说谎

人为什么要说谎？谎言被拆穿后，还有谁会选择相信或原谅？从撒谎的那一刻起，你还能相信吗？如果一个人问你问题，你最好告诉他实话。他会问你就表示他可能已经知道答案了。如果是我，会给你机会解释说真话。如果最终还是要隐瞒，不要怪我不相信也请滚出我的生命。原谅一个人也要看是什么错误，值不值得被原谅。看的事情越多，越不敢去相信。有时候让你学会不去轻易相信别人的反而是你最信任的人，很矛盾对吧？

无关紧要，与我无关，撇开这些不谈。请祝我好运，考试顺利。我快累垮了，总觉得时间不够。进度很慢，老记不住。

Shuffle bistro bar

Meetup with ei8ht at shuffle bistro bar, ordered pizza and some finger food like truffle fries, spicy hot wings, cereal calamari and my all-time favourite iced lemon tea. Shuffle is similar to timbre just that the live bands will sing a mixture of english, chinese and cantopop songs. The first live band 'the shufflers' wasn't as good as the second band 'paraphrase'. Waited the whole night till 11.30pm just to hear 'paraphrase' sing one song before I leave, I should stay longer next time. The vocalist's voice is really nice and soothing. Mesmerized~ Just one song and he received lots of applause, good recommendation by nat the birthday girl. Bought banana cake for her, not a cake lover but it's nice to the point that I managed to finish it. Left first with yl and got a free ride home, sorry for being a 'burden' and lightbulb!

I'm not the type that will go an extra mile to meet new people and make friends with them. I just won't do these kind of things, don't see the need to. If I insist on not doing something, no amount of persuasion will work, that's how stubborn I am (hy and my sis will know best). When it reaches the point when I don't want to repeat myself anymore, I'll just lose my temper. Don't like people to force me to do anything I'm not interested in, I mean nobody will like right?

Managed to change the destination from bkk to hk, don't need to worry too much about safety anymore. I know I sound suaku but it will be my first time taking an airplane, hope I don't have motion sickness, looking forward to this trip. Hopefully my bro will be able to join us.

Even though I can't go tw and find you but I'm equally happy with you coming here. Don't need to wait 3 years anymore, see you in Nov! First person to perform in the new stadium, should be able to get ticket since the venue can accommodate more people but he will only be here for a day. This came at the right timing, I really need it. Maybe I'll be able to hear my favourite song this time round? I'll definitely go Mr J restaurant someday...

Meetups

Dinner at saizeriya was cheap and nice, very full by the time I finished my baked rice. No more room for pizza anymore. 不是故意不讲话，是难过得说不出话。掩饰不了心里的难过所以躲到厕所去。你的婚宴我就不去了。或许以后我不会再出现在你面前，我怕不见面我会很想你想见你更怕见了会很难过。该感到开心却怎么都开心不起来。如果疼我对我好的人是你那就好了。不管我做什么你都不认同，常常让我觉得原来我有这么多你不喜欢不满意的地方。不听话的我真的很固执，爱黏人又很烦。

Dinner at standing sushi bar with min, bel and liz. I don't really like sashimi, still prefer cooked food. Liz just came back from korea and honestly, it's a bit awkward. I didn't try to get updates from min in case she doesn't feel comfortable sharing it with liz around. I guess we just drifted apart as we didn't keep in contact with her as well. Went to lady m cafe for dessert, received a navy blue longchamp bag from them! Love it~ It's my favourite colour! Yay! :D Gave min her pandora charm, it's what she intended to get too. Sometimes I really wonder if I'm a girl cause I don't really like cakes or sweet stuff or those stuff that girls usually like.

Sis won 8 free airplane tickets for my cousins and family, we are given the choice to select our preferred destination. Of all places we had to choose bkk, not sure if it will be safe to travel there during June. We are not allowed to change the destination after confirmation cause the tickets were free. Just book first and if it's not safe, we will have to forgo the tickets. Please let it be safe, I want to go bkk, don't let the tickets go to waste.

