Singing

this post will be dedicated to my beloved family members and action ji hehe. went amk kbox with siblings and cousins last sat and i hav to admit i realli LOVE singing. It's practically my life haha, one way to make myself happy or nt to tink abt anything negative, it's to sing:) and i tink nowadays those recent chi songs cant be compared to the oldies. I rmb one very jing dian song: guan huai fang shi, tts one of my fav! haha, used to sing it almost everyday:) i love tt show too:) anw had a great time on tt day:D

nxt shall be the 21st bday celebration of action ji!haha. long time since i called him tt, his 21st bday is a total blast! i know tt his ren yuan is gd but i didnt expect it to be so gd!!! he's realli very popular!haha, no choice la with such a great personality and treating his frens so well, it's nt a surprise he's still so close to his frens. Wad made me realli touched and happy on tt day was he took pics with us first haha, the sequence/order matters alot, at least to mi:)

discovered some top secret tt day also, asked alot of qns and seriously we were like paparazzi, i know tt person mus be real stressed on tt day but u know if u cant handle us, u wont be able to handle the rest also.lol. at least we will be able to protect u if others ask, tts the excuse we gave for asking her to tell us more.hehe.

went kbox agn with NHG colleagues on mon, by the way NHG is the company im working in, jus in case some of u still dno haha. cant get tired of singing:)

on a side note, i realised tt im putting alot of happy/smiley faces or even trying to show tt im happy. i've always wanted to be happy even if im nt, tts bcos i dun want anyone to worry abt mi. but there are times when im tired of this facade, i dun want to smile or even force myself to smile when all i realli want is to sulk. im tired of having to smile all day:( i want to smile onli if i feel like it, dun want to put on a facade everytime but whenever i see some of you, i cant help but smile:) i know who's impt in my life, i know wad i should do when faced with difficult situation, i cant seem to be brave anymore whenever i hear smth which i dun want u to say. i know tts the truth/fact but i dun want to hear u say it bcos it hurts. it realli hurts. wad hav i done?stupid mi:( i cant stop tinking bcos tts wad my brain always does, always tink of some stupid things which maybe some or alot of u dun usually tink tt way. there will be alot of things which i cant and wont be able to tell u anymore.

曾经。。。

我曾经想过要做一件事，但是。。。却没有足够的勇气。你问我是否后悔，我也不清楚自己的感觉是什么。仔细想想，如果我真的去做了，结果会是怎么样。我知道如果我不去做，我也不会有太大的损失。如果我做了，也许。。。我真的会损失一些我很在乎的东西。我不要结局是这个样子，所以当初才会选择这么做。也许你们会问我，我到底在说什么事，抱歉，我不会告诉你们。如果我真的想说，就算你们不问，我也会直接告诉你。不用想套我的话，因为如果你了解我的话，你应该会知道我很会保守秘密。

有很多次，我很想把我的感受告诉我的朋友，可是我开不了口。我知道你一定会听也会给我一些建议，可是。。。问题就在于如果这次你没有办法给我建议呢？如果这次是我的错在先呢？明明知道我不可以这么做，可是。。。我为什么要这么不听话？

其实我早已经作了决定。。。既然作了这个决定就不能后悔:)

slackest week!!!

didnt do OT for 3 days this wk!haha, went for wedding dinner on tues and we jus took loads of pics cos we dun realli know the bride & groom and we didnt take any pics of them!lol. met up with dba01 on wed cos ji is heading for NS on thurs. He gave a realli long speech and can tell tt he's real sad to hav a sudden change in his lifestyle. Imagine everyday u gt to do P.E instead of being in town with ur frens or at home with ur family. Thinking of this, sometimes i tink tt im lucky i didnt hav a bf cos i dun hav to go thru the pain of missing him when he goes for NS haha. im nt being sarcastic here, but... u get wad i mean haha.

was supposed to go yl's hse on thurs to find pics for jy and sheena to include in their digital photo frames but i ended up watching jay chou tt yl recorded for mi haha. but anw we bought the frames for them and ended up we dunnid to include the pics cos it doesnt hav any internal memory! so gt to trouble them to put it in themselves:)

was out ytd with ei8ht to celebrate jy and sheena's bday at TCC. they are having promotion nw so u guys can go there if u want to save some money!haha. the food is nice:) went to istana park to chill and started talking abt "dirty stuff", religions and crimes tt ppl are committing right nw. how come in those cases, women are always the ones being targeted?it's so unfair! makes mi so scared to go home late at night haha.

jus a random thought: will there ever be cases whereby the bride or groom is marrying someone who is nt the one they love the most?有没有可能我不会嫁给我最爱的人？会不会因为某些因素导致我没有办法嫁给我最爱的人？我会后悔吗？应该吧，但是如果有人问我：你现在要嫁的人是你的最爱吗？我的回答一定是：当然。ok, im jus being stupid here, i seriously tink too much, nt even sure whether im gg to get married lol.

