Celebrated my bday with ei8ht on thurs, went astons and hav our dinner. After tt went arcade and played basketball!haha, my basketball skills r realli very lousy! jiaying scored 281! shes so pro! maybe she went to the arcade everyday jus to practise haha. After tt we find some place and took some random pics as well as chat:) they hav ald planned wad to do on valentine's day, it seems as though we hav ald finish our exams, still can enjoy sia haha. Initialli planned on gg chalet but its fully booked and we hav oso planned on gg out after our last paper, gg to enjoy before we start our itp:( oh ya & i swear i nvr go sneak up on sheena to see wad present u all made for mi cos i nvr expected them to take it out and i jus happened to see it when i went near her. But i like the present esp jay chou!haha. thx:) thx for the efforts put in esp when u all gt so many proj to do then still nid to make the card for mi:)
Alrite so let mi tell u wad happened ytd... Supposed to meet melissa at semb mrt station but shes late but i saw huiwen instead. Im so shocked la but im still glad tt she made it:) tot her cya will end very late but luckily it end quite early:) after tt went to find bib & melissa at taxi stand & they blindfolded mi. Walked mi to the taxi and the moment i stepped in, i asked them: r u sure tis is a taxi?haha, y i asked them tis is bcos i knew tt harry will be the one driving cos i overheard them talking abt him fetching who. I didnt want to hear it one but cos they were like sitting beside mi and talking so loudly tt i heard it la. heard smth like he will fetch mi, yaya & action ji.
But melissa told mi its realli a taxi so i believed her until she made a mistake. she sae smth bad abt the taxi uncle directly in front of him and in ENGLISH somemore!haha, so i was like tinking, she used English leh & the taxi uncle nvr sae anything? im sure he heard her, so i asked the taxi uncle y he nvr talk one haha cos frm tt moment onwards i knew its harry la. They played games with mi on the 'taxi', asked mi abt wads the most embarrassing moment i've ever done and 10 facts abt mi.
then suddenly the 'taxi' stopped and they pretended tt we r stuck somewhere near the highway haha, tt one was quite lame. huiwen & melissa walked mi ard while bib so-called went to find another taxi to drive us there. When they finalli took out the blindfold, i saw the rest of the class there and i realised tt we r in semb park!haha. so the story abt gg to watch the curious case of benjamin button is fake. Before the day of my actual bday, bib still ask the whole class how many ppl gg to watch the movie cos shes buying the tics & still asked mi where i want to go & watch haha. tt part was convincing since i nvr overheard abt tt plan haha and we went semb park to bbq! we oso celebrated harry's bday cos they r afraid tt we wont hav time to celebrate his bday since his bday is on 28 feb.
Played taboo (my fav game) and ji & family won the game!haha, we r so smart sia, but partly is bcos of some of our grp members de mo qi quite gd:) i gt a present frm them and its a diary but there r some msg frm them inside and photos as well. i like the present and the surprise, thx. Thx for the effort put in for my bday, realli appreciate it:) its realli fun:) anw i've made a wish for all of my frens and i hope tt wish will come true...will upload bday pics here as soon as i gt it, meanwhile shall upload ei8ht's pics here:)
Tong tong came to my hse on sun!haha, shes so cute la. as cute as ever and she has learnt how to speak proper sentences nw and her voice is so sweet:) played with her until she went home then i started preparing for my MR presentation & study for QA test on mon.
