. We did discuss about this bkk trip while we were on the flight to tw but all we talked about was we will go together since she doesn't mind accompanying me to bkk. Maybe I will have to go with other friends then, at least it will be safer with more people. Both of us seem like easy targets.
Something happened, twice and it caught my attention, made me frightened for a moment. Not sure if the women around me are too paranoid or I really didn't pay much attention to my surroundings. Once, I happened to sit in the middle of a guy and girl, the girl suddenly told me to be careful of the guy beside as he keeps moving close to her just now. I don't feel him moving close to me though but it scared me for a second and I started being wary. The second time, another women, a total stranger again, suddenly told me that the guy is standing very close behind me. The thing is, I don't feel that there's someone standing very close, in fact I don't feel anything at all. Of course I started to be wary again and moved far away from him in the train. I didn't notice anything strange though, nothing happened in the train. I should start being more careful in future.
以前只觉得安静好听却没有很喜欢，最近开始留意歌词渐渐喜欢上这首歌。
你把话说得非常清楚了，我也明白。我还是非常非常讨厌跟墙壁说话。不想聊天，要我跟你一样冷淡，我应该办得到。你都不要我，我又何必继续待在你的身边？有些人不管有多喜欢都好，他不喜欢你，你就要让他走。我要的你给不了，我给的也不是你想要的。既然不在乎，那么就算我不在你也还是会过得很好的。难受的人只有我，反正不管我多么难过你都不会在乎。不用再单方面付出，不用再对你好。No more empty promises, no more expectations, no more disappointment, no more you. 不在乎不关心不会对我好不珍惜我的人，我都不要了，而且你也没有要挽留。我装作无所谓，内心却非常舍不得 :(
Tried baja fresh mexican grill, it's more like fast food outlet but price is slightly higher. Ordered spicy chicken burritos, wasn't too bad, at least I like it. Portion was too big for me, can't finish it. My face is getting more chubby :(
Had sinma frog claypot porridge and zichar at geylang, was very hungry when we reached there. Waited for the rest till 8, decided to go there first cause we are too hungry. They keep asking me to eat more, afraid that rice bucket won't be full. I usually eat more than 1 bowl of rice, well I did eat 3 bowls of porridge. 7 of us tried to squeeze in evil twin's car, poor evil twin don't even have sufficient space to sit. She keeps sliding down, almost sitting on the floor already. Our legs are all numb when we got out. Went to butter studio cafe and chatted till 12, haven't gone out till so late for a long time.
刚看了我的少女时代，不知道为什么会比较喜欢这部胜过那些年。比较喜欢那些年的人可能是因为那部没有圆满的结局所以会觉得比较刻苦铭心。这部电影让我笑了好多次。
学生时代我喜欢的确实是篮球校队的，也曾经喜欢过刘德华。特别喜欢的一幕是女生站在原地，没有勇气走向他喜欢的男生。这个时候有人从背后推她一把，鼓励她做想做的事。如果喜欢她就会希望她开心，即使不是跟你。有多少人可以这么无私？女生经常口是心非，明明有事明明很难过却又要逞强。因为喜欢所以特别注意她，会比别人还要了解她。有哪一天也会有人叫周杰伦唱给我听啊？虽然没哭，可是有感动到我。我真的很少看电影看到哭，真的很冷血。
虽然你喜欢别人，虽然你没有对我很好，可是我还是喜欢你。喜欢一个人，是会不知不觉的。很久很久以后我们才知道，当一个女孩说她再也不理你了，不是真的讨厌你，而是她很在乎你，非常非常在乎你。
原来你是我最想留住的幸运。
与你相遇好幸运，可我也失去为你泪流满面的权利，但愿在我看不到的天际，你张开了双翼遇见你的注定，她会有多幸运。
你对他的好，他根本就不会珍惜不会记得，枉费了你一番心意。有这么多礼物收，你不送也无所谓。送你的礼物都不记得了，干脆也把我忘了。我讨厌你！吃醋不开心，哄一下会怎样？为什么要说不要惹我生气这种话？不过就是吃个醋，还需要有什么资格说什么话？不管说什么做什么都会惹别人生气，让你这么不满意以后都不讲话可以了吧？连说话聊天都不行，就这么不喜欢跟我说话吗:( 你的要求我都尽量办到，只因为不想让你失望，只因为喜欢对你好，只因为喜欢看到你开心。有求于我就对我好，没事的时候我说什么做什么都会惹你生气。送份礼物给我都这么困难，对我好也这么困难。再也不想对你这么好，去找一个会对你好的人啊我无所谓。只会骂我，生我的气，对我发脾气，不耐烦。说一套做一套，不知道哪一句话可以相信。为什么我问的时候一直不肯去，为什么别人问就可以？真的想去就会有计划，说了那么久还是什么都没有。不想去一开始就不应该说。我真的一点都不想当你的朋友。即使你一点都不在乎我，我却还是很在乎你。对你而言，我只是那个经常惹怒你的人，你却是那个只要有你在我就会很开心的人。
Had lunch at nakhon thai at kovan, the food is cheap and good. Each of us paid only $9 plus, the only bad thing is it's not air-conditioned and the weather is rather warm. Ordered 3 sets of tomyam soup, kangkong, pandan chicken, minced pork for 11 of us. Went to nex to shop at adidas cause stef has 40% discount. Went to sogurt to rest for a while and have dessert.