random thoughts...

had a chat with my fren and i know tt first impression is impt but it sets mi tinking, is it the most impt? i agree its impt but i still feel tt a gd personality is the most impt criteria. it doesnt matter how unattractive you are, how poor u are, as long as u hav a great and kind heart, u will hav lots of frens surrounding u. ppl will be attracted to gd looks definitely but it takes a lot for them to see ur inner self, nt many will see it. some chose nt to see it, others saw it and so they are ur frens:)

u can say im jus plain lazy cos i dun do makeup, dun dress up nicely but tts bcos tts mi. tts the way i am, i will dress up only if i feel like it and nt to dress up jus for the sake of attracting someone's attention or wadever. tts nt mi, dun ever ask mi to change for someone's sake, i wont do it. maybe i'll be influenced by those surrounding mi, i dun mind changing for the better but there are still some things which i will nvr be able to change no matter how u influence mi. it's nt a matter of whether i want to, but it's tt i cant. i can suddenly decide to change, sure, it wont be a prob for mi but as time passes, i'll find it a burden, i'll find it hard to maintain the way i am bcos tts nt mi, tts nt wad i want. i may jus revert to my old self agn.

i like being myself, the quietest person, always stare into space, sometimes abit lame, talk nonsense, nice to my frens etc etc. i feel most comfortable being with those ppl who understands mi. y? bcos they wont want mi to change myself, bcos they know tts who i am, who i want to be. i know im a nice person wadever, ppl hav been saying tt to mi all the time and telling mi i'll find someone who knows how to appreciate mi. but wad if i dno how to appreciate tt person? wad if i dun want tt person to appreciate mi? wad if i feel tt he's nt the one for mi? nvm, wait until i can find someone who will appreciate mi then i see how it goes haha.

anw this is jus a random post, so ppl dun assume anything frm this blog post, its jus a random thought. it doesnt mean anything, i jus want to say how i feel and im nt targeting anyone here.

gg to watch a nightmare on elm street tmr!cool man! i hav a feeling tt i'll love this show haha.

Graduation!

Finally waited until 19 May, although i gt to work half-day, but i managed to rush to sp in time for the graduation:) met up with ei8ht and took some pics first before gg for the grad ceremony. realli missed the times when i had lunch with my frens, do proj with them esp doing fyp! thats the toughest period of my life but im glad i had such wonderful and humorous teammates haha.

after the ceremony, went out with classmates for dinner at pastamania at cineleisure and played games at lvl 9 emax. It was fun esp when i own them at taken 6 (battle game). First time playing and chose the right character after being own by mel haha. she's gd at this game but im improving and managed to break her record by having 8 wins in a row!haha, then decided to take a rest and giv others a chance haha. but hoonie is nt too bad for a beginner either:) slept at 12 and felt like a zombie at work the nxt day haha.

trying to update my life agn!

it's been a llllloooooooonnnnggggg time since i last update abt my life haha. alright, lets start with genting trip! went genting for 3 days 2 nights and slept and played for all i want haha. reached there at abt 1 and waited until 330 before we gt our rooms. went arcade to play before watching movie "chu lian hong dou bing", quite funny but nt very nice la haha.

the nxt day went to eat dim sum before going theme park for whole day until 7pm and it kept raining! but managed to play quite alot. went to play the carnival games and boonie & hoonie won a bear each except hoonie's one was bigger:) for dinner we went to mushroom farm for zhu chao and the weather is very cold at nite! almost freeze to death! missed the weather there:( went to play bowling and its damn cool! the bowling pins can glow in the dark! very nice! and im the top scorer for tt day, dno wad happened to them or mi, i scored 120+, broke my own record!haha.

played the game which jeff recommended. he drew different animals on a few pieces of paper and heres how the game goes: if u and whoever gt the same animal when the paper is flipped open, u gt to say out the sound of ur opponent's animal. it's fun and the penalty is to go dwnstairs and buy supper for ji haha. i onli played the first 2 games and i went back to sleep.

watched shutter island and i tink it's a nice movie, although i almost went crazy after watching it haha. want to watch ip man 2! gg to watch it ltr hehe:) met up with dba01 peeps at fish n co glass hse and went to chill for a while:)miss them loads!

celebrated hy's bday at marina barrage. met her at marina barrage and had picnic. we prepared the food ourselves! bought her a balloon which says: it's jus a bday... so what?! and one passerby actualli read out the words when he walked past mi haha.

met up with ei8ht to rent graduation gown and went for dinner, talked abt sec sch all tt stuff, all past memories haha. gonna giv them a graduation gift:) ald had the gifts beside mi nw except i haven done anything to it. gt to write msg for them:)

cant believe boonie and hoonie played this!