CNY

CNY eve was spent eating steamboat at home instead of going to relative's house and meeting up with my cousins. The thing that I like about steamboat is that we get to gather around and eat steamboat and joke around. The only thing that I missed this CNY eve. Finally cut my hair, 留了一年的长发终于舍得剪了。

This year's CNY is definitely a quieter one, did not meet a lot of relatives, only my cousins and sister. I'm not complaining because I'm spending time with those closer to me. Even if we go to our relative's house, we will go inside a room and gamble or go out to take pictures. No CNY mood this year though, doesn't feel like it's CNY, not as lively as before.

Went to find our cousins who live just a few streets away from us, I still dress up cause I already bought new clothes previously but did not get a chance to wear them. If I did not dress up, then it will really not feel like CNY. I do have some friends who did not buy new clothes cause they are not going house visiting at all. Surprisingly, people on the streets are dressing up as well, luckily I'm not the only one if not I will be overdressed. My bro did not buy new clothes but I forced him to wear something nice to avoid being the exceptional one haha.

Played ban luck, my favourite CNY game, I've more luck for ban luck haha. Learnt a new game, poker, exciting game because you can either lose a lot or win a lot in one round. Sounds similar to in between but you don't need to use much brain for in-between but there are a lot of possibilities for poker. When you have too much confidence in your own cards and did not think of other possibilities, that's when you will lose. Last year lost money, this year recoup back haha.

Went to my sis house on 初二，please don't ask me to play in between or baccarat, these two are totally not my game. I always get dealt ban luck cards for baccarat so I always lose a lot, tested and proven for many years. This year's luck is not bad cause I won some money, even if I lost, it's not a lot either.

 

 

 

Christmas Eve & New Year’s Eve

又到了吃火锅的季节啦，天气冷吃火锅保暖。这个在我的身上不成立因为我吃火锅没有在看季节的啦，随时都可以吃，最爱吃火锅了。

As expected, Christmas eve and New Year's eve will always be with my family/cousins. I will always save that day for them even if no plans has been made yet cause this has been our tradition for many years, not planning to break this tradition.

No plans for Christmas eve, initially wanted to gather at one of the cousin's house but due to the limitation of people allowed in gatherings, our plans got pushed back to New Year's eve instead. I got a sudden craving for steamboat so I asked my siblings and hy out for hdl. I love their tomato soup and herbal chicken soup, although I feel that the tomato soup taste different, a little bland, 我喜欢重口味啦。Got an additional free half portion of pork due to credit card promotion, cheap thrill.

Ordered beauty in a pot on New Year's eve, I love their collagen soup. Ordered too much and didn't manage to finish the food, gave the remainder to my cousin's family. 特别喜欢跟他们聚在一起的感觉，大家围在一起吃吃喝喝有说有笑，特别开心。Went to my sis place to play code names and among us. I am terrible at among us, I really hate being the imposter. I'm afraid I'll be exposed if I lie and I'm not good in lying although I tried. Actions too slow, don't know how to kill people, kill people also get discovered, I only know how to sabotage. My best partner is my bro, I sabotage and he kills, high victory rate. Even if I'm the crewmate, I always walk pass the dead body/murderer and never report because I'm busy looking at the map/doing quests. 玩到太入神了没注意时间，两点才回家，到家洗完澡直接秒睡。

厌世

近期很喜欢的一首歌：毕竟深爱过，旋律好听，歌词有点揪心。有人说过我爱听口水歌，没错我现在还是很喜欢口水歌。旋律好听的歌谁不喜欢啊，只是我好像比较注重旋律多于歌词。有人问我你听得懂情歌歌词吗？为什么不懂？又不是文盲，我识字好不好？我才不想听懂咧。

