Christmas exchange with min & bel

Super long entry today, will post the pictures after I've received it or if I'm not lazy!

At vivo today with min & bel, shopped around and dinner was at the merry men, somewhere between chinatown and clarke quay. Vivo was so crowded and there's even a long queue for the toilet. We were lost while trying to walk to our dinner place, ended up taking bus there. We were still lost, trying to figure out where is that place even after we reached. Turned out that we went one big round when it was right in front. Tried truffle fries for the first time and I think it tasted like normal fries, not much difference but I don't know why some people don't like it. Since we had already guessed one another's gifts before we even left vivo, we let min close her eyes and choose which one she wants. The order in which we received the gifts was same as last year, my secret santa was still min and my santee was bel. 3 of us bought our gifts from books/stationery store! Took lots of pictures with different kinds of camera, I had one but since it was dark, it was quite blur then we used polaroid, iphone, ipad mini & lumix camera. Thinking of changing my camera to panasonic lumix, but I don't think I've the money :( I don't mind if people are willing to sponsor or buy it for me, that's all wishful thinking, it's too expensive as a gift haha. Felt like eating my favourite chocolate, cadbury milk chocolate, almost suggested it to be a Christmas gift for myself. Anyway, ended the night sending min home as usual, she lives just next block to me. Having my 2 weeks break starting from tomorrow onwards, yay!!!

Need to confess that I've already known who's my secret santa for my family side. I really think I'm destined to spoil surprises, either that or I'm really good in guessing. Told my sister that I think it's her, we went shopping the next day and there's just too many loopholes. She helped me pay for my shirt and even went back to get another gift which is the same as the one I was getting for my friend cause she knew I like it. So being paranoid again, this is the part where I think it's suspicious cause she didn't ask me to pay her back.

When she came back, I thought she didn't buy it and was quite disappointed, thinking maybe there isn't any nice ones left. After that, she started asking me to pay her back and that's when all my suspicions on her dropped. Even when she started asking weird questions, my suspicion radar was completely off so I totally didn't suspect anything. I was thinking maybe I was wrong all along. Everything was perfect with me completely fooled. It was after we went home, I came out of my room and saw the gift on the table. Thinking it was the one I bought for my friend and somehow my mum managed to get hold of it and bring it out, I stupidly went to take it wanting to put it in my room. That's when I saw my gift still inside the bag where I left it and realised the one I'm holding onto was what my sister bought. My sister was so angry with my mum for taking it out! I didn't mean to know, it just happened! If my mum didn't take it out of my sister's bag or if I didn't go out before my sister did or if I didn't try to put it back, I wouldn't have known. All surprises are gone. I was determined not to think too much this year, but things like this always happens haha.

People should stop talking to me or leaving clues for me to pick up. My brain will automatically start analyzing, so if you are my secret santa, don't talk to me, just stay quiet ok? haha. I shouldn't think too much next time, don't ask me to guess! haha. Now I know why jy doesn't want to leave any hints for me to guess :D

感觉不到有谁对我特别好或是特别不一样。曾经以为有，现在却不这么认为了。需要一个会对我超好，关心我、疼我、宠我、迁就我、让我、尽量不骂我或对我凶等等，任由我欺负他并且懂得珍惜我的人。「We accept the love we think we deserve」

Next entry will be Christmas exchange with my cousins, siblings, silas & qh! :) Merry Christmas everyone!

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12/12/12，难得特别的日子，这篇文章就献给我的最爱吧！J式情歌回来了！很喜欢「明明就」这首歌。「明明就他比较温柔，也许他能给你更多，不用抉择我会自动变朋友」，心酸。不管再忙都一定要履行一年发一张专辑的承诺。会履行三年之约吗？明年就是了，可是如果明年推出新电影，还会有时间吗？「不能说的秘密」是一部佳作，期待新电影，我一定会去支持的！

他的歌对我有很大的魔力，会被吸引住。因为身边的人都不太听他的歌也不爱唱也不喜欢他，所以我都尽量不点他的歌来唱。说他不好我也不反驳，没办法因为不想听到更多不好的东西。不喜欢别人说他的坏话 :(