宝贝阿晴胖嘟嘟的很可爱很聪明可是也越来越坏。我要闭关修炼了，加油啊，希望我不会偷懒！

Nan hwa chong fishhead steamboat

Nan hwa chong fish head steamboat dinner with ei8ht on friday, some couldn't make it. Realised that it's near my grandma's place, fish lover like me definitely will like it. Received valentine's day cookies from nat. Ordered some side dishes and it's our first lohei despite 7 years of friendship. Most of the yusheng ended up on the table, quite messy. Came out of the toilet and saw them lighting the candle for my belated birthday, no wonder jy wanted me to go to the toilet. First time using chopsticks to eat the 'cake'. Found out that they mixed up my birthday with jackie's so none of them wished me and they were still talking to me on that day but nobody said a thing. I was waiting for their messages, thinking when will they say it. They really have good chemistry, still thought that they collaborated not to say anything. Then they started sending me belated birthday wishes.

Some of them left first and the rest went to la marelle cafe to chill. Gathered some valuable updates about some of them, luckily I didn't leave early. I'm lucky that my parents won't keep asking me questions like when am I going to find a boyfriend, I'm of a suitable age to find one already etc etc. Even if they did ask and I don't want to answer, I'll just ignore and keep quiet, let them know that I'm unhappy.

心痛。心情不好会句句带刺。现在已经这么难过了，不晓得能不能承受结婚的消息。只知道一定会非常非常非常难受。可不可以任性的希望你不会离开，只因为我不想失去？只能怪自己咎由自取。你的难过别人不在乎。说不难过是骗人的，怎么可能会不难过呢？原来失去心爱的东西会这么难受 :((

CNY

The Teos reunite for CNY! Steamboat dinner at 三伯 house during cny eve and all the gamblers started playing mahjong and poker cards. My brother won all their money, asked him to treat me prata for supper, he treated all 6 of us.

Dressed like a big angbao and I know that heels make me taller, but who can resist heels? Models also wear heels and they are also very tall, so why can't I wear it? Don't agree that heels are meant for short people, but anyway I also seldom wear. Gathered at 大伯 house on 初一, after that my family went to my grandma's house. Have been looking forward to dinner there, I love the sumptuous meal cooked by 小阿姨, even if it's always the same dishes every year. They always spent a lot to buy nice and fresh ingredients. Went back to 大伯 house and my brother wanted to win silas' money but he ended up losing so he stopped playing. Hy finally gained back what she lost the day before. She's really unlucky but thankfully her luck changed if not all the money will be in my brother's pocket. I never play at all cause I don't want to lose, never play also got people treat haha. I wonder why he always win, cannot play with him one. My brother won about $50, asked him to treat me vanilla cone ice cream hehe. I'm contented with just a vanilla cone, vanilla cone makes me happy :)

初二 was at my 姑姑 condo for a while, the condo's really small, my room is even bigger than hers. One of the room only has sufficient space for a single bed, just take about 1 or 2 steps in and you can lie down already. There's no space to walk. Went to 三伯 house and played card game "resistance", it's a game of deceit. Quite fun, hx is really good at deceiving. My innocent and blur look fooled them, they believed that I'm not among the gang of 3 spies and kept on saying I won't lie one. Wanted to laugh when they said that, that's the advantage you get when you are always this honest, people will always believe you. But after that they don't believe me anymore. I had my share of fun, what about you?

Caught the movie "I, frankenstein" and I like it, quite exciting and thrilling. The kind of movie that I'll always watch. Tried 美人锅 and I like the collagen soup. I'm oblivious to my surroundings, it has been tested and proven 99% true. Why so blur? 真是冷酷无情。Still couldn't resist feeling sad when I heard stuff which I don't wish to hear. Whenever that happens, I'll always avoid, suddenly stop talking and do other stuff, pretend like I'm not listening. I'll always look down when I'm sad, either my face or eyes will reveal how I'm feeling. 还是很喜欢很想见到你，你不在的时候心情顿时变得低落。

Started running around my neighbourhood every week, I'll increase the rounds once I built up my stamina. Hopefully exercising will make me eat more and I'll grow fatter, but I really hate running.