这两个月吃很多，脸好像又变圆了，虽然我的脸没瘦过。很讨人厌欸，每次肥的都是脸 :(

过几天就要回公司上班了，我不要～我不想这么早起床，我想睡多一点，想赖床。我想偷懒，不想工作，我想要退休，这么年轻就要退休哈哈。为什么要赚钱养活自己？如果这世上所有东西都不需要钱，那应该不会有人想要工作。如果旅游不用钱，我早就环绕世界一圈了。回去公司应该会很忙，可能需要加班，我不要～压力有点大，我不要～最讨厌这种明明可以居家办公却因为需要一些文件而必须回公司上班，我不要～更糟的是，睡醒看到我弟还在睡觉就会觉得更sian。我弟可以居家办公到八月欸，真好。他还一直说一些刺激我的话，存心想把我给气死。先回去看情况如何，最好下个星期之后就不需要再回去。希望不会忙到每天都要回公司。

我不想回公司上班，我还没调整好心态 :( 人生好无趣，无聊透了。厌世中。。。

追剧

有一段时间没有看台湾偶像剧了，听说《想见你》很红终于去看了。这是一部爱情穿越剧，挺不错的，喜欢看穿越剧的人可以去看。因为穿越了才有接下来所发生的事情。那如果一开始就没有穿越，结局是不是就会不一样？自己去看那部剧不就知道了吗？我没那么爱看爱情剧除非真的很好看。有些爱情剧节奏比较慢，我比较喜欢剧情参杂一点奇幻或惊悚的元素，那种剧情比较容易吸引到我。

不需要为了谁而把自己变成他喜欢的样子。你再怎么努力都无法达到他要的标准。你装得辛苦，他也能感觉得到那不是真实的你。何必为了他而委屈自己，何必活在别人的影子下过生活？你有你独特的一面，总会有个人懂得欣赏你的独特。

男女主角在不同的时间里来回穿梭，但不变的是男主角对女主角始终如一的爱。一直在听想见你想见你想见你，好听！

刚看完的韩剧signal也是类似穿越剧，可是它不是人穿越而是物品穿越，不确定怎么形容，自己去看就知道了哈哈。Signal也很好看！

大家最近待在家还好吗？我是挺喜欢的，喜欢晚睡晚起，我最喜欢的就是不用这么早起床。最近在跟家人朋友玩手游又追了很多部剧，挺开心的，名副其实的宅女，我也懒得出去。推荐几个手游给无聊的你，houseparty 可以和家人朋友视讯又可以一起玩游戏，全民party还可以和朋友在同个包厢唱歌玩游戏只是不能合唱。一个月对我来说还好，再多一个月我可能就会开始觉得闷了吧，不确定。我还蛮享受独处的时间，做着自己喜欢的事。早知道要再闭关多一个月，我应该先去买个拼图，闭关完就拼好了。

想见你只想见你
未来过去 我只想见你

日本

现在的我应该在日本看樱花，大吃大喝玩得很开心。事事不如意，现在的我没得去:( 午餐时间为了要平复心情还特意去吃日本拉面假装自己身在日本。难得我决定要去却遇到防疫状况，算了吧，日本随时都能去，健康最重要。自从年底生了一场大病花了几天才痊愈，我就已经开始意识到健康的重要性。这次的疫情好恐怖，害怕自己会不小心受到感染也害怕无意间会传染给别人。很多人都已经开始在家里工作了，为什么还没轮到我？我也想可是我不能，我有很多文件都在公司。

这次的疫情有点像丧尸病毒，一直不断的扩散给更多人，有丧尸根本就不用出门。我看太多丧尸的戏了啦哈哈，就是特别爱看丧尸吸血鬼题材的电视剧。目前为止我最爱的丧尸电影绝对非 train to busan 莫属，那是唯一一部我重复看了很多遍却还想再看的电影。人有两面，这部剧完全体现出人类的自私和人类的无私奉献。

希望大家都健健康康的，希望疫情赶快过去。我想去日本，从来都没去过。

CNY

I love CNY because I get to meet up with my cousins and eat steamboat with them, I get to eat my favourite steamboat and mookata. 3 days of steamboat but I still feel like I didn't eat enough, that shows how much I love steamboat. Pig year is my lucky year, I won all their money in gambling on the last day of pig year. Rat year is not my year, I lost everything. I didn't count how much I lost, I just keep digging money out until there's no more left.