没办法应付MM，不明白不会做，惨了 :((( 碰到特别的日子总希望能跟特别的人一起过，尤其是生日。希望我的生日会有特别的人陪我一起过。

Last minute decision to meet jy and yl for dinner at ssc astons. I already had dinner at granny's house so just went there to accompany them without bringing anything. Luckily there's shuttle bus to ssc and jy treated me to iced lemon tea! Haha. 好久没去那里吃了。Going to see them again on the 30th. Meeting min and bel on 23rd and my cousins on 25th! Haven't buy any presents yet! Still not sure of what to buy，真是的。

kbox with yx

At kbox with yx today, helped her vent out some of her unhappiness. Sang lots of jay chou's songs and those songs which I normally won't get to sing, most of his songs are rap hehe, that's my favourite genre. Singing does help to improve one's mood. Dinner at soup spoon, I realised sometimes I do eat a lot for a person of my size. We chatted for about 3-4 hours! Unbelievable, I couldn't believe it myself. Min saw me at somerset station and we went home together :)

Honestly, yx is one of those few who has seen the noisy side of me. I don't know what is it about her that makes me feel so comfortable. She makes me want to talk, which is an amazing feat considering the fact that I'm an extremely quiet person. Maybe it's our age, or similar personalities or similar interests, whatever, I don't even know the reason why. I just know that I feel comfortable enough to be able to talk so much. 有一点一见如故的感觉。From the moment she knew me, I've already given her the impression of a talkative person, anything but quiet. This is strange, even to me. I'm a selective person, I select certain people to talk to. I just hit it off with her, which is a good thing :) That's why I always ended up talking to her whenever we meet.

Haven't thought of what to buy for Christmas exchange, haven't buy birthday presents also. Oh ya, people always have the misconception that I just cut my hair recently. I didn't, it's because I cut it to be of the same length and it's not layered, plus my thick volume of hair makes it seem like I just cut it. Truth is, I cut it since 3 months ago haha. Didn't sleep well these days, could be due to throat irritation :( Jay Chou is releasing his new album on 28 Dec 12! I can start to pre-order on 12 Dec 12, what a special date :) Excited! 期待！

Ah Boys To Men

Watched Ah boys to men just now, it was all right, my feelings are neutral, some parts are funny, no major dislike but couldn't say I love it too. While watching the movie, somehow it reminds me of weixian, I don't know why. Maybe cause weixian gives me the commando feel haha. Before watching this, Silas has already shown me a video of their training and explained to me about the difficulties so I roughly have an idea on how tough it is. The movie theatre was very cold, I was already covered from head to toe but I was still shivering. 超怕冷的！Even though sometimes I didn't talk, I will always be listening. Just that sometimes it's a bit hard for me to intercept cause I don't know what to say. Just carry on talking and I'll just listen, it's fine, I'm more used to listening I guess? I realised whenever I do a self-shot, all the fats will start to show, 气死人了！

Christmas is coming as well as stefan's and my brother's birthday, which means more money being spent :( Broke, poor, going to eat grass next year :(

其实这几天我在生你的气，尽量避免跟你说话，能不回答就不回答。后来想想，没这个必要。其实我很喜欢见到你，因为见到你会让我觉得很开心。虽然有时候会害怕聊的话题会让我难过，可是还是会想见到你 :) 我大概永远都不会有机会坐你的车，所以你也不用担心我住得多远，送我回家有多么不方便。

Min's graduation

It was min's convocation on Friday, me, bel, coli and sifan were there taking pictures with her. When will it be my turn? I still need 2 more years to graduate and 1 more year before the graduation ceremony :( Dinner was at ichiban sushi, I was very full after dinner. Believe it or not, I'm tired just like that!