Stayed back in sch on mon for hr report, and everything is over! every presentations r over! finalli! so i've no more depression haha. finally a load off my mind:) nw gt to relax abit then get ready for exams:( after exams, get to rest a few days before itp starts and will be waiting for sch reopen:( no holi:( and my itp posting results is still blank! i tink tmr i better go ask the teacher.
on my way home today, i saw tong tong gg home with her mum and grandma, so i called her and she came to my hse for a while, yay!haha, i feel tt im so lucky today:) shes coming agn on fri but dno whether she will be staying here anot leh. if she nvr stay back, the probability tt i'll get to see her is near to zero cos i'll be celebrating my bday with my classmates and im nt sure wad time will end. If she stays back, i'll like so happy, im nt sure how to describe the happiness haha.
anw after wearing formal for 2 days, i can finalli revert to my comfortable dressing tmr:) im looking forward to thurs cos ei8ht will be wearing their cny clothes!haha. tts the theme for thurs:) wad a great idea, dno who came up with it haha.
tis is a rather random emo post haha. im currently suffering frm depression due to proj work... kind of stress by the proj as well as the attitude of some ppl... (i shall nt elaborate further). y did tis happen? how did things turn out tis way? seriously i dno & i dun wish to noe cos i realise tt sometimes i jus cant trust everyone.
rather sad abt some things... theres nth i can realli do but jus accept fate. Luck is nt with mi, or rather i dun hav the fate. sometimes i will tink wad if tis happen, wad if tt happen but seriously i feel tt i tink too much. way too much. i cant ctrl it, i cant handle tis sort of things. i dno wad to do to stop it, im at a loss. sometimes i wish tt i can stop tinking abt it, stop tinking abt all my probs, troubles, things tt upset mi but i cant. the more i try to stop, the more i tink of it.
if onli happy endings can happen more often then i guess there wont be any sad ppl ard rite? i jus hope tt everything will jus suddenly disappear, hope all my pain & problems will jus disappear then i will be happy agn:) i realise tt i hav alot of prob nowadays, actualli nt alot la but it seem like alot to mi. y cant i find any happiness in mi? y doesnt happiness come to mi in a bunch/bundle or wadeva u call it to mean alot. onli one person can understand how i feel rite nw, at least to mi i onli noe of tt one person who feels the same way as mi nw. although there r others who hav overcome tis stage and understand the feeling oso, but different ppl experience different things so the feeling is nt the same. at least tt person im tinking of rite nw noes.
dunnid to worry abt mi, i'll be fine, i jus want to be emo for a while jus to live up to the name of 'emo club vp'. anw i jus gt to know smth which im nt supposed to noe but somehow i jus noe it. and here i am blogging abt it jus to release some burden off mi. i tink i nid to cry my heart out to release all my burden but i cant cry. the tears jus wont flow out i dno y. can someone save mi frm all tis mess? i nid some help!
when will tis situation turn frm bad to gd? will it continue to get worse or better? i dno wad i'll do or i dun even noe if i can handle it well if it gets worse. i hate tis situation, i hate tis feeling!
cny was as usual tis yr, except i dno y tis yr seems quite boring:( Im wondering how did i survive the past few yrs... tis yr seem esp boring to mi cos i gt nth to do then end up i use my relative's com for a while haha. Anw, the angbao money gt increase tis yr cos my grandpa jus won lottery so he gave us extra $50! So overall i gt $200+, although its nt alot but at least gt increase money, even if increase by $10 i oso happy haha.
Went out with cousins & siblings today to watch inkheart, actualli wanted to watch the wedding game but they changed their mind cos their frens told them nt nice. Well, inkheart was abit like harry potter, its very adventure & full of fantasy, so whoever likes tis kind of movie can try to watch:) But i tink i expect too much frm the movie, expected it to be more exciting... After tt we went sumo sushi for dinner and it cost abt $5! quite cheap but in the end i cant finish cos ate too much popcorn liao haha.
But anw back to reality, i still gt 2 more proj pending and both proj r to be presented on mon & tues. I still hav QA CA on mon! how am i gg to find the time to study?! Someone kill mi pls! Nevertheless, after complaining, i noe i still gt to carry on with my boring life and try to complete everything, i seriously hope i can if nt im such a goner... alrite anw here r the cny pics!
Alrite since i wont hav time to update my blog during cny, i shall nw update u all on my recent happenings before cny! The cny pics will onli be uploaded when i hav the time haha.