This is the first CNY we don't need to visit our grandparents because they are not around anymore. First CNY we didn't eat steamboat together with my sis, feels a bit weird when we didn't go to our relatives' house together and go home together. Even though there's only 1 person missing but hx felt that there are lesser people left in our group, a bit exaggerated.

No plans to watch movie on second day of CNY because there's no stephen chow's movie. We wanted to watch another movie but some of them have watched already. We played a new game undercover this year, interesting game because you won't know if you are civilian, undercover or Mr White. Civilian will be given the correct word, undercover will be given a similar word, Mr White will not be given any word. Everyone has to give a one word description but Mr White has to listen to what others are saying and try to guess the word and give the correct description so others will not suspect him and eliminate him. Even if he is eliminated, undercover and Mr White will win if he managed to guess the correct word. Blur me thought I got the civilian's word and gave a very obvious hint, they eliminated me during the first round. Second time I played I became smarter, gave very vague hints and thought that I'm the civilian again. I ended up eliminating my own team members and confused the civilians making them think that they are not the civilians. In the end, I realised that I'm the undercover but I still managed to win with me and my bro left in the game, 傻人有傻福 haha.

We didn't take much pictures this year, those taken doesn't look very nice either. 随便拍拍，连我的双下巴都一起拍进去，算了啦，我已经没有什么形象了。I’m looking forward to my Japan trip, hopefully we can go!

Hope that everyone stay safe, happy and healthy all year round.

周杰伦2020嘉年华演唱会

一首世界末日开启了我支持周杰伦的道路，没错我是他20年的铁粉。他的出现改变了华语乐坛，自弹自唱自己创作的歌曲，我不确定他是不是首位会创作的歌手但那个时候他绝对是少数。因为他，之后开始出现很多创作歌手。虽然他唱得模糊不清但他代表的是一个态度，当下年轻人都开始关注他。就算你没有听他的歌，你也听过他的名字知道他是谁。他虽然没有天籁之音，但是让他出名的本来就是他的创作。他的歌曲也会传递一些讯息，不单单只是在唱情歌，他的快歌也很好听，很多首歌曲都脍炙人口。他的歌曲有一种魔咒，越听越好听而且很耐人寻味。

我去了他的嘉年华演唱会，真的是意犹未尽，首首都是经典。这次他只安排一次安可，不然我们会死赖着不走非要喊三次安可才满意。人老了，没有体力唱这么多次安可是不是哈哈。他这次演唱会的主题是想回馈给20年的铁粉，谢谢我们这20年来的不离不弃，所以唱了很多老歌让我们有种回到过去的感觉。他也唱了一些比较冷门的歌曲，但是身为铁粉的我全部都有听过全部都会唱。满满的回忆杀，虽然他平时都会感谢歌迷去他的演唱会，可是昨天特别感动毕竟已经支持他20年了。以前去他的演唱会都要买荧光棒，现在都不用买，他直接送。荧光棒还有很多颜色，会随着不同的歌曲转换颜色，好酷哦。

今天真的是我最幸福最幸运的一天因为我等了13年，他终于唱了我最爱的歌，还不止这样，他唱了我最喜欢的三首歌曲。应该没有人知道我最喜欢的前三首歌曲是蒲公英的约定，轨迹，一路向北。很巧的是，这三首都跟他的电影有关。两首是主题曲，另一首有出现在电影但是那个时候只有曲，后来他拿去填词才有了这首歌。第一次听觉得很耳熟，后来才发现原来这首曲有出现在他的电影，只有铁粉才知道是哪一部电影。

我听到腻的告白气球他居然唱了两次，因为他的铁粉在点歌环节又再点了这首歌。杰伦还亏他说在唱这首歌的时候，他是不是去上厕所？杰伦人太好还是应歌迷的要求唱了这首歌，拜托他有这么多首歌，你随便点一首安静也可以啊。隔天他有唱明明就，安静和黑色幽默，好想听。为什么我没有去这场？我之前不是说过他好像很喜欢开不了口这首歌吗？每一场演唱会都会唱，结果那天也有唱，我真的不愧是20年的铁粉。

