u can say im jus plain lazy cos i dun do makeup, dun dress up nicely but tts bcos tts mi. tts the way i am, i will dress up only if i feel like it and nt to dress up jus for the sake of attracting someone's attention or wadever. tts nt mi, dun ever ask mi to change for someone's sake, i wont do it. maybe i'll be influenced by those surrounding mi, i dun mind changing for the better but there are still some things which i will nvr be able to change no matter how u influence mi. it's nt a matter of whether i want to, but it's tt i cant. i can suddenly decide to change, sure, it wont be a prob for mi but as time passes, i'll find it a burden, i'll find it hard to maintain the way i am bcos tts nt mi, tts nt wad i want. i may jus revert to my old self agn.
i like being myself, the quietest person, always stare into space, sometimes abit lame, talk nonsense, nice to my frens etc etc. i feel most comfortable being with those ppl who understands mi. y? bcos they wont want mi to change myself, bcos they know tts who i am, who i want to be. i know im a nice person wadever, ppl hav been saying tt to mi all the time and telling mi i'll find someone who knows how to appreciate mi. but wad if i dno how to appreciate tt person? wad if i dun want tt person to appreciate mi? wad if i feel tt he's nt the one for mi? nvm, wait until i can find someone who will appreciate mi then i see how it goes haha.
anw this is jus a random post, so ppl dun assume anything frm this blog post, its jus a random thought. it doesnt mean anything, i jus want to say how i feel and im nt targeting anyone here.
gg to watch a nightmare on elm street tmr!cool man! i hav a feeling tt i'll love this show haha.
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