Emo

tis is a rather random emo post haha. im currently suffering frm depression due to proj work... kind of stress by the proj as well as the attitude of some ppl... (i shall nt elaborate further). y did tis happen? how did things turn out tis way? seriously i dno & i dun wish to noe cos i realise tt sometimes i jus cant trust everyone.

rather sad abt some things... theres nth i can realli do but jus accept fate. Luck is nt with mi, or rather i dun hav the fate. sometimes i will tink wad if tis happen, wad if tt happen but seriously i feel tt i tink too much. way too much. i cant ctrl it, i cant handle tis sort of things. i dno wad to do to stop it, im at a loss. sometimes i wish tt i can stop tinking abt it, stop tinking abt all my probs, troubles, things tt upset mi but i cant. the more i try to stop, the more i tink of it.

if onli happy endings can happen more often then i guess there wont be any sad ppl ard rite? i jus hope tt everything will jus suddenly disappear, hope all my pain & problems will jus disappear then i will be happy agn:) i realise tt i hav alot of prob nowadays, actualli nt alot la but it seem like alot to mi. y cant i find any happiness in mi? y doesnt happiness come to mi in a bunch/bundle or wadeva u call it to mean alot. onli one person can understand how i feel rite nw, at least to mi i onli noe of tt one person who feels the same way as mi nw. although there r others who hav overcome tis stage and understand the feeling oso, but different ppl experience different things so the feeling is nt the same. at least tt person im tinking of rite nw noes.

dunnid to worry abt mi, i'll be fine, i jus want to be emo for a while jus to live up to the name of 'emo club vp'. anw i jus gt to know smth which im nt supposed to noe but somehow i jus noe it. and here i am blogging abt it jus to release some burden off mi. i tink i nid to cry my heart out to release all my burden but i cant cry. the tears jus wont flow out i dno y. can someone save mi frm all tis mess? i nid some help!

when will tis situation turn frm bad to gd? will it continue to get worse or better? i dno wad i'll do or i dun even noe if i can handle it well if it gets worse. i hate tis situation, i hate tis feeling!