self reflection...

Most of my friends think that I'm easily bullied by others and sometimes I'm too helpful. To me, I don't mind helping my friends as long as it benefits them. I know how it feels like to be helpless and how you feel when someone lends a helping hand. I give not because I've many, but because I know how it feels to have nothing:) As long as you are my friend, I'll offer help whenever you need it. Because of this reason, one of my friend doesn't want to befriend me. Doesn't want me to keep helping, don't even talk to me anymore. I just want to help, is it wrong? I know sometimes I may go a little overboard cause I'll go all out to help them as long as it's within my ability. I'm not complaining about that person or whatever but it's just something which I don't understand. Of course to add on to this problem, there's some rumors which totally made the whole things worse. Things have turned out for the better but I wished that it didn't even happened. If I can choose again, you know what will I do? I'll continue to help that friend no matter what. Friends are important to me and I like to help others, why restrict me from doing that?Doesn't it feel good to be offered help?

Another problem:I admit I don't know how to take care of myself, am learning but it isn't that easy. Can I don't learn?There are others who will take care of me, like my friends, my family:) Why must I learn how to take care of myself? Need to thank my friends for taking care of me haha. Appreciate it:) Even though I may be older than some of my friends but sometimes I feel like they act more like an elder sis to me than I do to them, it's not good in a sense. But I like to be taken care of, feels good to know that someone actually cares for you and is being nice to you:)

I love the feeling when you are being understood by someone. When you don't have to say a word but that person will know what you are thinking and able to say out the exact same words/thoughts you are thinking:) Love it when someone can know how you are feeling just by looking at your facial expressions:D Like to be understood, don't like to be maligned, no one will like to be maligned right?If I'm being maligned, I'll usually just admit it, don't want to waste my efforts explaining because it's either you understand me or you don't. Very simple right?haha, but will be sad if it's someone I thought will understand me/won't even thought that I'll be maligned by this friend, but still... sometimes it may happen.