Had dinner at nihon mura express, travelled all the way to kallang leisure park for bowling. Had to wait for about 30 minutes before we can play so some of them went ice-skating first. I'm afraid of falling down so I just sit there and watch them, not that I never try before. Cycling is different cause I can put my leg down to prevent myself from falling but my legs don't seem to be of much help in ice-skating. Bowling was fun, it's been a few years since I touched a bowling ball. Played 3 games, we won the team competition by 8 points, close shave! Managed 2 strikes and one spare, highest score is only 79 for me. Haven't been able to hit over 100, the only time I did it was in genting which was about 5 years back. I often go bowling with my poly mates few years ago so I was able to hit over 100. After we decided not to have team competition, most of them lost the motivation to bowl properly. You should have seen their competitiveness during team competition. Walked to prata shop near ssc for supper, walked back home and was very tired.
Finally tried haidilao with min & bel, the plan was postponed a few times, it's my first time whereas they have tried it already. Since I was early, I helped them sign up for free manicure service, took queue number and sat outside to wait. Heard that by folding many paper cranes, we can have discount but the papers are on the table. Since we are not sitting at the table, we don't get the chance to fold, not that I know how to fold. They did their manicure first before it's our turn to go in, waited for about 3-4 hours. The good thing is that they will give out some snacks like popcorn, fruits, drinks & ice-cream for those waiting. They will also provide apron, zip-lock bag to put your handphone so that it won't get oily/dirty, some cloth to cover your bags and hairbands to tie your hair once you go in. They will also help to change screen protector for you. Ordered 4 soup base since it's the same price as 2, tomato soup, herbal chicken, seafood & 麻辣。麻辣 is really spicy and I only drank half a bowl, I like herbal chicken but my favourite is tomato. It's a-la-carte so it's more expensive, paid about $33 per person. I don't mind trying again. Had a good laugh over some things min told us haha, totally unexpected.
Went to a friend's baby shower, babies are so cute~ They look fragile, don't really dare to carry babies who are only one month or few months old. I prefer babies who are about 6 months or older, they are much more fun when they start to interact with you. I can never understand babies' gibberish talk, I wonder how the adults know. Anyway her house deco is quite nice, I like those stickers she pasted on the walls, except for hello kitty. Everywhere I go I'll see hello kitty. Kids will like it. Next time my room's wall will be blue. She has a sitting area by the window, that's what I want for my future home too. I can sit there, read a book and stare out the window looking at the scenery when I'm tired, although all I'll see are blocks of flats. I thought I'll be able to see cute doggy but no chance of that happening, was disappointed but just no fate to see him, there's nothing I can do about it. No matter how disappointed you are, some people just don't care. 说话不算话，骗子。
Met up with dba01 people at nando's. Ordered peri peri flame-grilled butterfly chicken, you can choose the level of spiciness. The portion is quite small. Updated one another on our current situation and we're back to talking about our good old simple poly days. We had our stressful moments but we had our fun times too. I really miss those days, the strong bonds we fostered after doing tons of projects together. Wanted to eat dessert but couldn't find any seats so settled for starbucks instead and chatted till 10.
Happened to chance upon ex-classmate before meeting ei8ht and jackie, he's still as good looking as ever haha. Normally I'll pretend that I didn't see him and walked away but too bad he saw me too so I can't run away. I used to have a crush on him, didn't expect us to talk to each other again after so many years. Had dinner at peperoni pizzeria, no full attendance again. Ordered xxl pizza and some sides - calamari fritti, deep fried chicken wings and funghi portobello con pollo. I like the pizza and chicken wings. Ordered 2 different flavours for pizza - pancetta (pork) and prosciutto crudo di parma (pork). We are still hungry after eating all that so we ordered another L size pizza - salmone and probably quattro formaggi? I seriously can't remember. Without a doubt, pizza lover like me loves it. Talked about our current situation and started talking about ideal boyfriend. I think once you meet the one you have feelings for, all those ideals won't even matter. He may not meet all your criteria but you will still love him. There may be someone who fits all your criteria but you just don't feel anything for him. Went to llao llao to have frozen yogurt, not sure if the staff did it on purpose but they accidentally switched off the lights, sort of hinting us that they are closing soon. We got the hint and left immediately after eating.
I really don't like trains that stop at yishun. Me and jackie abandoned lays and boarded the next train. Not purposely one but we will usually wait for the next one rather than change train at yishun. Reached home at around 11 plus, damn tired and sleepy.
You realise how much you truly miss someone when something happens - good or bad - and the only person you want to tell it to is the one who isn't there. 你的记性没那么好，很快就会忘了我。我的记性比较好，需要多一点时间忘记。没有我，你还是一样过得好好的，你根本就不需要我。就这么轻易的让我走，真的不要我了。陪在他身边的人永远都不会是你，要选也不会选你。
你要我说多难堪，我根本不想分开。我的世界你不在里面，还是无法留你在我身边。