Met up with min in town yesterday, kept changing our minds about what movie to watch, eventually we decided on "Pitch Perfect". It's a musical comedy, if you like musicals you should watch this. I think it's nice and I like it :) It was shopping time as usual and we went to kinokuniya. I just suddenly had this idea, why not ask my friends and cousins to buy me novels as gifts for Christmas and my birthday? I think this is a good idea, just buy any book which you think is nice, I'll read every book that you bought. It's totally worth it, at least for me. That will be the most useful present. 1 novel only cost about $15? Adopt this idea please, I'll love it. I should go see some books which I'm interested in and just ask my cousins to buy that for my birthday haha. I still remember that my uncle will buy gifts for us whenever he won lottery when we were still kids. Others bought $30 worth of toys but me? I bought $30 worth of books and they can't understand why will I forsake toys for books? I can only say I love reading :) Now that I thought of it, why am I so weird?

刚才看了优频道重播的全球华语歌曲排行榜。因为受了某人的影响，让原本就喜欢林俊杰歌曲的我更加注意他。我不排斥任何歌手，但喜欢的只有那几个：陈奕迅、容祖儿、方大同、林俊杰、周杰伦、林宥嘉。虽然周杰伦是我的挚爱，但我不是只喜欢他而已 :D 开始觉得其实蔡健雅的歌曲也很好听！

无助

不开心也只能用文字发泄了。我以为你会对我好，是我想太多了。帮人也要讲求利益，没有人想吃亏，这点我懂，不想帮就算了。这本来就是个人不为己，天诛地灭的世界。我是很过分，要你牺牲这么多，我不会再强人所难了。为了帮别人宁愿让我吃亏，这算什么？无助，谁可以帮我 :( 又有谁会无条件为我付出？真心想帮我的人不会跟我计较这些，就算我没要求他帮我，他也会主动帮我。不会就问别人，问题是那个人肯不肯帮你。心甘情愿帮别人并不代表别人也会这样对你！

是会让你吃多少亏？帮我有这么难吗？就这么不愿意帮我吗？ 失落 :(

Chalet/awfully chocolate

Sorry, haven't been blogging much nowadays cause there's nothing interesting going on in my life right now. Rest assured this is going to be a long entry, happy reading! At the airport this Monday to send jh off to Australia, managed to see him but his sister didn't. Couldn't rush there in time, waiting for his return during December. Have a safe trip!

Only a few people turned up for DBA01 chalet yesterday. Reached at around evening, played taboo, it's still my favourite game. I totally suck at explaining, better in guessing :) It's fun, I was busy laughing because of the stupid stuff we said and the answers we gave, that's the fun part about taboo haha! Had dinner and after much persuading, I still decided to head home cause I've made up my mind even before I went there. I think I'm quite firm sometimes. Sorry I couldn't stay over cause I need sufficient rest to have enough energy to go out the next day. Next time then, provided there's another one.

3 hours of Teoheng at katong shopping centre with ei8ht today! ~Put your hands up, put your hands up~~Fantastic Baby~ I feel like going kbox again. Walked to awfully chocolate nearby and had late lunch. I didn't eat cause I ate McDonald's breakfast, wasn't too hungry. Sang belated birthday song for yl, managed to prank jy, stole her wallet and put it in mag's bag while they were away. It's payback time haha. Took cab to jy's house, played wii Band Hero and the dancing battle for Xbox. I totally love it, your whole body have to dance, there's no room for laziness. It's fun and I'm the top scorer! It was easy mode, that's why haha. Even for the dancing characters, I will always choose those with blue-coloured top, I'm a blue freak! Played until don't want to go home, keep delaying the time to go home hehe.

Sometimes I look at myself and can't stand how skinny I am! It's quite scary and disgusting, I admit :( I'll stop myself from eating after I've brushed my teeth and put on the elastic bands. I used to eat supper but I no longer do that. There's still that thing with my round face with lots of baby fats, giving up hope on trying to make it look slimmer! Why must all the fats go to my face :(

Never spend much time with my sister this weekend and she's back in her hostel now :( Feel like going for yoga's concert, but I need to save up, can't afford to spend it on a concert. What a sad life! A pity I couldn't hear him sing live, I'm sure it will be awesome! Having night class this Tuesday, 7.5 hours of break from 11.30am to 7pm. Can spend some time and do some revision for MM. Need some serious help for MM, I want to take and not give anything in return. Can I? 想跟你一起去听演唱会，其实想做的事情很多例如看电影、吃饭等，但这些都不太可能会发生。