他考我们第一张专辑的第一首歌是什么，没有人记得。当时脑海闪过的第一个念头是可爱女人，回家确认真的是这首歌。我记得他在某一场演唱会有说过。继上次请歌迷吃面之后，这次还说如果在餐厅遇到他，他会请我们吃饭。他还叫我们带家人朋友一起去，要留意他会去哪间餐厅。我的偶像就是这么大方而且出了名的说话算话。我的偶像超亲民的好不好？说他骄傲的人一点都不了解他。谁家的偶像会请歌迷吃饭啊？他还会感谢工作人员说他们很辛苦维持现场秩序，他下台三次还在下台前跟歌迷说一声要他们注意安全。我家的偶像超好的好不好？

我知道你很有才华，可是你这样会逼死很多人。你会弹钢琴弹吉他就算了，现在连古筝都会弹。重点是，看你弹好像很容易一样，你好像不用花太多努力就会了。他除了唱自己的歌之外还唱了写给别人的歌。他有点不正常因为居然没有严重忘词，和以前比起来少数忘词，有很大的进步！我真的很喜欢去你的演唱会，一看到你就觉得很开心，你说的话总是有办法让我笑开怀。你多来新加坡开演唱会好不好？你演唱会的门票都比别人贵很多，就像你说的以后办不售票演唱会好不好:P 演唱会结束总有一种失落感，不希望它结束，想一直听下去不想回家。

我很庆幸我生存在有周杰伦的时代，他是个传奇，我等了20年还没等到能取代他的人，应该很难有第二个周杰伦了吧？我的青春都是周杰伦，不同的歌代表着不同阶段的我。不管几年，我都还是会继续支持你，谢谢你一直创作出这么棒的歌曲陪伴我，期待下一个20年！谢谢你陪着我们成长，我们会陪你一起慢慢变老。我们跟你之间的约定，如果你唱到80岁，我们还是会去听你的演唱会。

CNY

I love CNY because I love to eat steamboat, not because of the ingredients but I love the soup. I love Mandarin oranges as well. I love CNY because I like spending time and playing games with my cousins. CNY is always fun because of them.

Won some money playing ban luck, I keep winning but lost all to my aunt when she joined in halfway. I was too greedy, wanted to recoup my losses and keep taking my winnings out but I lost all. I thought the zodiac horse will have good luck in gambling this year, sadly not for me because I was too greedy. Played sushi card game and I was always last until they started teasing me and I got first in the last game, surprising all of them. 我只是不想赢，若我想赢，你们谁都不是我的对手，哈哈没有啦开玩笑而已。

As usual we spent 初二 watching Stephen chow’s movie, the new king of comedy. Record breaking of 12 people watching, 第一次看电影霸占了一整排！The storyline is very simple, I won’t classify it as a great movie but it’s not too terrible to the point that we are wasting money watching it. Some parts are still funny, I did laugh and some parts were sad, I didn’t cry but there are people who cry though. 贺岁片就是看一看笑一笑嘛，不用太认真啦。Got a surprise birthday cake from the cousins, totally didn’t expect it, wanted to take pictures but hy wanted to buy something first. My sis and I were complaining cause my sis needs to go but we still need to wait for hy. Out of a sudden she appeared with 2 birthday cakes for both of us! My sis birthday is just a day apart from mine.

Played a new game, werewolf, I got agitated trying to defend myself and making my point across. Someone keep targeting me for no reason and no one was helping me. Not that I was angry, I just feel that we shouldn't do anything reckless based on gut feeling instead of logic. Not that I'm very clever or what because I've no clue who are the werewolves, I just think that we might be killing our own kind and benefit the werewolves. Thinking back, I shouldn't react that way, 好胜不想输所以才会这样，可是我没有恶意哦！I will tone down in future.