Stayed back in sch on wed to do uccd ppt cos we r having presentation on thurs, came up with the ideas for skit and after tt went to help mr ji with his hr stuff. Helped his grp shoot the video and did all the special effects for the video, had lots of fun tt day!haha. Of cos we chatted & played alot on tt day:) Reached home at ard 9 ba then continue to do the video effects.
And my uccd presentation is over! im so nervous la, skipped lunch on thurs and i had my lunch onli at the 2nd break cos we r rehearsing our ppt during the 1st break, so i ate my lunch at ard 3:( After tt went to bugis with jiaying they all to shop for cny stuff, although i bought mine but im jus accompanying them:) so imagine mi wearing my formal wear to bugis street, imagine how hot and uncomfortable i was haha.
Stayed back today to do MR report, gg to meet for MR proj agn tmr at city hall cos we still gt 1 more hr proj. We r intending to finish at least 3/4 of MR report tmr so tt we will hav more time to focus on our hr proj. Btw we nid to hand in both MR & hr proj on the last week of sch:( can time pass quickly so i can jus study for exams and relax for a while? After exams, its itp! nt enuff rest time for mi:( oh ya, i tink im gg to bugis street agn tmr cos my cousin haven bought her cny clothes and im gg to pack my room on sun:) i luv cny:) at least it giv mi more time to rest and jus enjoy haha.
Slacked ard while im supposed to be studying my fm during the weekends, used the laptop and watch tv, listen to music. Im doing everything else except studying:) smart ar haha. Started studying for my fm on sun but nt very productive la, although i did manage to re-do the tut qns but didnt study the theory. Mon's class attendance was poor but at least gt more than half the class attended sch:) The rest all went home to study for fm.
Finalli the test is over!!! Was quite scared initialli la but the paper was quite ok for mi. I dun tink i will score very high but im certain of a pass:) I dno y but high marks doesnt seem to associate itself with mi haha. I've no luck of scoring high marks. Anw cos of my 'smartness', i managed to gain one forfeit frm bib:( All bcos of my over-confidence, i lost to bib when i made a deal with her. So i hav ald done my forfeit in front of her, im still making a deal with her tmr and i hope she loses then she wont kip on saying mi anymore:) lets hope she loses:) pls dun let mi lose anymore, i hate losing...and im still hoping tt i'll get a treat of ben&jerry ice cream from SOMEONE haha.
After bib's fren left, of cos mr ji and bib they all continue to say mi la, saying initalli im so restless then when he came, i become so energetic. They still sae while im doing the video, i was typing ily & dont go when he wanted to leave. was is tis man?! i dun even noe him well la...lol.
Left sch quite late n reached home continue to do script for ppt. Reached sch early at 830 to rehearse but the rest of them were late, so im the earliest then went lib to wait for them. Finally the presentation is over and the teacher giv us bonus marks cos we gt add talk show & video into the whole presentation! and our mistakes nt very major la, so still ok, we did a great job:) After gems, went back to lib do proj agn, helped bib with her uccd then helped grace with uccd ppt slides. After tt go & find jiaying they all, waited for sheena to end her soccer meeting then we went to the cathay for dinner. Wanted to settle at astons but cos theres a long queue so we went just acia at dhoby exchange for dinner instead.
After tt went for our usual girls' talk with onli mi, jiaying, yunli, sheena & mag. Mag asked us to vote who will be the nxt one to be out of ei8ht's single list then 3 of them(mag, sheena & yunli) voted mi, jiaying voted sheena & i voted jiaying. So whoever wins, those who nvr vote them de gt to treat the winners ben&jerry's ice cream!haha, i hope i win. But they sae if gt someone realli want mi to be their stead, i cant purposely reject jus to avoid losing/treating them to ice cream haha. I hope i win sia, jiaying u better make mi win hor...haha