Christmas exchange

大忙人 ah rin 在忙什么呢？

23rd seems like a popular day to meet up but based on a first-come-first-served basis, ei8ht didn't meet up because I'm not free. The only date all 8 of us could make it was 23rd but too bad I was already reserved by DBA01 a month ago. Did last minute shopping for the Teo's christmas exchange before meeting up with DBA01 for dinner at &made burger by chef bruno menard (pacific plaza). Main course are all burgers, had honey salmon burger with fries. Waited for boonie to come then headed over to tcc for drinks and gift exchange. Got a starbucks tumbler from boonie, yam got my chocolate fondue set. Luckily it's a girl who got it if not the guys are going to nag at me. Everyone can use it but I don't think this group of guys will use. It's so difficult to think of a unisex gift, predicted that tumbler will be a popular choice, true enough 3 people bought it. Boonie bought the gift just a few minutes ago, quite insincere but I understand that she's busy. Again, wx was very quiet, kept thinking about the plan on thursday. His heart was not with us :P They are planning a getaway during feb, not sure if I want to go.

Spent christmas eve with bel and min, had dinner at oriole cafe & bar at 313, ordered st.louis pork ribs, fish & chips and baked seafood linguine. Went over to providore at mandarin gallery for drinks and gift exchange. I got a clutch from bel. We were chilling at that place and looking at the crowd, town's really packed. Saw a group of youngsters spraying cans of those foam-like thingy which you need to shake first before it will come out. They were doing it in the middle of orchard road, along the streets. It seems fun, if I was younger, I'd have joined in the fun but too bad I'm already past that crazy stage. They were just having fun without much thought and it landed on the people passing by, including me.

Both siblings celebrated their christmas abroad leaving me alone, felt quite lonely. It seemed really quiet without my brother and his nonsense, presents were also reduced from 10 last year to 5 this year, seems so pathetic. Felt as though I'm santa claus cause I gave them chocolate almond & starbucks voucher as well, no doubt the season of giving. Offered to help hy buy her present before I generate the secret santa email cause she might not have time to buy, told her that it'd be "best" if she's my secret santa. It'd mean that I've to go and buy the present for myself and joked that it's not impossible cause 命运爱作弄人, she might just be my secret santa after all. What can I say, 命运真的爱作弄人 haha. We were each other's secret santa and the lucky thing was, she told me what she wanted as well. It became much easier for me. She went to buy the present herself in the end. She hinted that she could have gotten a much cheaper one with more quantity but she only saw it after she bought the expensive one. I guessed that she got the same stuff as me cause I was in the same situation. We both got masks from the same shop and same as her I only saw the expensive one initially, was already queueing to pay but somehow I doubled back and saw the cheaper one. It was what she wanted anyway. I'm really very lucky. Don't let me guess anything, I can be quite a good guesser sometimes, that's how I always spoil surprises. Played saboteur and I won all 4 rounds! But I only got 1 out of maximum 3 golds each turn, is this lucky or unlucky?

Received jy's handmade card & lip balm in my mail, 太有心了。我很喜欢 :)

Singing

6 hours of teo heng with the usual DBA01 singing gang along with mel's friends, it's always a pleasure to hear them sing. 实力派唱将。Wx sings all the old chinese songs, jeff sings all english songs, mel is a mixture. There's a few jay chou fans that day, I like :) First time having 3 pages filled with his songs. I didn't choose a single jay chou song but ended up singing most of it cause they kept pushing it to me. I like his songs but doesn't mean that I will only sing his songs, I know how to sing other songs too. 说真的，不是他的每一首歌我都喜欢唱。别人每次问我为什么喜欢他，他又不帅。心里很无奈想着难道喜欢一个人一定要看他帅不帅吗？不能纯粹是喜欢他的音乐才华吗？Sometimes I don't know what songs to sing anymore, just don't have the feel to sing a lot of songs.

It's very obvious that wx was very quiet, can tell that he immediately become relaxed when they left cause he started crapping with me like nobody's business. It's really a 360 degrees change. Dinner at watami (the star vista), then to cafe coffee and after the shop closed, we just sat at the steps near the atrium, just chill and have heart-to-heart talk with them. They talked, I listened. I think all of us agree that guys should always make the first move cause girls usually don't do that or don't like doing that. Nothing will ever happen if you just wait.

Considering if I should go to eason's concert on 1 mar, quite tempted but I'm faced with that problem again. 让我聊一下周阿伦，陪我听他的歌，我会觉得开心啊。陪我去他的演唱会我会更开心 :D

情感丰富，赞！好好听哦~ 这一定不会比现场来得震撼。或许你没听过这首歌，但真的挺不错的，不妨听听看。之前找的视频因为版权问题不能听了。