最近在看我最喜欢的林依晨演的古装剧小女花不弃，她好可爱哦。这么多年了还是一样可爱，她真的很适合演古灵精怪的角色。喜欢这部剧的片尾曲，白衣少年，好听！犯一下小花痴，男主角好帅哈哈。如果我身边也有一个会在我遇到危险的时候一直保护我的人，那该有多好。

Wedding banquets

Hectic and busy weekend helping out and attending wedding banquets but I'm glad it's finally over and I can finally have sufficient rest and sleep. My laptop is back! Attended 3 wedding banquets back to back over the weekends, I had the most energy for the first one since I had sufficient rest the night before. I was only involved with reception duty, helping bride change into second gown and holding her dress when she had to walk from table to table for photo-taking. I totally didn't expect her to give me such a big angbao, I totally forgot they will give. Even if I remember, I wouldn't expect so much and she only gave me after the whole event so I can't even return some to her because I already gave her my angbao. I don't feel that I did a lot, there is really no need for her to give me so much, will treat her to dinner when we meet the next time. I didn't expect her to ask me to be her sister either, I thought she will ask her other friends. Not that we are not close, but I thought she might have other friends whom she feels closer with. 是我人缘好吗？:D I still like the song Perfect no matter how many times I've listened to it at wedding banquets but I still prefer original singer version. In fact I'm more sick of hearing 告白气球, used to like that song but not anymore.

The evening banquet is more relaxing because I don't need to do anything, just need to show up and eat. My friends could tell I was tired for the night, I was starting to yawn towards the end of the banquet. The live band was a little different from the usual ones because they allow anyone to go up and sing or dedicate songs to the newly-wed but mostly it was the older generation who went up so we heard quite a lot of oldies. Had a good chat with Jeff about the good old times, I missed those carefree days where we will always go out in one big group and watch movies after lesson ended or sing k after exams ended. Complained about those times when we had to do project and dissatisfaction with some biased teacher etc. 我承认我对朋友很好，好到有时候有些人会欺负我，可是如果觉得自己被欺负了还是会说出来。我不是对每个人都好，只有我的朋友还是我喜欢的人我才会对他们好，不熟的人我根本就不会理会他们。我当时对你好只是觉得你需要帮忙而我又可以帮得到你，那当然要帮啊！我也没有想太多，只是觉得你是我的朋友，帮你没有关系啊，我又不会有损失。真的想欺负你的人，又怎么会觉得不好意思？

Reached home at 12+, slept at 1am, woke up at 5am and started preparing for the final wedding for that weekend. This is the fourth time I’ve been asked to be sister, I still have one more at the end of the year. Good thing is, there is no gatecrash and the groom had so much sincerity we didn't make things too difficult for him either. He gave 3 angbaos and all of them are in SGD, he didn't even try to slot in any fake cash or monopoly money or rupiah. I thought only the last angbao will be the real deal but nope, all 3 are the real deals, how to make things difficult for him? Helped out with tea ceremony, played the solemnization song (Jay Chou's own wedding march in song) when they marched in, reception duty, playing videos and displaying the pictures for dinner. I was exhausted and keep yawning, when we reached the hotel, I don't even feel like talking anymore. Actually wanted to give $200+ but ended up giving $300+ because the groom gave us $100 angbao for helping out so we returned all, rich kid haha. The bride gave a heartwarming speech, very touching but nope I didn't cry but the bride did. The menu for the first two wedding banquets are almost similar, thankfully fullerton's one was totally different if not I'd have gotten so sick of eating the same 8-course meal for 2 days. I can finally drink alcohol yesterday but I only drank champagne. I was afraid to drink for the previous two, need to wake up early the next day don’t want to get drunk. Live band sang almost the same songs as previous night but one thing I don't understand, towards the end they started singing 小幸运, right here waiting which I think was inappropriate for such a happy occasion. Min is so busy until even after the event ended, I still have not received the wedding invitation haha.

Anyway, congrats Mrs Yeo, Mr Kee and Mrs Tan. Have a blissful marriage and 早生贵子! 4 down, 3 more to go.